Why I'm Here (The Lost Spark)

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I had this spark when I was younger, everyone was respecting me and looking forward to what I say. Even online forums, games etc. I was just the natural leader. My aura was special. I now realize that better because whatever that was I’ve lost it. I think that’s mostly because of my porn addiction. I’ve started masturbating before I could ejaculate when I was 13-14 yo.

Since then I’ve been watching porn. I’m trying to quit since last 3-4 years but no luck yet. Although I had some long streaks my ultimate goal is to quit completely. During those long streaks I had this spark came into me once again. Girls kept looking at me, sending me dms etc. I was once again highly respected by everyone. Then I started PMO again.

So I tried to find how can I get that spark back. I first discovered some common frequencies and thanks to youtube recommendations my road crossed with Sapien Medicine. Thanks to Sapien even though I still PMO time to time that spark is coming back. If I ever manage to quit that addiction one day with all those fields and subliminals I’ll be able to re-claim what’s already mine.

Also it’s so nice to find a place where the majority can easily understand what I’m trying to tell.

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#2

So this is gonna be the first time I speak publicly about this. So this might be a very short answer lol.
edit: aha, didn’t happen
I have alot of trouble with masturbating myself, mind you, I’m a female. I started masturbating from I don’t even know what age, and it has been a thing up until this time.

There are times when I feel like I’m not only masturbating, but ‘getting something out’.

Sometimes I use the Eviction card + Healing card to let this pass by, and what happens shortly after is intense; miilder on some days, some days not. I do use my sevitors’ help in this too. And boy, it feels so… different.
(I’m not very good with adjectives when it is something personal, or emotions; let’s just stick with different, intense, sometimes hard, for now.)

I’ve come to believe that heavily masturbating folks, or those who have an extremely active sex life, or a barely active one, have ‘something’ in their mind/body/soul/mind you name it, regarding that kind of energy, action, sense of relief…

Some things have been helping recently, and it is very case-specific. I deeply wish Captain could provide us with a similar field, even if paid. But I guess the curse/spell remover does that too… oh! Use that! :)

My suggestions:

  • Jing Restoration: I have this one (older field) in my overnight playlist. I think it has been helping. I use the new field during the day. I took this advice from Samurai, read it somewhere and it has been working well. Only downside is when you have acquired some good Jing… you start masturbating.

  • Curse/Spell remover: I cannot wait to get this field, pretty soon I should, for this problem + other things. I believe it deeply evicts these kinds of blockages (for lack of better term really)

  • Vibration of Transcendence/Vibration of Love: I can’t think of anything more altering to one’s body than two of the strongest fields that vibrate the whole existence of your body to your deepest cellular and energetic level.

  • Maitreya Fields- Womb Healing This one here is why I’m answering this. I think this is the point where my mind kinda pauses the flow. This has been long awaited to come into my existence. I would have never found out about this missing piece of puzzle if it were not for this video and I’m truly grateful for whoever posted the link to this channel.

Jing it up all the way man.

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#3

Redefine who you think you are. You are just energy in the now. Not past memories or personality you think you are. As energy being, you have the most power in the now to align with where you are in the now. That’s why tones help because they speak to your energy field that is formless. We all have it. All these words you used above reference memories your mind is attached to - imagine you have complete amnesia and wake up today and just follow the feeling of excitement. What would that translate into in terms of action? Something healthier to contemplate on rather than lessons you learned on your life journey wearing a mask of personality which we all do but learning to see things by being both in the valley (personality) and on the top of the hill (energy).

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#5

I do. It does help… for some time

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#6

Love the analogy. Good read…

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#7

Im in the same boat
I dont have a girlfriend and dont know many girls because I live in a small town
and thats why I always return to porn after some weeks
but Ive learned not to feel bad afterwards, you guys have to learn not to feel bad for watching this stuff as long as your doin good in your daily life
If you want goin further from the bad wolf you have to feed and focus on the good wolf and not the bad

I hope I could help a little bit Im currently try too cut porn out for ever
Sry for bad english

Also what Ive learned the last months is when you focus more on god or your higher self and love its easier to abstain from porn

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#8

I don’t know have you tried chakra audios, but they really do wonders. Thanks to @ActionGuy and his post here:

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#9

Here are some nice suggestions

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#10

What a wonderful thing yo say!

You know what, I’m going to try this

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#11

@Desiree @sakulta

I’ve been figthing with it for 2+ years, only semi-successful in the past 1 year, and I discovered the ultimate solution in the past 20 days.
I know what a challenge it is, and here’s the stuff;

  • THIS WAS GOLD that changed the game immediately: Accept that porn sites has some occult stuff in it that you immediately create a connection which pulls you back even if part of you doesn’t want to. and parasitic entities in your environment attach to you when you masturbate. So go with the etheric cords cutter while holding that intention. and never never visit back, masturbate without porn if you really have to. repeat the etheric cord cutter and entity removal audios. Meditate with it, visualize sealing the doors, call on angelic beings to do it for you. I kid you not, I never felt this much relief in the past 9 months. There was always a weird pressure which doesn’t exist anymore.

  • UNDERSTAND THIS: Repetitive actions create thougth-forms within your being, and the negative energy/entity remover audios may not help because masturbation habit holds more pleasurable/positive energy than negative ones. So you have to create stronger positive thought-forms about being PMO free. If you just repent PMO and quit, and use negativity removal, that would remove the energy of repenting and you’re left with PMO again while the seed of regret tries to grow on the side. Go with “I just love having sex with my partner way more than masturbating” thought at least 2 months. Remind yourself once every day even if you don’t feel it in the beginning.

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#12

@noname yes!! I wanted to remember which one I left out!

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#13

I need to let that sink in for a moment.

Wow. But man, you think they have some occult thing for real (as in, is it intended?) or that perhaps through constant visiting one CREATES an etheric cord??

I have always hated porn really. It’s just so fake and zero pleasure is actually received on the woman’s end.

Not Zero, of course, but sometimes, you reeeally could tell…

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#14

Read this one up Do you think porn addiction might be caused by or at least include entities?

I no longer think. I know for sure.

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#15

Thank you to everyone who replied to my post. There are some really great advices which would be helpful for lots of people.

One day I’ll complete my journey about this topic and share my experiences. It’s great to be on the road with you.

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