I feel you and ive been in a similar situation. Someone close to me has also attempted and luckily they are still with us. One’s thoughts may believe suicide is the only option, but they don’t realize the affect they have on everyone connected to them.
I don’t know your situation, but i encourage you to seek for help from someone you feel safe with along with these audios.
I’ll edit this to share one of my testimonials with looping only two negative energy cleansing audios.
Part of my healing has made me realized it doesn’t matter what situation i’m in, only my perspective and mindset will either break me or raise me up.
I have been prioritizing the healing of my perspective into an optimistic and loving one. It has made me realize i am in a much better position than my thoughts once believed.
Ego dissolution qnd the abundance mindset has been helpful. I still have a journey to go through with my mindset, but my reality has been more tolerable.