Need some advice please

[Bronyraur]

@Wolfy3332

I’m interested in someone chiming in as well

@shann2020 hasn’t logged in for a while (I hope that everything’s ok) but briefly:

@shann2020

the reason for this would be a part from something deep repressed maybe being released

Yes, sort of. Opened and released.

@shann2020

really vivid nightmares.

@shann2020

All with the theme of death and something or someone trying kill me.

@shann2020

Would love a explanation to the dreams. Maybe part of ego dissolution is experiencing death and the best way do do this is in a vivid dream that is “real” to the body.

During my first weeks with VoC last year, I was constantly killed and then resurrected to kill the dudes back lol. Sort of revengeful theme. Not accepting to “die”.

Then, I have started changing a few details in my overall “practice”, including my approach of morphic fields (also thanks to forum members and especially my dearest @_OM). Among the changes: sleeping with Ego Dissolution in loop (I stopped this practice for a while, since some caution is required regarding the effects on certain brain areas).

I also kept VoC and kept dying lol. I wasn’t killing back = less resistance… but still… some frustration remained. I was feeling like a loser , as if loosing against an enemy. Polarities, etc.

With the release of the newer fields (Torsion, Echoes of the Past, etc.) I keep being killed but now the frustration and anxiety related to it have tremendously diminished.

Anyway, as for the interpretation of dreams:

I do believe in more traditional interpretations, since some symbols may have indeed universal “values” or reflect premonitions, etc. So yes, having someone else’s input can be useful at times to shed additional light.

However (and once again with my psychologist “bias”), I still firmly believe that the dreamer is the one and only ultimate/most accurate interpreter of their own dream (what @shann2020 is partly trying to do, in sum). EVEN WITH seemingly obvious themes like being killed/killing.

Having worked with Maurizio Gasseau (a kind of ”dreamcatcher” in his own way. Really talented guy), I can suggest this (once again):

Try to act your own dreams, as idiotic as it may seem at first glance. Yes, do transform them into plays. With roles, etc.

And do write a sequel. As if the dream was going on, you know (which is not a nonsense, since your awaken life and dreamed life are not totally distinct/different realities). Try to find where the dream would have ended if you were still sleeping. No matter how fantastic or absurd the theme is.

When done seriously, this is a method leading to unexpected (but accurate) answers.

[Bronyraur]

@shann2020 and @Wolfy3332, here’s a ridiculous yet clear example from the dream I had last night. I wanted to drop it here while it’s still fresh. Sorry for the trivial details :))

Summary of the dream: I was walking on a giant boulevard, wearing a skirt, with Yeti legs (= not shaved). Everybody was looking at me, especially a guy, all about to explode and laugh :))) I was feeling super embarrassed and uncomfortable. The form and cloth of the skirt were also awful. But I was forcing myself to keep going on that boulevard, despite my embarrassment, trying to keep my head straight :)))) As if there wasn’t any possible turning back.

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Ok, so what I did (when awake) was to apply the roleplay I mentioned previously. In this case, it was quite simple: I picked the guy on the boulevard (probably a facet of my own self) and made him ask questions to me. Like: “Excuse me madam but… who are you trying to convince with this outfit?”

As for the sequel (= “what if the dream would have continued”), the answer was: I would have probably gone back home and shaved :)))) or at least put on my favorite blue jeans :p

The answer to the question “who do you want to convince?” was: myself. Trying to wear a false confidence (the awkward skirt), not managing to hide the discomfort/superfluous (the hairy legs).

And then I tried to remember when was the last time I “betrayed” myself. It was actually a few days ago, when some family members asked me to accompany them to another city next month. I had said “yes yes, sure!”, smiling with all my teeth out… Looking determined or decided to have fun with them for a few days in that city.

… but no. That’s not something that I want at all. Not now. I don’t like that city, I used to work there a few years ago. Even if the place is nice, I always felt strange, like a stranger, misplaced… when I was there.

Additionally, analyzing the words skirt and hair (in my own language) have given me some other clues to be processed. So dream theoreticians are not wrong when they say that we should focus on the words, turn them upside down, adapt to other languages, etc.

So what I decided today is this: putting on my own jeans back and tell my relatives that I won’t go in that city with them.

Simple example (since it doesn’t seem to be related to a too deep or old issue), which can be adapted to many others.

[shann2020]

@Bronyraur

Thanks for the thoughts! Everything is really good. Ive been really busy with business and I kind of lost focus for awhile. I stopped using the audios not long after this post so I don’t have any results to report

I’ve started listening to vibration of creation/love again. So far has been a week I haven’t really noticed any effects yet.
How’s your journey?

[Bronyraur]

Hey there! Glad to see you again! And puhaha I forgot about that dream :)))

@shann2020

Everything is really good.

And hopefully will get even better. As for the loss of focus, that’s a part of our ups and downs so no worries.

@shann2020

I’ve started listening to vibration of creation/love again. So far has been a week I haven’t really noticed any effects yet.

Great that you’re back at those! I’d like to remind one of my favorite posts here:

@_OM

ok. so here’s the not very good, probably bad analogy that I’ve come to:

• Vibes of Divine Love is going to make you into an enlightened saint.
• Vibes of Creation is going to make you into an enlightened sage.
• Vibes of Transcendence is going to make you into an enlightened mystic.
• Combination of all 3 makes you a balanced saint/sage/mystic

So anyone of them is going to get you where most people want to go… enlightened or damn near close enough that when they physically die anyways they will be enlightened during the actual death experience.

Note - I’m always partial to Vibes of Creation as that’s my brain child (tapping into the ultimate power of “OM”) and how I always envisioned the “Higher Vibes/Ascension” field SHOULD work.

You can re-check that whole thread if you wish. Regarding not noticing any effects: I will imperfectly paraphrase what’s been discussed many times so far and say that those Vibration fields seem to work scale by scale. Or phase after phase.

Like you reach some point in your general “progress”/path + vibrational state… So during those truce periods, it may seem as if you were stuck or nothing was happening…

And then bam, another push. Etc. etc. So I’d say keep going ;)

@shann2020

How’s your journey?

Pretty fine overall, thank you! See you around

[shann2020]

Haha Yeti legs, that’s hot! Id like to be I able interpret my dreams like you. Yeah will try to stick it out for a few weeks this time then move on to the last part.
Thanks for the link I’ll check it out. @Bronyraur