Fair enough. But I’m confused and I’m hoping you can help me out here: Which of these issues are yours? And what are your issues with this?
Probably. In my world, I’d call that your “light,” which you are letting shine more, and more freely. That’s just a natural result of you healing and/or improving with these fields.
So, the way I’m hearing this (and correct me where I’ve got it wrong) is
“I’ve invested a lot of my time (researching and using these fields) and money (paying for these fields) with the intention of healing and/or improving myself in ways that I wanted. And it’s worked! My light is shining. So now, how do I hide my light under a bushel?”
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