Today’s mass meditation was very powerful for me.
I had been gone from the forum for a couple of days. The energy was partly getting too dense for me, I felt myself about to drown. The distance helped somewhat, but could not restore me back to feeling stable enough.
I love the Saturday mass meditations around 7/8/9 PM GMT. Most weeks, I can make this time, and they’ve become a cherished part of my Saturday. Today’s did wonders. After it, here I am, back. Feeling fine. Even feeling that I’ve grown.
The release of an NFT seems to often go with a slightly denser atmosphere for a few days following. I can say that from the impression as someone who did not even know that an NFT was just released, as someone who got a just released NFT, and as someone who did not get a just released NFT.
No doubt, this is unfair towards the beauty of and the pure and loving intent with which these creations were made and given to us, and not the ideal we would wish to embody altogether. But I think it’s also human and essential for our development, and so, looking back, I wouldn’t want to have it any other way.
No matter at which point of the spectrum we are (enjoyer, desirer, observer), we all have a reaction which may trigger another person’s reaction, and so on. We all have our internal struggles and personal lessons to learn which either role can bring up, and which are often neither simple nor as obvious as it may seem. And I think that’s all okay if we approach it well internally and externally, and do the work, since we can personally grow from this a lot.
Adding to this how - maybe especially in this community - energy is a major pillar, one does not even need to read a post to sense the emotion(s) and internal state, and often, involuntarily get affected by it. It’s no longer just what the words themselves convey, but also the attached energy, the intent, emotions, shadows, etc. that feel so out in the open. So it makes sense.
I’m also currently finishing my first round of the energy awakening course (highly recommended), which I suspect to cause an extra overwhelm on me personally, as I now sense more / more strongly, and possibly in ways that I am not yet aware of nor able to control well.
I wanted to come back, but just could not. In this seeming constantly clashing mass of different emotions and states, positive and negative, I felt like a ship getting lost in rough sees. All coming as an addition to my own still volatile emotions and challenged views regarding this kind of event, and the basic internal conflicts that it triggered that I know I need to work on and master.
But in the midst of all this remained firmly, like an anchor, one person which I am not going to name this time but you will know it already, who just seemed to send out unconditional love whenever I thought of them, whenever I saw a post by them, or whenever I looked at their avatar, and who always seemed to say the right thing or speak at the right time. I emphasize this as I do because it really was so impactful for me.
Each time, I felt my heart chakra and surroundings become warm and grow in space, and most times, it would inevitably bring me to tears or at the least induce a relieved, sincere smile about this invaluable feeling of warmth, absolute safety, peacefulness, and simply unconditional love that was being sparked in me, unconditionally, and just when I had been feeling so lost.
It’s also like this was my hint, showing me what I needed. So for this mass meditation, I opened my Ace of Cups card right next to the meditation field, which this time happened to be Uplift Yourself and Those around You instead of the live stream, which would eventually turn out perfect here.
My thought after this meditation was that this card has still not seemed to get the relative attention it deserves. But maybe that’s just my perception, because it’s been so valuable for me personally. So now I’m sure: we all get just what we need, and when we need it. Paired with following our intuition, we will arrive at where we should be just in time.
So I looked at the card, read the description for the meditation field, closed my eyes and started meditating, and felt myself become emerged in unconditional love. After the first 15 minutes, I already felt so much better and started watching the video for a bit, which is so beautiful with all the aerial views of earth’s breathtaking beauty which so often gets lost in daily life and which invoked in me deep appreciation and a rekindled love for it.
After more meditation and about an hour later, I felt so different and good. This meditation felt clearly so relieving and healing like I never felt one. When the unconditional love entered my heart chakra and surroundings, it felt like it was clearing it out, softening the corners and edges, filling the entire area with some sort of ultimate pleasant balm. I felt vibrations, warmth, and a deep calmness take hold, as well as peacefulness and a deep reassurance that all is and will be well. But even more so that all is well. Not even will be, as it already is, and so, for the first time I was able to feel nowhere else but fully in the present.
After the hour, I felt refreshed and more safe, as if literally being surrounded by a cushioning of this unconditional love (certainly was). Wish I could listen to Kinetic Quasi Crystal now to hold this longer, but must wait until after the course.
Physically, I feel more energized and awake. Mentally, I feel clear and alert. Energetically, I feel calm, at peace, safe, and very grounded.
I’m truly grateful for this series of events and how everything happened, as it lead me to experiencing this meditation as I hadn’t yet before, and to becoming showered with so much unconditional love in these past days and to realizing that this can happen for me (anyone) any time, if I only tap into it and surrender, also majorly thanks to the one who is making all this so easily possible and accessible for us 
This is also leaving me with the deep knowing that all is well and all is perfect, which seems to neatly integrate the partly difficult inner work I’ve done in the past days.
Thank you 
what a wonderful observation. Thank you for pointing it out; I needed to hear this.
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