Hello all :)
Just a note to apologize to whoever my words and approaches might have hurt or offended.
That has certainly never been my intention.
But intention dont matter when the damage happens right?
We all come from different everything to this forum, a big pool mixture.
Which is fun, i have always loved to broaden my perspectives on everything and thus i like to be open to learn from anybody.
I can assure you that my intention is always good, but im fierce when it comes to defend and protect Sapien Med, Dreamweaver and Sammy, also very fixed in my perception of virtues and respect for others or things no matter who they are.
So in my eyes there is this unbalanced unfair fairness in the forum.
Some get hurt for petty stuff i say
Some think i get hurt by petty stuff they say
See that?
So in all conclusion we reach the same thing:
It is impossible to please everybody and because i dont look to please others, then i go straight rough on some, but get offended if someone gets offended.
Kinda hypocrite right? Yes. I agree.
also the old members know that there were times where this forum was chaos all over, and so we were accustomed to jump in and be the bad cop to keep this place organized.
Time passed and some of those old members left and some others stopped being bad cops around and just retreated to watch and meh not my business.
And unfortunately the less people would straighten things up the more new trolls would show up in the forum, and then no Moderator, life got busy for Sammy, Dream has never got involved with the day to day mini chaos or disruptive situation.
Then Divine Heroine came in, but she is a sweetheart and would just try her best to keep the forum up to friendly standards.
But there was Me coming and going to the Forum, always trying to hold back and be more open but my inner desire to fix things and keep the order was bigger.
All that sounds good but before we were majority of people with thicker skin, having had stumbled in life again and again and finally understood that we had to get serious about our life so we started the inner change. And that gave us a skin layer of no BS accepted and so we wanted to bring that forward here to make a bigger change. But the approach was not right, despite what we wanted to achieve.
now there is a bigger majority of members for whom freedom not judgment approach is crucial, a younger crowd some of you tired of being told what to do in real life, you come to this place to escape the constrictions all us grown up impose on you, hurt broken lost having to face a world that seems worse or more difficult with less opportunities.
I get it. And im sorry. Believe it or not what you want is exactly what i want, for this forum to be our sacred scape to grow, heal, evolve and hopefully splash all of it once we go to our real life.
Im not excusing myself i am just explaining why
I will always be open to grow, expand, let go of things that should go, even if they are incredibly intertwined in me. I look for the silver lining flow and try to change. I am profusely commited to be a better person every day, and an example wherever i go.
So in that sense is my promise to you all to think thrice before responding to you, and if i am not happy with something let the moderators know, and they will know what to do, thats why they were chosen because they do better.
At the same time i ask you that if you ever think or feel that my words are not right, to stop and breath deeply and ask yourself if it is really that im being hurtful or you are just bleeding from a wound or trauma, that is ok tho, ive been there, but sometimes we let our wounds bleed on someone that didnt cause the cut, and we snap on them, but if we stop and ponder for a few seconds, we can come out of that and remember who the person we have in front is, and remember that their intentions are good, the perspective changes immediately and we start to develop a strong grip on our emotions and reactions, and that friends… is the best weapon we can have to navigate in this world and life.
However if after doing that mini exercise you still feel that my words offend you, please express it to me first, you can even private message me (id love that) and we can def fix it. If not then yes, flag it and the moderators will let me know. So i continue to adjust.
Not saying that id be going down on my knees at every thing you think is wrong because again, we gotta be responsible for the wounds we have and how we bleed in life.
But because i know thats easier said than done, then my last promise is that ill rather say nothing in case chances are you would take it wrong.
I hope we all keep growing, and know that you can all count on me. I will always try to help.
