Imagine a sphere of light which is covered in an ever changing layer of shadows. But now replace this layer of shadows with skin, humans and human body parts, that are floating around it and these human parts seemed to disintegrate in the middle of the sphere. While other flesh and parts were constantly appearing on other placces of the sphere.
Did my higher self had a good ol’ time pranking me? Because it knew that I would drop this desire and focus on more productive things?
Maybe the only thing the Ancient Knowledge field could present me, was a concept from the Bhagavad Gita where the universe is described as a being that is constantly creating and devouring itself. And my expectations then filtered, what the field wanted to show me.
Maybe this what the concept of shape shifting is? Violent, brutal and painful?
Or did my mantra like repetition of the question invite an entity into my house? Just like it is written in Faust I:
FAUST: A knock? Come in! Who now would break my rest?
MEPHISTOPHELES: 'tis I!
FAUST: Come in!
MEPHISTOPHELES: Thrice be the words express’d.
FAUST: Then I repeat, Come in!
The room felt colder when I saw “it”.
At the end I didn’t dare to order my dark servitor to attack or destroy this thing. Politely asked it to leave, which it did after a while.
No idea what this all means. I just follow the maxim Sammy once presented in the blog: “nothing is true; everything is possible."