this one is hella accurate. i always think about going outside when i’m inside at home but when i’m outside i still don’t have fun lmao. btw do you mean this? DEPRESSION/Stress/Anxiety Relief ( Energy Programmed Audio) - YouTube
yes. i get easily annoyed by my mom and it affects me a lot
is the depression one enough for this? i have quite a lot in mind lmao but they don’t work that well for me, i wanted to try the Heal Others audio for my mom, she’s got crazy stress lmao. btw sorry if i’m asking for too much, i am just looking for a solution lmao and it seems like i can’t stick to any of my playlists, i always feel like “there’s something better” out there, like “maybe i need to lurk on the page more” HAHHAHAHAA
before, i was using: atmospheric riser, repel negative energy, inner beauty outwards, attract love, armor of light and glory, etheric cord (i was inconsistent w this one lol)
and everytime i went out, idk if it’s my insecurity but i always felt like people hated me. lmaooo but i force myself to change cuz i really want to be my old self, happy and always w friends. maybe it’s because my home life is just fvcked up. so i think i have to fix that first, but it’s been the hardest. i’m pretty sure i already found an audio for me before and then forgot it, lmao, something that makes my mom more bearable i guess. i love her but she pisses me off, and i don’t wanna come off as offensive but i do think she’s an energy vampire. right now she went on a trip so she’s not around me and i’ve been listening to audios and been on this forum and i can tell i feel so much better, but the fear and trauma comes back when i think about her
idk maybe i’m too sensitive, but i do know deep inside my soul i’ve been hurt by her, people tell me i should move out, but thinking about my future makes me even more depressed cuz she’s a curse lmao
everytime i try to talk to her about her rudeness, she just explains to me that she’s “training” me and showing me how the real world out there will treat me. like at this moment i understood this b needs that Trauma Release and Healing, i might sound dumb but still, i’m growing, i believe that kindness is still pretty powerful. no matter how much you’ve been thru, being kind goes a long way i guess. even tho i know i kind of am an aggressive person in real life. but i’m also sensitive, really, it’s confusing. omg i’m doing a whole self reflection/rant here lmao