Hmm, I forgot how I ended up on this thread welp I guess Iāll give it a listen tonight.
I dunno how you ended up on this thread either but because you did, it brought this (previously missed) thread to my attention.
So, thank you!
I paused the meditation while I was by the brook and did this small imaginal session.
As I sat down by this gentle brook, I took a deep breath and said to myself āI take responsibility for the reality Iāve created to date. While I was asleep, I was not fully able to create a reality of ease, grace and joy. Everything I created was due to my old stories and old belief systems. I forgive myself for everything that happenedā. I then resumed the meditation.
As I was on my way back in the meadows, I said to myself āNow, everything is changing as I am changing. It is my intention that I create, experience and express my life from within my heartā.
Anyway, that was how I did this meditation and I repeated this meditation a second time without the above stuff. Nonetheless, this was a phenomenal meditation. Iāve forgiven myself on a conscious level but my heart said to do this meditation anyway and this meditation I believe helped me forgive myself completely even on the unconscious level [All this in only 2 sessions]. Like the description states
Also, I felt like listening to The Outlook Retrainer - YouTube after this and it took my mental state to another level.
I guess Iām in a Care Bear mode today (echoing what I said about the mass meditations lately). Who knows how long it will lastā¦ Because one never knows with me muhaha.
Not funny of course but thatās the raw material I got. Still forging it.
I already said somewhere that I forgave people. Over time, with some work, including fields like this one. Not letting them enter anymore in my life doesnāt mean that I didnāt forgive. Two different things, really.
For some of them, itās been surely much more harder to achieve. But this is one of those rare things for which āthe final destination matters more than the journeyā, maybe.
I also said in another thread that Iām not really capable anymore of claiming: āI donāt like this or that personā. āSurprisinglyā. I canāt associate dislikes with specific people, it requires effort now lol.
HOWEVERā¦
I canāt say the same about events and concepts. Or the full memory of something that goes beyond just individuals and their names. Itās a whole.
So now, my current mission is to apply this field on events, concepts, āimpersonifiedā memories.
For example:
Itās not anymore: āI canāt forgive X person because they ruined my black coffee by pouring sugar in it.ā
It has become: āI struggle at forgiving the presence of sugar in my black coffee.ā
(replace those cartoonish examples with more serious topics, that goes without saying).
Itās harder. Because I canāt put a face and precise name on those (unlike with people). I have to represent them with some objects, colors, etc. Yes itās harder, but working though. Little by little.
Additionally, what _OM said about this field being a facilitator for visualization in general is really noticeable. Any other visualization done after this field gains āhigher resolutionā, no doubt about it. Brighter colors, more defined contours, etc.
I was wondering if itās okay to adjust the playback speed to be slower for this?
I felt it was too fast when I used it lol.
No, but if you listen to it again it feels slower
I used this field a lot. I am even one of the frequents posters here . When I started, I had a list of what to forgive, and the list kept growing because it seemed that each time I forgave one thing, other things popped up. At the end, I discovered that most of what I wrote was to forgive myself and my parents, which was so different compare to how the list looked like when I started. It was as if layers were peeled, so that I could see what it really was that made me upset, angry, etc.
Considering how huge the list was, I never expected that I would ever stop using this. But after certain point, I felt light, and it gets so hard for me to be angry at anything or to be triggered. I feel that there was so much love being infused when I returned from the brook to the meadow, which made me feel like I am the love itself. This leads me to the feelings of understanding and compassion for myself and others.
I remember I had this conversation with my mom long time ago when I was upset with my baby brother. My mom said that my brother did what he did because he didnāt understand what he was doing. I couldnāt grasp what she said at that time, but this field finally gave me this understanding.
Some time ago, I felt uneasy and angry after having an interaction with someone. I immediately use this field, but it didnāt seem to work. Then I go to my other favorite field, which is the mass meditation. I was certain that this one would improve my mood, but even after some point, I still felt uneasy. Finally, I was guided to the Exorcism field, the one that I never used because my mind tried to scare me. After playing half of the track, I was feeling normal again .
This field also exists.
And its wow