I’m sorry you’re going through this.
Trust me, you’re strong
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Thank You So Much, @Nice2knowU. 
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I think that it’s better if she will live her last days (at) home…
Rather than in an unfamiliar place.
She will have me by her side…
Always.
And my brother, too.
I will have to strengthen myself for what is to come.
I’m scared if she will die at night, since then my anxiety and panic might be uncontrollable…
My dad died when I was 13,and I was too scared to see his body, until i saw him at the chapel…
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Idk what else to say…but i know you are in a panic mode and its normal. Lets just have faith that she will survive it. And miracle happens and she come back home healthy again…
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She can get better, she has gotten better before
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Stay strong George…
I know it’s hard to be so when people tell you their opinions
They don’t know what’s going on besides their diagnosis and what she’s being given on their end
Things can make turns before their eyes
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I Truly Wish So,. MY Friends.
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All of the Above. 
And, just so you are aware, I sent her extra help and offered extra prayers for her tonight.
Jonathan is right, things CAN and DO change “on a dime” all the time, as the saying goes.
Don’t limit your thinking, it’s not over until it’s over! Also don’t limit the powers assisting you by constricting your mental perception of the possible outcomes. Stay hopeful and optimistic as much as possible.
Beyond that, Soulstar, I think you have made a good choice by choosing to have her home. It is a much better place for her. If she is at home you can play tracks for her, you can help her get better nutrition and hydration, (if she improves enough to eat) and you can be there for her by her side to comfort her and reassure her and you can be sure she will be treated with love and kindness.
Depending on how you look at it, in many ways, being at home improves her chances AND will offer her a better shot at improved physical, emotional, and mental wellbeing. (Spiritual too)
Now…in regards to your fears and trepidation about what the future may hold…
TRUST that it will work out how it should, because it will.
Everything is transitory…My Dad always used to say “this too shall pass” and you know what? It always did.
So it is, this too shall pass, it is just part of the journey, but certainly not the end of it. Whether there is more left in the chapters of the current physical incarnation, or the story switches to the “non physical”, the story and journey still continue.
Two of my loved ones died at home with me by their side almost the whole time.
I say almost, because in both cases they needed to pass on when people were distracted…If you have ever read Autobiography of A Yogi, then you would possibly have an idea of why this was.
A short summary I found on google to explain:
The “school and the deer” in Autobiography of a Yogi refers to an event at the Ranchi Boys School where a young deer, a cherished pet, died after being overfed by a student. Yogananda was able to revive the deer through prayer, but the deer appeared to him in a dream, asking to be let go so its soul could be released from the physical body. Yogananda then granted his permission, and the deer passed away, teaching him a lesson about attachment and the soul’s journey beyond death.
There is more to this, but simply put, it is important to evaluate the situation as only you can do…What do you think your mother is experiencing and what do you think she would want? Now, having considered that, ask yourself, what you want for her? Most of All, for her to be Happy, right?
This is not to prompt any type of decision or to lift or lower your spirits, just to give you a bit of perspective so you might look at it from various angles.
Speaking as someone who gave his own dad CPR until the ambulance arrived (far too late) and had to hold his lifeless body, I can sincerely empathize with your fears and sorrow, but again, I can also tell you that all of it is temporary.
We are all far stronger than we give ourselves credit for, and whether we know it or not, life doesn’t give us anything that we cannot get through if we utilize even half of the resources that we are gifted with, both internal and external.
It’s better that you are there with your mother to comfort and support her.
Soulstar, you’re not 13 anymore My Friend, it’s apparent to those of us on the forum that have read and followed your postings, you have grown into a fine young man.
I think that whatever lies ahead, you have greater strength, potential, and grit, than you can be aware of at the moment.
It’s the very difficult times in life when we get a good gauge of what we are made of, and I think I’m not the only one who would agree you 
are cut from quality cloth!
AND just to be clear, being strong, doesn’t mean you don’t cry, or feel small, or lonely, or despondent or anything else pleasant or unpleasant.
What strong means is that you are able to pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and continue on your journey knowing that your loved ones are still supporting you from a space that is just outside your current perception.
They still walk the path with you, the only difference is that now you’re out in front taking the lead for now. But they are still there, walking their own journey, learning their own lessons, and living right “alongside” you.
Again, whatever may come, you have everything you need in spades to traverse the rocky parts of the path and flourish while doing so! (AND don’t forget that you have lots of support here and I’m sure offline as well.)
I’ll say it again, TRUST in the Benevolence of Creation, Soulstar, things are very rarely as they seem at a glance.
You cannot open a 10000000000000 page novel randomly, read one word in one sentence, and then assume you know the entire story contained within it’s pages. 
At this point, we are yet but as infants upon our paths, there is so much more beyond what we have even begun to imagine. So take Heart Dear Soul Brother!!! Goodness Abounds! The INFINITE LOVE has already turned ALL Things to GOOD. In Due Time and Order, we shall see and experience this. 
In the meantime, when your mind and thoughts race, occupy them by considering all the advantages to having your mother at home and what things you can do for her at home that you couldn’t do for her in the hospital.
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Thank You.
Indeed, You are Both Right, Miracles can and do happen, plus the Biggest Miracles Already Happened (judging from my current incarnation P.o.v.) : my mom exists in this world, she brought me here and offered me All the Love, Help and Wisdom she could, these were and are still the Greatest Miracles and Gifts of all, starting with Life, which I have thanks to her.
I tried to view things from her perspective, and she had very little joy in living here, after the amputations, thus, she mostly wanted to live for us, for her children…
I tried to speak with her Higher Self and I presented my views, wishes etc.
I cannot say what is her will on a higher level, wether she wants to end this journey (on her current incarnation) or continue it, all I know is that she is and will remain my mom, a dear and unique soul/being for me, no matter how things go from here.
I want what is good for her, yet/but I also wish for her to stay here with us, a little bit more, if possible, if she agrees to…
As for her chances at home, Idk…
I just hope for the Best.
Indeed, at home there are some advantages, but there are advantages if she’s hospitalized too.
For now, she still remains hospitalized, the question was for the near future, raging from the next days, to possible weeks, but again, I will take Your Advice, and I will try not to limit anything with a closed or limited vision for the future…
Right now or today they are still trying to save her life, including through plasma transfusion.
Soon I will visit her, if I’m allowed, depending on the circumstances.
The Yogananda event you mentioned, it is beautiful.
You and Your Dear Father were/are right: indeed, anything and everything is temporary.
Im sorry that you went through such pain…
But You are making Him Proud, seeing such an Amazing Son he raised.
I know the journey for all of us continues, it is intertwined and we are all in union with the Highest Reality and with the Whole and with Each Other, it’s just the veils of this world and our incarnations and our experiences and capabilities which limit our view and understanding…
I do know that the journey goes forward for all of us, and I Thank You for reminding me of that and all the other things which you have mentioned.
Be Blessed, My Friend, You, Your Father, and Everyone who has interacted with me, and Everyone on this forum, and Everyone, Everywhere…
Thank You for Being Here.
Thank You for Loving, Healing and Guiding Others.
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I’m not, it’s part of life My Friend, and to be honest, I Am very Grateful that I was there when my dad passed on, another family member was not and has always regretted it immensely, even though it was no fault of their own.
It’s strange, but I treasure that last time spent with my dad. Yes, it was difficult, but he and my grandmother have since then visited.
In my experience, loved ones may not always hang around, but they are still reachable and do continually check up on and watch over those still incarnated.
Not in all cases of course, and this is not the place for such a discussion, but they are not gone or even separated in the ways many people often think.
They have more growth and lessons to learn too, but time on the other side of the veil after a point is vastly different than here…again, not the place for further detail, but you don’t have to worry about losing your mother whenever she does journey to the other side. It’s not like she will suddenly stop being your mother.
That holds true for you as well, (for your dad) and hey, it takes one to know one, right?
Absolutely, live in the present and just take each moment at a time and trust that whatever happens has been provided for in benevolence.
With all the prayers and assistance by those who have joined together to aid in this cause, there is attention garnered around this event, benevolent attention, with all that support, know in your heart that the best is being provided for her on ALL levels.
Look at all the people who are being affected in some way or another by this event…now imagine how far those ripples reach and what positivity they may bring about.
Think deeply about it…for instance…maybe at the time it doesn’t seem like it, but think about the impression of love your caring efforts have made in the minds and hearts of those who have become aware of it…not just the forum, but doctors, nurses, patients, people passing by etc… do you not think that they are all affected…even if it is subconsciously or even if only small amounts under the surface? Maybe someone saw how much you care for your mother and decided to reconcile with their parents after many years and that makes all the difference to their children or parents or siblings etc…who knows?
It only takes a pebble to start an avalanche my Friend.
What about the money that is paying for her treatment? Maybe it might seem like it’s just going to companies and the hospital etc…but maybe not, maybe some of that money is going to other things you don’t know, maybe that money is helping save or improve other peoples lives?
Maybe that money was being carried and a few dollars or coins etc… slipped from wherever it was and someone who really needed it found it?
OR maybe because your mother caused a fuss, some nurse or doctor had to stay late by a few minutes and as a result avoided being killed in a car crash and can go on saving lives?
All this and more can be the case…so so SOOOOOO much more…
Creation is infinitely intricate while continually growing more so, and yet flows in perfect harmony and balance, nothing is ever truly wasted.
Soulstar, this event has purpose and value, remember that and KNOW that it is being guided and assisted by hands and minds and care infinitely more skilled and delicate than as yet are known to us, and at the same time are also able to see and (has) provide(d) for every possible choice, action, decision, and experience of free will on this plane.
Remember that the darker the night, the brighter the dawn. We are here to support and assist you, but you should know that YOU are also helping US to grow as well. There are ALWAYS multiple sides to the coin. (not just two )
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Hey brother @SoulStar33, sending you lots of love to you and your mom. And some healing as well. I am sorry I’d seen this thread late, but I am sorry for what you are going through. You’re a beautiful soul for sticking by her bro in times of need, and are a blessing as well. Be strong my bro… I am also asking my Angels to help on her behalf as well, and as we talked about gentle help from my servitors.
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I am Overwhelmed (in a good way) by All The Love and Healing You and Every Single Beautiful Soul has Shared with My Mom and Me.
Thank You So Much.
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My mom is starting to make a slow(er) recovery…
She was/is feeling slightly better than at her lowest, she ate like 2 spoons of soup, well, that’s a record lol…
Overall, the perfusions are the ones which offer her the necessary nutrition and medication, until, hopefully she recovers.
This is a Miracle, considering that she couldn’t even speak, and now she does, plus there are signs of her starting to accept water and food again…
Thank You, Everyone for Your Beautiful Healing, Thoughts, Fields, Intercessions, Healing Codes, Other Helpful Things, Thank You for Your Love, Aid, Prayers and Support Which You so Graciously Showed her and me as well.
Thank You.
I Love You.
May You Have a Blessed Day/Night.
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Bless you, Soulstar 
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Blessings to You as well, @_Ro.
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Im glad she getting better.
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You said to have Faith that she’s getting better and You Were Right.
This miraculous chance that she’s getting is Very Much thanks to Your Endeavors, Yours and Everyone’s else’s, Imogen.
I will have to visit her today and see her current condition.
To be honest, I don’t want to say anything negative, nor even think it, but the situation is not on the other side of the spectrum, there are still many issues she’s battling…
But it looks like her chances for/of Survival, immediate and long term increased.
I won’t get into percentages, because the chances were clearly against her…
Uet,shes still here and hopefully she’ll become better and better.
There is certainly the possibility of improvement.
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Keep praying to hanuman. I had talked with him to really protect your mom. And hearing it she getting better is really a sign hanuman is really with your mom.
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My mom is scared of aliens/entities…
She’s scared only at night, she’s terrified.
Whatever it is, psychological/illness related, or she actually sees something, she’s beyond terrified…
She wants to go home.
Of course, I’m thinking in terms of her well being and survival, so any choice I’ll take will be what I consider the best for her.
I just dint know how to help her atm.
I have some ideas though, including some fields.
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