Edit: woww haha sorry for the long review lol
Well… Me again.
Earlier tonight I was doing the line at a supermarket, when a lady before Me turned and asked “would you hold my spot?” I said - yes. (She never said “please” and thank you") She went to get whatever and came back, took back her spot, again, she didnt say thank you, she didnt even look at Me. Lol
Me? Like if a normal event had just happened.
Now, I always been a fan of good manners, respect, gratitude and all of that.
Ive never been a grunchy person smelling the small stuff to judge in fact more times than not im just like “
” whatever. BUT… lack of manners? The basic simple manners? 
In a different time i would have been in my head :
Ha! Look at this woman wow no manners
Wow… people thats why the world is how it is
So entitled
And stare at her analyzing her lol
But no, again… im more and more looking at the world with the eyes of a child. Simple. Easy.
Am I going to accept lack of manners from now on?
Its not that. But i realized tonight that all of those rules are grown ups invented rules. To label people, to create levels, and ultimately… division. Of course, so perfectly and beautifully covered as something we must do to be honorable.
When in reality we shouldnt need those things, it should be something natural to do between human beings, real freedom without expectations whatsoever.
I stared at the woman until she left but because i noticed she didnt look like a bad mannered person, or angry, or up in her head or anything like that, she was just “being” and i was simply “being” too.
No need for please and thank you and a smile. Why? I honestly immediately saw her as if she was a child and me as well Simple.real.free. Both of us.
These fields choose us i say it all the time and sometimes some of them just hold on to us tight for very personal reasons.
If i tell you something, I was a child for a long time, thats how i used to live and be and see others and the world and it was fantastic, it was so beautiful, until one day already at 24 i was sent out from my country for my first job and i was happy as hell but then in the course of probably 2 years i was faced with a whole different world, people and situations and im not saying that meaning because i was not living in my country no.
Its like i saw the ugliness of the world and people over and over again in different ways until one day i had to “grow up” to survive 
and be on guard, and start analyzing everything and everybody and be cautious, and express less and show less and give less or only if it was deserved, i always thought id be back to be the same one day but years pass and it was more confirmed that theres a lot of awful people and take advantage of you when you are giving and nice. That heart and eyes of a child never came back. It couldnt, i had to grow up. and stay like that because “life”
I always missed her. I always wanted her back. I always wanted to see life and the world with those eyes again, but in turn the most i could achieve was seeing this world with compassion and understanding but with grown up eyes.
Until this field 
She is coming back.
And believe it or not guys… the colors of the world are changing, i noticed that today too. Everything looks more vibrant, stronger colors, everything shines more, i can hear birds in the middle of the noise, i can hear kids laughing in the middle of adults chitchat, i can notice more smiles, people seem more joyful.
And its all me.
Before this field i would notice the sorrow and the pain in others that i wanted to heal and fix, i would see their beauty through compassion and kindness but now what stands out the most are the happy moments from their days.
My world is changing. And it feels amazing.
