“I… have become comfortably numb.”
“Rack my brain and try to remember your name (…)”
" (…) cause I’m the man on the outside looking in."
Etc. Can’t ever stop loving that band, not even giving a dime about their aspects “obscured by clouds”.
Summary of this field’s effects: I’m feeling like a fish who used to swim in a large comfortable aquarium (ok no, I won’t mention Wish You Were Here lol. Ooops, I did though)… and who is now left in the middle of an ocean.
Some curses and shit are subtle. Sneaky. Impossible to know precisely from where, when, whom one gets them. I “want” to feel anger and hatred towards those sources but I just can’t. “Removes mental worries”, the description says. No doubt about it. Sure, many other fields and things have progressively led me where I am. Miraculously AND not miraculously. Both. I’ve had to take responsibility and work on my end as well.
The difference with this field is that for the first time in my life, I understand how some feelings and emotions are borrowed. Similarly to some shared mental disorders, mixed with some Mandela effect and other collective entanglements.
Yes, borrowed. So much so that they don’t fit your size but you keep wearing them in order not to be naked. Or because you care about the dress code.
Now I wish I could go and blast this on the top of some government buildings.
Speaking of destructive governments (I’m weighing my words carefully here), my father exploded in tears the other night. Basically saying things like “this country wasn’t like that, if you only knew. We had the most promising future in front of us. But traitors have flushed it all”.
First time that I’ve ever seen him cry that much. So I decided to play Booted Bhoots and PTSD combo for him and my mother. They had given me full consent for the physical fields. But I hadn’t inform them yet about the “non physical” ones.
Bad idea. Because I played the combo, then switched to a physical field on YouTube, left the device playing while I quit the room to go and have a smoke.
When I was back in the room with my parents, there was Deep Body/Aura Cleaning playing (YouTube autoplay got activated)…
The message seemed pretty clear: “Ok honey, no problem when you play stuff like Mass Meditation, Flower or Anti-Virus without warning people but interference has its limits, remember? You sure about wanting to play this game again? Or will you respect people’s autonomy? Weren’t you mad yourself against people forcefully telling you to get this or that field at all costs, before you being ready for them? Allez, behave already!”
That last part was for the anecdote :)
I want to thank you Dreamweaver but as I already told you once, those 2 words don’t mean anything when I say them to you. So I guess you’ll make me invent new terms to express my gratitude.