guys im in extreme extreme extreme need for advice regarding the two audios i wanna use -
1.ego dissolution (the most important one)
2. subconscious clutter (this could help alot)
3. emotional release. (optional/extra)
(you could suggest me some more audios that would be helpful for my issue)
im in journey to reduce my mind momentum and my problem is that i have heard all highly reliable spiritual teachers say that the only way to reduce the mind clutter/momentum is by just letting the mind be. Also, that trying to control/stop/resist the thoughts will only fuel the mind momentum even more.
I have found this thing to be extremely true, since april 2023 i have been doing the âletting go of controlling the mind/letting the mind beâ meditation every single day, and words cant describe how much it helped me, almost since i was of age 4-5 years old i have had extreme social anxiety and fear in general. but after doing the meditation which i mentioned ( the letting go one ), my social anxiety has been completely fixed and i dont feel intense negative emotions at all.
however even though my mind momentum is no longer high and im in a way better condition than when i had started that meditation ( april 2023 - its been 5 months), it stills bothers me and keeps me at a low state considering that i have only been doing it for 5 months and i think that i will need to do this meditation for 3-4 months more for my mind momentum to have completely zero grip on me.
but my problem is that at this moment, there are some days that im feeling extremely extremely down like today which makes me feel things like âi wont last long this wayâ etc.
i believe that ego dissolution and subconscious clutter audios would be immensely helpful in my journey of reducing mind momentum/negativity and i DESPERATELY wanna use it considering how bad and impatient i feel sometimes in this journey.
however my biggest fear that is restricting me from using this audio is that few months ago, i had used the âego dissolutionâ audio and after i listened to it two times, my mind momentum had increased alot and my egoic thought patterns literally felt liked were enhanced by 10 times. it took me like one and half week of meditating daily to bring my mind state to as it was again.
when i was thinking why this happened then i suddenly remembered the advice of the spiritual masters that i mentioned earlier âtrying to stop the mind will only reinforce/fuel it moreâ and i thought that maybe this audio tries to stop the egoic force of the mind by suppressing it thats why it seemed like my egoic thought pattern were enhanced by 10 times.
i really wanna use the audio as im in a really bad state sometimes but i also dont wanna lose all the progress i gained from meditating daily for 5 months straight. and if the audio works by trying to suppress the ego then it will ruin my progress since âwhatever we resist will persistâ.
so im really paranoid of using this audio but at the same time i really wanna use it, so could you all please give me a brief description of how these audios work and if the method that is implemented in these audios work in the similar theory of âletting go of the egoâ. Also i have always been cautious from using anything before knowing exactly how it works/if its safe, so this trait of mine makes the matter even worse.
also could you explain to me why had my egoic thought patterns enhanced after listening to it?
words cant describe how grateful i will be if i get answers to my queryâ:sob: