As I look into the mandala, automatically i feel intimate connection developing between me and the field.This doesnt rly happen with the nfts, they are probably much more elegant/subtle, but I like this more when it is a field from new creator, obvious feedback is always welcome.
By default, as I focus on making our connection stronger, I feel his energy circulating in my system, and it didnt take long for me to start tearing up. Now weirdly enough, tears itself felt like physiological reaction to the fine work being done on me, my facial expression didnt have to change much, so in a way it isn’t like I am constantly sobbing or whatever, just a statue that can cry.
I wanted to see how smart the field is so I asked it to purge impurities and I could feel the shift in my energy happening, but since I wanted to write my experiences as they are happening I immediately got to writting it and I could feel words being bestowed upon me:
“Where are u running off to again, there is no need to hurry, take ur time with this, u have been rushing all day long, give urself the luxury of just being present here and working with me not obsesively aiming to just feel the effect in shortest time and report on it. Wasnt this supposed to be fun? When did u start feeling this responsibility of being sensitivity master? You have too much responsibility and pressure on u as it is, so at least be chill about this experience with me, treat urself like a kid for once, not an adult that just needs to do everything flawlessly, this isnt ur daily job or whatever other 3D activity.”
What ensued after these will stay between me and Shiva because it is too personal/emotional, I can say that it seems his specialty is being able to work on that which is necessary, without needing much guided effort.
So, the lesson with the field is:
Just be present with it and let it reach down as deep as necessary in order to give u back that which u have lost without even noticing it.
As for mechanics of the field, I feel it truly is connected to the Shiva, creator did a job of making a smart field that is controlled by Shiva and can do myriad of things on its own without user needing to do much except just being present and open to it
This was my first time working with Shiva and I kinda went in without expectations so my inner Virgo activated as soon as I felt it working, but it was trippy to have him change my perspective in such a short time, without it being even my original intent.*
All in all, I feel this has prepared me for Desna`s abundance liveset happening in less than an hour