āMad about Soul/Coreā Diaries, vol. 5474798436
Warning: kilometric post / free-flow journaling and catharsis
Still way too early actually to write an āaccurateā reviewā¦ but on the other hand, I feel like some of the current effects are likely to last for a while, soā¦
Social aspects:
Some autobiographical info to set up the context a little bit. I hope Iāll manage not to write ālike a footā, as our French friends say (online English improvement test lol):
Iāve never been a social butterfly but Iām not a sociophobic or misanthrope either. I donāt feel any discomfort about making speeches/seminars in front of crowdy audiences (even in English sometimes lol), enjoy various kinds of gatherings with friends or strangers, always prioritize face to face contact instead of virtual etc. even if I more than slightly prefer the Tarotās Hermit mode or watching (not spying lol) people from a certain distance. I cherish my solitude and boundaries, etc. etc.
There are also the downsides of my work which is based on helping people about quite deep personal issues. Wearing my Labradorite (the therapists stone lol), Rudraksha, tags and other self-protective stuff is not always enough, so I really have this urge to often isolate myself and repair the drainage. Obviously, many other forum members feel the same way.
The pandemic has also added its grain of pepper to all this, as you can easily imagineā¦
I mean this year, I ended up avoiding almost any human contact (I know we all had/have to do so to a certain extent, but Iām talking about any other kind of contact), changing my direction if I saw any acquaintance on the street, not answering most of the phone callsā¦ and other things like that, you know. No more contact, except the professional duties.
To bring it back to the Soul/Core, this field has kind of cooled down (and quite quickly) those excessive avoidance tendencies: for example the other day, I was planning to slide directly back to my place, once again in a cloaked mode lol but then I saw the owner of this hookah bar in my neighborhood, standing at the door of his store and staring at me. āSomethingā (!) made me stop and I approached the guy to greet him and chat for a little while. He seemed to really need that btw. And many other things like that happened afterwards, you see what I mean.
Sounds almost ridiculous but considering my recent mindset, these are huge shifts lol. It doesnāt mean btw that living an isolated life is wrong per se; itās just that in my case, this was obviously creating an inner disturbance at that precise time of my existence. A kind of need to connect again with people (even my membership in this forum is somewhat related to the same purpose), despite the denial.
What else?.. I didnāt have the occasion to test it yet with difficult relationships but I already feel that the field will help about those as well (I even recently had some āpremonitoryā - I hope - dreams about that).
Physical aspects:
Nothing much to say about that. I think that I accepted my body mostly just like it is, since a very long time already. Not having any big problem about āwearingā it or being fully present in it (spent years immersed in body-mind techniques and I think thatās been rewarding). Iām also lucky to be in a quite good general health condition, etc. so the physical Sapien fields that I use are mostly for maintenance or emergency purposes (Eye Regeneration aside).
In sum, I didnāt notice any change about my body or to be more exact, about the way I connect to itā¦ but maybe there is, though, who knows. Time will tell.
Energetic aspects:
Many things to say about that partā¦ but without words lol. Letās try a little, though.
I already reported some aspects above in this thread. I still have the āpump up the volumeā sensation at different times of the day and I wonder sometimes (but not that much) if itās noticeable from the outside and making me look like a weirdo lol. Otherwise, itās mostly an experience of unfolded, expanded, cleared and more āsolidā energy, briefly said.
Iām a naturally distant-, cold- and arrogant-looking person (this description is based on most peopleās feedback btwā¦ both lol and sigh, depends on the situation) or for example, I always do my best to get out of any place which gives me discomfort (this may seem rude and disrespectful in some contexts, I know, but thatās the way it is ), so I donāt easily suffer from superficial vampiritudes (even if Iām also vulnerable, some other times) but since Iām with this field + the Shielding tag + sleeping with Mjolnir mandala on my wall, I feel more protected. On a deeper level.
Like one night, while I was listening to Soul/Core in bed and opened my eyes for a moment, I saw there was a kind of floating branch or arm (?) trying to reach me. I suspected this fellow to be a not-so-friendly entity or what (maybe it was just some hypnopompic stuff) but I was in a soooo confident mood that I said: āNo dude, not now, come back later. Iām in the middle of something important out here!ā lol. And indeed, the āthingā exited from the window straight away. I hope that āitā didnāt get much offendedā¦
Another shift: Loki , āmyā cat (or my owner lol), who is a Sapien fan and a cool little guy but not the kind to stay on your lap for more than 2 minutes chrono, has become way more affectionate since Iāve bought the Soul/Core. Maybe because he enjoys my ānewā state of energy but this shift can be related to many other factors as well, of course. The Animal empathy field gives me strong headaches, so I didnāt give it a real try until now, but I know that it would definitely help (and this article suggested by uial: http://www.articlesfactory.com/articles/metaphysical/talk-to-the-animals.html)
Also, I still combine Soul/Core with Ancient Arts/Internal Alchemy v1 (ahā¦ that v1 with Sappheiros ) and the Tree Experience (for the grounding and ācontainingā aspects). Works well for me.
(S/C and AA/IA with moderation, TE as much as I want).
ā¦ and also with Vibration of Creation. This is a totally different chapter that I will probably never report in this forum (except the introductory review that I already wrote), since it addresses my āless orthodoxā sides. I can just say that for me, S/C has been the fuel of the VoC spaceship. As more or less expected.
Last words about S/C:
The ultimate essence of the field is here:
I believe that I found the main tool to achieve these. Iāll be complementing with the 2 other resto fields, but later.
Since itās a lifelong-and-beyond process, Iāll come back and update in a few years or centuries lol.
Forever grateful to Dreamweaver (and to all those who helped by sharing their experiences).
I feel the same I want to go home and thatās why I fill this void with sapiens videos to kill the time lol I have no friends I donāt relate to anyone around me and itās just hard feeling different from every one sometimes I completely understand where your coming from
Youāre either part of the herd with the piece of shit shepherd, or youāre a wolf that runs free.
The eagle is also a good choice
Fk the pack, fk the tribe, one man army is the way to go for people like us.
What is funny though is that once you accept this 100% and love yourself to the point you even enjoy being alone, all of a sudden everyones gonna beg you for attention and want it.
Most have friends, lovers, family, money, its nothing special. Fake distractions to keep you satisfied.
A hungry dog is more dangerous than a satisfied lion.
@Samurai I may not have much to chime in but I have seen you say you long to go back to where your from or what not and even tho I may not have anything of extreme value for you like some others do perhaps an energy system like this may be of use?
Indeed it is, your true nature is complete in itself, it is abudance, it is fullfillment.
So the more the ego ādissolveā into your true nature the more you will feel those attributes and your seeking will come to an end.
I think (I might be wrong though) here @Samurai is refferring more to resignation, that is due to ignorance indeed but unfortunately is accepted as the norm
_OM would you expand on this please? What kind of work are you referring to when you speak of lifetimes? When you say its hard to quantify over the medium to long term, do you mean that the growth will be incredibly rapid?
@_OM The speeding up the wheel of karma so to speak is fascinatingā¦ and in some ways a bit frightening who knows how many lifetimes we each have under our belts lol but none of us were saintly in all of themā¦
I guess what Iām asking is, there may very well be huge lessons to be learned, do the fields kinda throw you face first into situations that could potentially upend everything to get the job done? Iām really new to this dude, I appreciate the input
I wonder if I think about something sexual isnāt it just converting certain kinds of energy to sexual energy? I only āloseā this energy if I project it onto something donāt I? Like a women or whatever.
It also starts sending alot of nutrients ādown thereā, the loss is biological aswell.
When you think of a woman you are either sending energy to her if its desire/lust, or if you fantasize about unicorns or some shit then you create thoughtforms, which also requires chi.
Pretty much everything you do consumes chi, in simpler terms , the more āeffortā, the more loss.
This is my experience with this MP3, ( this is the mid-abdominal one). I bought this yesterday (on the requests of my servitors and my Intersession V2 tag) and played it right away several times. (I was planning to buy all 3 in the future) I didnt particularly feel anything different while playing it (although I got a quick mental pic of it fixing leaks) . However when I got up from the desktop computer and was walking into the kitchen 2 feet away on the 3rd play of the MP3, I felt a grapefruit sized fizzing (like champagne) like ball go from my abdomen up to my brain. It fizzed in my brain a second or 2, then dissapated. My head feels ālighterā. I believe it released a block and/or fixed leaks in my abdomen which allowed my energy to go to my head/brain. Now, the next day the feeling of lightness continues, but cant say I am thinking more clearly. (my short term memory, higher cognitive functions, executive functioning, planning, implementing, organizing quite frankly sucks!) I have high hope on repeated listening of this MP3 and plan in stages to buy the other 2. Thank u DW for creating this!
Warning: kilometric post / free-flow journaling and catharsis 
), so I donāt easily suffer from superficial vampiritudes (even if Iām also vulnerable, some other times) but since Iām with this field + the Shielding tag + sleeping with Mjolnir mandala on my wall, I feel more protected. On a deeper level.
I hope that āitā didnāt get much offendedā¦
, āmyā cat (or my owner lol), who is a Sapien fan and a cool little guy but not the kind to stay on your lap for more than 2 minutes chrono, has become way more affectionate since Iāve bought the Soul/Core. Maybe because he enjoys my ānewā state of energy but this shift can be related to many other factors as well, of course. The Animal empathy field gives me strong headaches, so I didnāt give it a real try until now, but I know that it would definitely help (and this article suggested by uial: 
) and the Tree Experience (for the grounding and ācontainingā aspects). Works well for me.
(and to all those who helped by sharing their experiences).
who knows how many lifetimes we each have under our belts lol but none of us were saintly in all of themā¦
