We carry sooo much guilt within its not funny, but the worst part is that a whole lot of it is actually unconsciously which makes it harder to resolve or let go of.
If we are asked if we feel guilty in life, our prompt response more likely usually is something like:
“Hmm, no, not really, no i dont think so, i mean yeah i guess growing up sometimes i upset my parents, or maybe i didnt handle that once upon a time break up with so and so person in the best way and i hurt them, or maybe i stole some candy that belonged to my siblings but like a big thing that weights on me that it call it guilt? No.”
Im talking here, about that big weight we dont recognize or realize it being there but IT IS there. Bringing havoc to our lives little by little, a silent enemy consistenly instilling poison within Us, the one that we have “Unconsciously” accumulated over the years just because or thanks to:
Just existing?
Being a Woman?
Being of so and so Race?
Being a Man?
Being Poor?
Being Rich?
Having Disabilities?
Being an Empath?
Being the Older child?
Being the only child?
Being the Father?
Being the Mother?
Being a Teacher?
And much more.
Why?
Because every-body around us from when we were born has had this set of expectations of us, from us.
Expectations that we seem to keep failing to deliver apparently… And we never even chose many of those roles, yet here we are getting new stamps of “guilty” on us almost everyday.
The saddest part? The reasons why we allow that
Stamp on us:
We care/ have cared.
We love/ have loved.
That is.
Loving and caring has gifted us the stamp of guilt.
(Of course im just saying this only in this context to understand where im getting at)
Every decision weve made has been judged, criticized, or taken apart to find the flaw by at least 1 person we have cared about or loved.
In many cases by several people.
You might think im exaggerating but no…
From the child that you didnt lend your toy to because you were using it, and he/she went crying to the Mom and the Mom gave you a dirty look, forbade the child to hang out with you (and he was a friend you appreciated) then that Mom went to complain to your Mom, your Mom scold you and gave you a lecture, maybe even punished you and at the end how you felt? like the worst person in the world and probably the gossip amongst friends for a while, maybe even rejection etc.
I bet you dont or didnt remember this happening to you, but i guarantee you that scenario more or less HAPPENED to you haha. We all been there.
To the grown up that has to walk this Earth like stepping on egg shells.
Living a life trying to be happy doing what we want, being with who we want, where we want, would always disappoint someone somehow. Just think about it, every single decision youve made and tell me im wrong.
Even if the disappointed people is someone or a group we really dont care, it still makes a tiny dent in our inner perception of us and even just for a split of a second we ask ourselves “was i wrong?” “Am i wrong?” “Should I” and then oh well whatever but damn he/she they are disappointed will be disappointed… but heck i dont care. You dont care? Every time you see that people or talk to them or they see you doing what they didnt want
… there goes that drop of guilt delivered to you and adds to the hundreds of other tiny guilt drops planted before.
But when its people we care and or love ah… you get double prize … the guilt they make you feel and the guilt YOU feel yourself because you dissapointed, upset, hurt someone you care about.
Family thing? It spreads like fire, so you receive guilt gifts left and right plus yours.
Coworkers, bosses, employees, neighbors, friends, gf/bf, spouses, children, society, whichever leader you follow etc etc… they have all made you feel guilty once or a 100 times.
And that is just the beginning.
Then you bring even more guilt on to you every single time you enjoy the something you werent supposed to according to or because if you did, someone else couldnt… and you remember… sometimes or a lot of times or every time
But remember what i said first? we usually dont notice or call that guilt yet energetically it is guilt and it hooks to us. That is the problem.
Believe me when i say we all are full of those tiny drops that a lot of times or ever we didnt think was guilt much less that would cause issues within and splash outside to our reality and the life we want or wanted to build.
Guilt is the biggest weapon against humanity. Put it that way.
The highest form of manipulation.
The most smooth but successful brainwash tool.
Everywhere, all the time.
And the result of all of this?
WE CONSISTENTLY PUNISH OURSELVES CONSCIOUSLY OR UNCONSCIOUSLY BY REJECTING EVERYTHING GOOD THAT COMES OUR WAY.
Thats our daily battle right there. One way or another.
You are great money wise?
Your love life sucks.
Your love life is perfect?
You struggle with money.
Your love life and finances are great?
You have a weird or difficult desease, or still struggle with childhood trauma. Or relationship with family is broken or you live far away from your family.
Etc.
We have a leak for happiness somewhere somehow BECAUSE the constant unconscious guilt we carry.
Nothing i said applies to you?
Everything is perfect in your life?
Great. But i bet your focus is on: Protecting with everything what you have, trying to secure all of that so it doesnt get taken away. Why do you feel that? Maybe because we live in a world that makes us feel GUILTY if our life is great when millions more are suffering? How could you *insert sarcastic of course dirty look.
There you have it. Everybody has guilt.
As long as guilt is so intrinsically a part of us inside and outside, we would never reach a real contentment state. We would always feel undeserving. So how are we supposed to get the things that we want?
And that was the Unconscious guilt… add to that the conscious one, it punishes more, but if you think about it a whole lot of that guilt also comes from disappointing someone else… when you were just trying to be you, trying to live, trying to cope with something…
we gotta free ourselves from it all already!!!
thank you thank you for this field Dream, among all the ones you have made lately (since the first revisions) this one to me is the most important one.
And a personal story. Without telling the whole thing, i am right now AGAIN in a transitory spot in my life. And the other day i was like crashing hopeless asking myself and whoever else “invisible” that was around Me. Why? Why again? What is that im doing wrong? I dont know anymore but im incredibly fed up of these set backs i swear.
So i got my favorite Oracle out (i strongly recommend you getting it, like for real)
And tuned in with Odin, And asked him to give me a clear message through the oracle as what is what i really need to work on to first, move past this transition fast and smoothly and 2 to stop finding myself in a spot like this ever again.
And the 3 cards were:
FORGIVENESS the very first one
Death
Grounding
Now somehow sometimes i have pondered that before about forgiving myself for the missed opportunities due to being careless. + but never really worked on that, just said it to myself, made sense to myself, supposedly forgave myself etc but when i saw that first card i was even like hmm… who or what do i have to forgive i didnt think of me, thats how small the guilt being the culprit seemed to me… i dont usually read the meaning because i have used this oracle a lot but i felt pulled to read it just because the words in the little book are soo well explained i love this oracle.
So when i read it i bursted our crying
Also because as i was reading, Odin was telling me all the details and then images and memories started coming to my mind and i …lets just say… had a good cry
The other 2 cards where just amazing little tips that I supposed too, do regularly but i guess i hadnt enough and they are incredibly connected, thats why i recommend you to get it, when you ask a question and draw 3 cards, … its always 100% on point.
So usually the 1st card shows the problem then the other 2 the solutions.
Death was the advice as to let go of each day no matter what happened, at that point i understood Odin saying “just like we do here in Valhalla, every day we go out to battle and whether we “lose” or not we never die, and there is a new day at dawn” insert second cry here lol
And Grounding to be able to copy every day with all kinds of negative thoughts or feelings (particularly guilt since its what im supposed to work on) i should ground at the end of the day whether i think i need to or not i should go to bed grounded. Released. Free.
FAST FORWARD 2 DAYS i woke up to THIS!!!
Thank you!!! Dreamweaver as the description says… We all deserve an opportunity to be our best selves.
Ladies and Gentlemen. Dont let this one behind, play it daily even if you think there is no guilt to work on.
Lets allow Magic to finally fully enter our lives and to stay.