Hey guys sorry for the long post, I need some advice for field suggestions.
So, I have been dealing with this weird phenomenon for years now and everytime I say something good I always experience the exact opposite. For example
“I love so much my hair lately”
Soon my hair started falling and since today haven’t recovered.
“Tomorrow I want to go for shopping therapy because my back feels better”
Guess what, I’m on my bed crying from excruciating back pain.
“Wow, we are very lucky our son didn’t have to deal with a diaper rush like other babies”
That’s right, kiddo has been screaming bloody murder since morning due to an extremely huge and painful diaper rush.
These are some examples, but the problem is way bigger cause this is happening for every minor positive thing I say or even think sometimes.
It’s making me nuts cause I’m suspecting that I’m somehow manifesting the negative outcome? And how so? I’m speaking positively why my mind is twisting things behind my back?
I’ve reached to a point I’m afraid to speak. Has anyone ever experienced something similar? Do you believe is a very very negative subconscious behind all this?