In your other thread, you mentioned that you can’t do anything for yourself. And I understand that this is how it seems to you. I get that. I understand that.
However, you’ve been able to come onto this forum (several times, recently–Good for you!) and open threads (Yay, for that, too!), so I know you can do things for yourself.
In that vein, I’m going to invite you to do for yourself a little bit more. In the upper right corner of every page of this forum, there’s a little magnifying glass icon. That’s our very helpful forum search engine. With it, you can find the many discussions we’ve had about PTSD and the suggestions to help that problem.
Use those suggestions to research what fields resonate with you. Then bring those suggestions here to this thread and we can help you massage your fields into a “stack.”
While you’re at it, Sammy has already compiled stacks for us:
Hint: look under “mental anguish.” I know, I know, you said that you don’t think yours is “mental.” And I know what you mean. But it is mental, in the sense that (I’m sure) you don’t need to be around your original trauma in order to experience your very real anguish. It might seem to you that it’s not “mental”–perhaps it happens so fast that you don’t recognize the “mental” piece of it, just your physical reactions to the mental piece–but, if I’m right, there is a menal piece that kicks your physcial symptoms off for you.
You can do this! I’m rooting for you.