I am sure you’re doing fine.
In the beginning, I was after the results. I would meditate, or chant to get to a specific result. And would get very tense and depressed if that was not accomplished. One of my teachers once went into a meditation retreat and when he returned, I asked him, “what was this retreat for? What effect/power did you get from it?” He looked at me strangely and did not reply. Then we were served mango custard by one of his students. He noticed that I was lapping at it happily. He asked me, “What did you get out of eating the custard? Power? Just some calories? Or you ate for some nutrients?” I said, “Well, no just this blissful taste and enjoyment”… And he smiled and then it struck me haha
When the spiritual journey becomes fun and bliss, as much as its perceived goal, or even more than it, that surely is a sign of some accomplishment. So, enjoy the journey as well. To be goal-driven is necessary in its own way, but only chasing after a goal sometimes makes us miss the beauty of the journey.
Dedicated, regular practice is necessary but over a period of time, everything becomes a spiritual practice - when you are always in that zone/space, everything becomes sacred without needing a time and space to get there. For example, chanting a mantra is no longer a chore for me that needs effort, to not chant it needs effort, it flows like the breath.
Something Saan wrote today deeply resonated with me because my practice is Goddess-centric and this represents my world-view completely. And I have experienced time and again the collapsing of duality where the practitioner (me), the practice (mantra, Neigong, meditation, etc.) and the goal (in my case, the Goddess-consciousness) are One and the same.