Got Phoenix.
I felt it within 10 min of creation proccess.
Then once made it went straight to healing my heart.
Emotions came up and i didn’t like them, but i managed to persevere and just be with them.
About 40 minutes in and i had enough strength to do something I otherwise would not (will see how it goes, the action felt as the right one I think from my part). Cuz i felt more able to and i knew it has my back ;). Or i should say i knew I had my back.
My heart feels more alive and less in emotional distress.
I think it will help me towards a greater day to day future as it rises me from my deep inner miseries. Will see.