They try to control you just like your parents, teachers, preachers, media…
Assert your divine sovereignty and wrest that power back. Remember the story of Jacob and the “Angel of the Lord” (widely thought in esoteric texts to be Metatron).
Whether that was metaphorical, or happened in the astral plane, or on a heroic dose of middle-eastern Ayahuasca, or a human incarnation of Metatron showed up and Jacob got into his “special” hookah after being told not to one too many time… Who knows.
The point is, you have to assert your power in the form of your will to take control of your own conscious experience.
I have been in similar circumstances. I once fought a great astral battle (with immediate physical consequences). I was wounded by a surprise blast from some kind of energy weapon from an alien tower (that physical injury lasted over a year, I believe). The next night, no warning, no planning, no drugs. Maybe some weed/hemp/whatever (we are in a weird semi-legal place here). I had summoned Michael and Thor the previous night, and as soon as I leaned back in my chair, I was back there - with no warning. They had returned me to handle unfinished business.
I briefly explained to them why I was there. Michael simply disappeared to deal with the matter of Justice, which was why I was there in the first place. Thor disappeared into the sky, hammer-first. So I figured I’d attempt to destroy the tower. So I conjured up some sort of weapon, which did very little.
And then in a flash of lightning, the tower crumbled like the capitol building in Independence Day. And when it struck, it took the form of a symbol.
During a recent Reiki class, we were asked to attune one another to random positive symbols we knew outside of traditional Reiki. I used the symbol I saw in the lightning (and yes, I know what it does, and have posted about it as the Fear Virus Removal Tool). My “victim” described the experience as being nothing, and then being everything, and experiencing them both at the same time.
Sometimes whoever is calling you back is your friend. Either way go handle your business. Both Michael and Thor are great to take with you on such adventures.