what i can tell is that people fear me a lot while i’m using Capo, i dunno if that’s good or bad, but being 100% relaxed to other people’s reactions makes them really fearful.
but i’m no bully, i still feel compassion for people feeling that fear and i try to not engage and make it worse for them. i still feel love, it’s just love that it’s not mediated by fear of what others may think or do, neurotic love based on negotiation and economics is abscent.
i also felt that i could throw myself under a subway and it wouldn’t matter emotionally (although rationally i wouldn’t do it, i mean emotionally i didn’t feel moved by the idea), that actually scared me.
i think there’s a point of “not caring” that’s a thin line. i’d prefer to feel fear from those kind of ideas lol