Ms. Bro 
Iām a Taurus (= extra slowness) with strong Mars patterns (= extra virility). Soā¦
(Samuraiš: āMehhh astrology is for puppets!ā)
No, seriously. I think I get your perspective _OM. Weād all better think about it some more 
Actually my dear Paul Atreides: instead of getting a servitor, Iām currently hanging out with intergalactic friendsā¦ and firmly believe that they have the answer for this, at least for me :)))
Lol same , Taurus gang
Aww! Haha thank you Bronyraur! 
Yeah I guess I have no choice but to wait and see how I react to it and to make sure I test the waters before going nose deep
Thanks again! I have a good feeling Iām going to love it divinely! lolā¦ I hope you always do too! :)
Thanks to you too :)
I think I did more or less, so far :p 
Even though I like to have some guidance from other fellows once in a while (Iām not totally Tony Montana yet lol).
The stuff its bringing up is really deepā¦ ancient patterns, foundational life patterns as well as whatās present now. My ego is taking a beating and certainly wants to hang on tight here @Bronyraur! The field (or the expansion created by the field) is pushy in a way though, it doesnāt really let up in itās drive to move past it. It does take a bit of dash and bravery to really let go of these kinds of things, holy shit you have to be ready for it! Scar face lol 
I relate to this more than Iād like to rn
I donāt even know what to say @abro because you really provided a brilliant summary out here. Hats offā¦
As for Scarface: without a few things and people (including Dreamweaver), I would have been WAY worse than him, trust me (and Iām still tempted to be so, sometimes). So I totally get your last sentence too :)
But I guess that the bravery you mentioned is about not drifting into it, preciselyā¦
Well thank you, Iām glad my experience is helping hey. Iām drifting into it constantly, my 
is pretty much my postcode right now. The bravery is letting the energy and yourself move through it. Itās messy as fuck if Iām honest, Iām just not willing to have that kind of garbage in my energy any longer. Part of that is meeting it eye to eye with whatever capacity I have in the moment - menās circles, diet, exercise, kundalini yoga, sun gazingā¦ you know, the work.
I know itās been mentioned before, but the soul restoration series is really helping me to plug the leaks and come back to my own sovereignty. Theyāre the perfect compliments to each other I feel
That last scene of Scarface. āSay hello to my little friendā. This is what I want to do with people who, in the name of āloveā, come and distribute some chocolate fudge and kisses in the middle of your nap in some park, ruining your right for privacy; telling you what to eat, drink, think, believe, etc. The same fluffy ones who call Bakla people perverts or think that Congolese people are racist because they call white skinned people āmundeleāā¦ or mock Mbuti people who say that trees speak to them, etc. etc. The list is long.
Then, I turn on one of those fields + anything within my reach or capacity, as you said. Trying to feel compassion for those passive aggressive ālove-maskedā fellows too. The trap would be this: believing that these gains are permanent. They are not, both fortunately and unfortunately ;)
Thatās where your servitor comes to the rescue!!
Just gotta let it shake you loose - meltdowns, weirdness and lack of solid ground included 
Guiltyā¦
The Energetic Support Servitor is just awesome. 
Uial, you make me believe in humanity. The positive aspects of it. Youāre always here to smooth things out, one way or another 
And @abro
My interpretation can be totally wrong but I think that this is also what VoC has taught me and still keeps teaching me.
Because during my first listenings, since I was vibrating like a disco loudspeaker 24/7, I got confused about my role as a āco-creatorā lol. I was like āmuhaha why not cheat VoC and play the META-creator/meta-breath and take revenge of those impostersā (at least Iām honest about my weaknesses broā¦ not playing the saint :d and Iām probably less dangerous than the fluffy imposters).
Then, that analogy came upā¦ You know that unexpected guy who exterminates Tony Montana in the end. Rough analogy, I know, butā¦ quite understandable (at least by you). Heās the personification of some sort of morality call lol
Anyway, I ātalkedā too much tonight :)) Thereās another person who helps me whenever I lack compassion and acceptance. Him 
. Itās just impossible for me to remain angry when I hear him.
YES!