it’s been over a week since i only looped these two audios 24/7:
- https://www.patreon.com/posts/repel-negative-2-38255964
- https://www.patreon.com/posts/clear-all-energy-24636892
i’d like to preface that my decision to only listen to these audios was the fact that i was fully aware of how strongly the victimization mindset was present in my experiences for a good week.
thoughts like:
“why are you doing this to me?”
“i’m so done with everyone”
“f* you all”
“i don’t care”
i decided i’ll only listen to these two audios for a minimum of 1 year. who knows if i’ll commit lol. i’d rather have a full year of detoxing myself from all ‘negative’ perspectives anyways.
i’ve experienced the following:
- decade old scars have reactivated and began to open and scab promoting new healing.
- thoughts have become more optimistic with less self deprecation and self doubt.
- repetitive thoughts have decreased to the point that i don’t remember them.
- dreaming more, especially about ideal situations and life circumstances.
- all relationships have been more empathic and personal boundaries have been more finely established.
- more experimentation and trying new things.
- less reasons to do nothing, becoming very inclusive and opening myself up to opposing viewpoints and seeing more understanding.
- Best Path In Life results becoming more pronounced and obvious.
- fuller understanding of who i am as if i have a different vantage point like i’m watching my own movie.
- i finally feel the phrases ‘let go’ and ‘surrender’ as i enjoy the abundance i have.
- flow with my physical body’s dietary, sleep, and exercise needs.
- flow in all socialization.
- goals and actions towards these goals feel more natural. i stopped ‘forcing’ myself to do anything as i realized the ‘force’ i used would just rubber-band me back to where i was when i initially used this type of forceful energy. the forceful energy i speak of was usually backed with my personal blend of guilt and anxiety.
- better communication with my dog. the best thing i started was to notate his schedule so i’m always on top his needs.
- people’s better moods are more contagious to me. i see a friend smiling and i go crazy like i’m fangirling just because they are who they are.
- jealousy and envy have become almost non-existant in my thoughts and emotions as they’re replaced with unconditional love and appreciation.
- i wake up from sleeping like it’s literally a GOOD morning, instead of “ugh why did i wake up to this reality”.
i know everyone toots Ego Dissolution’s horn, but these two audios have provided me with the results i’ve been looking for in a shorter amount of time and with more obvious results. instead of treating my ego as something to dissolve and kill, i would rather just transmute any and all negative energy that has been with my experiences.
i told this to a friend, but these two audios feel like i finally have a ‘block feature’ in my life. i’m able to say goodbye to toxic friends and now i can say goodbye to toxic energies. without ‘negative’ influences, i can see both sides of the coin.
i still use ego dissolution and i have the SLR tag, so yeah life’s good.
