what happened tonight:
among other goals i put in the TimeSince there is this one: “dislike sugar and sodas” cause goddamn my late night addiction to them 
I mentioned in the Speeded Metabolism how that field has stopped that, like i dont feel the urge or desire to go get a sweet at the convenience store across my apt, but if i have to go to get something else… well the sweets are there smiling at me lol and i just grab something (small things dont think i eat huge amounts of them but i mean even a little one daily? too bad)
i realized i didnt have water to drink and i always drink right before sleeping and when i wake up so i grabbed the keys and i immediately stopped and say “oh… would i be able to control myself? since is a goal in my app? thatd be interesting to see what i feel… or if my power to self-sabotage would win”
once i got there i honestly wasnt thinking about it, grabbed the water and headed to the cashier and you know at convenience stores the candies and chocolates are alll right there where you do the line. i got to pay and lets say the counter left and right along my body has candies and i looked to the left all the candies displayed and ( it took me a good 15 mins to put in words how i saw what i saw to share here)
its like they looked like behind a glass, an energetic glass, i could see them they were there and i am sure i could grab them, but at the same time i didnt think of anything. gosh its so hard to explain, maybe like when you are at an aquarium you are there just separated from the fishes by the big glass, and they are real, they are there!! right there but you cant grab them, the difference here is that there was no glass but they looked different haha goddammit.
ok i think i have a better way to explain it.
like when you are wearing the VR glasses in a game, you are in there in that game in that reality but you cant touch anything (cant as in your hands wouldnt actually touch anything not cant as in forbidden) thats how!! and i went like ops and giggled, the girl asked me if i was ok? and i said yeeep, looked to the right and saaame lol there was even a slight different light around that whole counter where the candies are displayed.
I was enjoying but also trying to make sense of what I was seeing and for a split of a second i just felt this empowering energy within like “yes, its real but its a world that is not yours i said to myself utterly sure of it” like a world where i eat or could eat candies 
“its not my world… thats why im here outside it”, for a second again i felt as if i had never eaten candies, because I DISLIKE THEM (just like i put it in the goal i said it to myself) . never felt pulled to get one, saw all the wrong with them etc. all that realization happened so fast. and i felt great.
walking back home and i was just like this is amazing, before i left home i was kinda intrigued what would happen, i thought maybe itll gradually happen, fast but gradually, maybe ill decide to buy one then i wont eat it, maybe itd taste awful… lets see… I never imagined how it could happen since its a goal where I am the main character to accept the opportunity to make it happen or not.
not? tonight i am completely convinced that we will not be an obstacle to get those goals happening. i think for the first time im answering the typical question of the past 3 years…
"…ok, but how changing or switching realities can stay?, i have certainly felt at times in a different reality and when i look around things are different, the air, the smell the positions of things, all, but it lasts minutes an hour the most, and then i feel sucked back in the one i knew.
until tonight. i got my answer.