I’m just typing this here cause I know it’s a safe space, and I’m scared of talking to anyone else cause I don’t want to go to hospital. I’m 17yrs old I’m not diagnosed with anything but around 8-9 months ago I’ve been on a self improvement journey and I’ve isolated pretty much everyone out of my life, and I’ve been stuck with the same routine. I’ve been using testosterone, audios and I’ve been eating foods that boost testosterone, and working out daily. And I recently started getting really aggressive at school, and sometimes I want to fight people over little things, which I didn’t think was a problem at the time because I just saw it as me standing up for myself, but recently I got into an argument with close relatives and I believed I could have hurt them, I have self control, it just scares me to believe I would even think of hurting someone close to me over anything. I googled symptoms of a sociopath and I’m showing all the signs. The path I’m currently on in life is scaring me, and everyone around me. I can’t think of anything else to do but try to reduce my testosterone. I wasn’t always like this fighting and violence used to scare me. I didn’t want to manifest this I violence in my life I just wanted to be more confident. I also think the sexual frustration I used to get from semen retention is contributing to this aggression.
Also I’m pretty sure I have schizophrenia because I believe I can hear other peoples thoughts sometimes and I hear inner dialogue talking about me in 3rd person. I’m just a mess man
I don’t know how to exist in this world anymore
Only fields I’ve been using was higher self+ ego dissolution I’ve been using these for almost Year
Hi, Kenn. Thanks for being open to share with us.
May I suggest you start by changing the title of your thread? I don’t think labeling is beneficial, especially a label that is a self-diagnosis.
I am sending blessings, angels and love to you to assist you in seeing yourself and situation clearly and healing all that you will allow. 
Hey man hope I can help you with all of this but I will keep a recommendation simple because those problems are really not describable through the internet and it’s better to talk to a specialist for the condition you want to treat.
So here it goes hope it helps ;
Stop listening to testosterone, don’t listen to too much hormones at that age all teens have higher hormones anyways the food is enough. To boost a workout is enough too. So better stop using it and it will calm down.
I know it’s hard but you have to unload things little by little if it’s an addiction you wanna solve then everyone works differently. You take a journal and write down what you think and how you act after or how acting affected you. This is what I done mostly if it doesn’t fit you then it’s not for you of course. Find different things that works on you. You don’t have to do all great in the first try and you shouldn’t go that hard either except there is a purpose you wanna achieve with doing all of these.So go easy I know what you talking about unload yourself little by little.
For this it might be useful to listen to exorcism 2.0 for a week to a month. Feeling better? if not then it must be something else. Don’t get too comfortable with telling yourself you have some mental illness you don’t even know what the symptoms are it will be more hard to aknowledge what it is. And even if it’s a safe place here to tell all this it’s not so safe for you to let it be in the hands of strangers.
if those doesn’t do the work for you then stop them too.
Hope you will do fine man. So in a nutshell the only recommendation is to stop everything, listen to exorcism and if things don’t go well then you have to talk to your parents or a doctor or someone you trust in real life to find solution. Otherwise I would say to experiment but you are too young and it’s risky to say something that I can’t take responsibility after.
@Kenn I appreciate the change, but it will help if you see what you are going through as a step on the path of improvement. Also, not claiming this as “you”; it is merely something you are going through. So maybe stop calling yourself a name that is just another label, and go with a more objective title. 
You are not a disaster, you are merely experiencing an undesired outcome.
You can try other fields as well, like point of no return (free fields/stack or paid field); also, as @anon51404939 said, hormones at that age… Not necessary.
Also, as @Rosechalice said, don’t identify with what you are going through, it’s just a phase…
A simple advise: focus on good stuff, do fun things, relax, try to find beautiful or fun activities, anyway, focus and try to feel good, not bad.
Thank you guys for the advice, its just that I’m scared of what it is that I’m manifesting aggressive people don’t usually live very long.
I feel more peace in the new title, Kenn.
Let us join you in the moment, now, the only one there is. You are here, now, and you are aware that there is a difference between you and your situation.
Are you a member of Patreon? Captain just uploaded a new field for EFT, the emotional freedom technique. It is a very helpful modality for energetic change.
Focus the agressivity on positive things, do sports, yoga, soon focus on jobs, also relationships (if you are single; if you want relationship of course)…
There are many things where you can focus your energy and your mind, starting with getting peace of mind, first, yet if you can’t, well, focus on other, non-spiritual activities.
First of all, take a few deep breaths! Everything is solvable and you know that. Otherwise you wouldn´t have reached out for help. You had the courage to open up, enough people do not.
Man this reminds me so much of myself right before I signed up here.
Sounds to me like pent up anger/frustration from somebody who is growing out of his old circle and doesn´t want to take shit from them anymore. All that while not wanting to hurt anyone.
There are a ton of Fields and angles to approach this, but I would recommend to stick to just a few for now.
First of all I suggest you Emotional Release and energy blockage removal to release some of that anger and frustration.
The Mental Health album should be of great help too.
Extreme Confidence and Amygdala healing will help you to assert yourself in a healthier way, as they help you accept yourself doing it in the first place. Trust me, these are essentials.
For healing the rootcause Archetype of parental love and the Revision fields. Afaik there is a PTSD Field on patreon, it could be of great help too.
When I was very afraid and nothing gave me relief right away, the Angelic Intercession worked for me.
they are very benevolent and soothing if you are in despair.
Top recommendations! Even normal EFT without fields can already do the trick!
Regarding Semen Retention. For it to work for you in a beneficial way, you have to transmute the energy properly. The Transmutation and Microcosmic Orbit Field can help with that.
You already mentioned working out, I suggest you try pranayama breathing. It has a ton of benefits and it helps me greatly with negative emotional/mental states.
Try these things and in the meantime be compassionate with yourself!
Treat yourself like you would treat your very best friend or family if you would recognize them going through something similar.
Eat proper foods, get sunlight daily, do some stretches, meditate a few minutes, sleep more if you have to.
The little things, listen to your body and take one step at a time.
But most importantly, be assured that nothing is permanent and nothing unsolvable. Everything is gonna be alright!
I would highly recommend you introduce some love fields into your life to balance out those energies. That and / or channel this into sth like martial arts, boxing etc, where it would prove to be very useful
Everything seems normal as it is expected from a guy of that age and on top your consumption of testosterone fields and foods must have made it worse. It is hard to know if you are schizophrenic virtually but if you want to be sure, seek out professional help. Don’t beat yourself up that anything is wrong with you except the schizophrenic part which you need to figure out with some help.
Don’t underestimate the power of hormones and your age, end up doing something which you will regret for a long time. SR is not advisable for your age because your pent up energy is far too explosive to control.
May be best would be take break from all fields and channel your aggression into martial arts as Nice2knowU suggested.
But good job on breaking down your situation and causes. 
I’ve had a situation where different things going on internally in the energy have been able to show up externally. Some of it, I think, is because I started with energy a bit closer to your age and opened up bigger portions of the energy body and its orbits.
Early on, I didn’t have too many protracted interactions with people so it was easy to keep things short and sweet and to focus on the positive. Over time, interactions get more drawn out and then the differences in outlook start to show up. Usually they don’t matter, but on issues where there are practical consequences they can’t always be minimized.
Anyways, in the good 'ole days lol, it was easy to keep an clean internal state. With the increased use of electronic media, it’s been more difficult for me since even time alone winds up involving contrasts.–I imagine different things could cause this for different people.
I think one of the biggest issues would be focusing too much on the situations and not enough on God/divinity. When you focus on situations, this seems to cause resonance with issues and then it’s like exact phrases and mind-states are on re-play for the people connected to the situations. Focusing on God or Divinity and de-coupling your mindstate from the events will open up the ability for things to become less problematic; opening up the situation for a greater power/intelligence to make some changes. —It’s something I hope to spend more time on.
Intuitively, this seems like a perfect fit for you. I do not see any malignant entities in your aura at the moment, so that does not seem to be the case. I would run with JAAJ’s self-love stack for at least a month and see if that helps.
Also, check-out Sammy’s amazing creation which really boosts self-love as well as self-worth. After a few listens, you will feel like the entire burden on your shoulders is lifted away. It also relaxes your body mind like a champ. A Buddhist Monk, Bhante Vimalaramsi did a lot of research of how a relaxed body leads to relaxation of certain brain impulses, and reduce negative thought patterns, clinging to things, not letting go etc. Though his findings were rejected as heresy by more traditional Buddhists, I have found relaxing body to be of immense value in approaching the mind. This guided journey seems to do both - relax body and the mind.