IF someone were to told me I will have a chance to work with this beauty, I wouldn’t believe it. When I first heard about the field, my initial response was- Ok so eternity field tied to the kind of bliss Buddha experienced, better to not think about it, since no way I am getting it. Fast forward, and thanks to my friend here @Peaceful_Windwhisper, I have had an opportunity to work with it and experience what its really about . So without further ado it is THE EXALTED TIME (pun intended) to share my experiences and hopefully do the field justice it deserves or at least attempt to do so.
First time I used it, as with every other field I get to experience for the first time, effects were strong. In this case, bliss part was surreal. I remember experiencing high post audio use, which hasnt happened EVER, at least to this degree, with any other field. Unfortunately, it either has to do with developing tolerance or I dunno what, but after the first time, it takes special effort, preparation (calm the mind beforehand, star exercise etc), in order to only get a glimpse of the initial experience. As I have realized it will take effort (lazy and disrespectful I was), I decided to just casually meditate to it and use it for other benefits.
Only reason that I even meditated to it, is cuz I have been told it is necessary to be mindful when using it, if u want to experience majority of the effects, and being the perfectionist that I am, and the fact it is limited edition field, it seemed more than fair. If used while being high from weed, official onset of the effect that can be felt (sensations in the brain, clearly felt without effort, even while multitasking) is instantenous, and so intense it kept me from falling asleep, no matter how tired I was.
Otherwise(sober), in my case, about 9 hours after active use, u can feel the dedicated part of the brain being squeezed, almost like there is a mini vacuum pump squeezing and releasing. This seems similiar to how Plasma Brain operates, with delayed effects that can be felt. When used before sleep, it serves to calm u down, I have deep sleep, but regardless, I am tired the following day(3 loops). Now considering I am 23, no major health issues, eating healthy, I did not expect that the healing provided by the field will be that hardcore on me, considering all of the above. I have read people being tired from eternity field, but adapting later on, which still didnt happen in my case. So I decided to use it at around 6 pm, 2 times and see what happens.
Long story short, I dont experience same lack of energy the following day as I did before. My theory is that considering I felt the onset at around 3am (night owl, and noticed the squeeze starts around that time), eternity field saliva drops start healing the body at that time, and since I am not awake but in deep sleep by then(usually), it makes sense that the energy used is also replenished thanks to body being asleep. Now that I have covered the utility aspect I will cover my personal experiences that followed after I started using around 6pm. It will be hidden so people can choose if they want to read it, or just try it on their own without expectations, cuz it is different for every person.
Summary
Considering I am less tired around 6pm than at 1 am it makes sense I started experiencing the other side of this field.
Ah where do I even start. It happened spontaneously, but at one moment I am just attempting to be present, and the next one, I see myself on a small wooden boat in a middle of stormy sea, rain, thunder, big waves, all of it attempting to drown me,throw me of my path (music setting). For me, this represents life and its obstacles, tragedies etc. Things that are here, can be reduced noticeably thanks to fields, but not avoided. Some events are unavoidable, like getting wet in that rain, and pushed left, right,back, front, the sea is momentarily (seemingly) stronger than me on this small, simple wooden boat.
Now comes part hard to express through text, but hopefully u can feel it. In that horrible setting, Captain introduces us to beautiful instruments (not spoiling which), that serve to build on, support, and alternate between each other, taking u on a rolercoaster of emotional journey, if u choose to let it. It is hard to allow urself to be touched into the deepest part of ur wounds, traumas, in case of this audio it is just too intense. I get teary even now thinking about it while writting this. I think it serves to reconnect us with our inner child and things that we are too proud to admit that hurt us.
For me, the music tells the story of life inevitably hurting us, testing in infinite ways, for whatever reasons, BUT, the instruments serve to show that it is also the beauty of being alive, to experience negative/positive, for the recincarnation wouldn’t make sense if it was only good or bad. One other lesson. I can;t change the fact I am in unfavorable position, that my environment is depressing, but I can CHOOSE to focus on the positive, on the lesson it teaches, find deeper meaning, silverlining, whatever it is, to help me push through the period as sober observer (been weed free for some time now, u realize how much it dulled u to noticing life being shitty most of the time). So it has become normal for me to be broken down emotionally while using this, and get BUILT BACK UP from the ashes of what used to be the old me. It hurts, it is unpleasant, it is hard, but weirdly to say, IT MAKES ME FEEL ALIVE AND TRUE TO MYSELF.
Undoubtebly, it serves its own purpose in growing as a human being, reacting finally to that which u should have for a long time, accepting it, letting go, and allowing urself to feel bliss, which is felt simultaneously with negative emotions, at the moment of meditating to audio. Bliss during the audio active use is now a normal part for me, BUT, it is only possible because I choose/allow myself to be vulnerable and experience the negative as well. I still dont experience the high afterwards, but life does seem brighter, knowing that I have the full power to react to events (majority at least), so maybe that is the point, who knows. U cant control the outcome, but u can be EXALTED while experiencing it all.
having fun overall
