When I was a child, I was a very brave and enterprising child. Some evenings I would not return home and would wander around the streets where there were night clubs. I would try to participate in games that older children could play. I would try to seduce girls who were much older than me, and they would usually make fun of me. Sometimes my friends would argue at school and I would join in to protect my friend. Then I would get beaten too. One evening, the television was broken and I wanted to repair it. I opened the box and screws and received an electric shock. Because the plug was plugged into the socket. I learned to drive at a very young age. When I was 10, I stole the car from my father and played music in front of the school to show off to the high school students. I had a gang of street dogs. Street dogs were my best friends when I was a kid.
I blocked the majority of mine out. I did enjoy reading the snippets of yours though. I do remember my vivid imagination and inner world. I remember waiting for college just so I could get away. Man, Iām tearing up just thinking about it, honestly. On the bright side, Iāve found hypnosis to be really healing for going back and taking care of that little girl. Going back and being there for her.
I hope she heals. And I hope one day you 2 are one again.
Theres nothing that breaks me more than noticing or knowing peopleās inner child wounded or trapped in fears, and the subsequent disconnection to their adult self.
You good. I had some fears when I was a child. There were events that I experienced and feared to experience. Later, when I became a teenager, I relived these fears. As I approach adulthood, I still experience the same fears. People and places change, but the feeling is the same. I may have carried it from my previous life, Iām not sure. Maybe itās not my own fears and traumas, but my ancestorsā fears and traumas. Luckily I met the fields and this ended a long time ago. I also love entertaining children, so this may have cured my inner childās vagabond.
Iāve found that as well - the repeating patterns.
Iāve also found that the older I get, the more the less trauma can be stuffed down or hidden away. Itās like after a point you canāt run or hide from it anymore.
Iām glad fields helped you, theyāre helping me as well, although it feels like the onion has a million layers to go through sometimes
One day I will make a cinema movie about this subject. Itās about the effects of great experiences and not-so-good events in childhood or adolescence and their recurrence in adulthood.
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I canāt remember, didnāt you tell me once you were type 1 as well?
I hope you maintain that same enthusiasm you had a kid
I always love people watching and hearing stories from other people
I just always have, Iāve always been very observant
But even as an adult Iāve found that I think I like observing and hearing so much because Iām able to relate to and channel the vibrations and stories that others share. For instance my husband, Iām always watching how he does things ā the way he moves and acts in the world. He tells me his childhood stories and they sounds like yours - always thinking, moving, getting into things etc.
and then I reflect on these traits and imitate in the ways that I want to grow. I practice being more xyz just through imitation and observation.
Are you talking about diabetes? I havenāt mentioned this in this forum. But yes, I ate too much sugar as a child and experienced type 1 symptoms in my 20s. Fortunately, I recovered thanks to the fields. I have been busy with the āAttract Soul tribeā field for a long time in recent months. I know that this field can also create intense connections in the virtual environment. I convey my best wishes to my cousins āāin your family. They will have a very exciting and action-packed lifeā:grin: Actually, I didnāt know you were married when I met you, I apologize again. But honestly, Iām sorry youāre married. When I communicate with someone with advanced clairvoyance skills on the forum, I feel like Iām being watched. And you literally have a clear view, like youāre standing right in front of me.
I didnāt like kids as a kid (unless I befriended someone), so I would hang out with elders and then get scolded for it lol. Sometimes Iād talk for hours with random people. And again, get scolded for it lol. Felt like a breath of fresh air Also, when we were travelling by train, my parents werenāt able to find me because I played cards with random uncles and then tons of people gathered around us Might not sound like that, but I was pretty introverted.
When I was a baby, I was the bestāI would get conscious for food only here and there. I played so silently that my sibling would come in and check on me once in a while to ensure Iām still alive. I was raised alongside my cousins cause they lived nearby, and they always protected me from everyone. In reality, someone had to protect ME from them because they were beating me all the time āLearned a new skill on kickboxing lessons. How do we test them? Ro, come here. COME HERE I SAID OR IāLL PUNCH YOUā. Basically, Iād get punched either way There was no escape lol.
And Iāve always been a motivator. Iād motivate everyone for change. And for good life. I always believed and wanted to believe that happiness is available to everyone and was trying to find ways how. Then I felt like I gotta share. And then Iād be preaching about my ārealizationsā or smth Iāve read on the internet to everyoneā¦ And when I say everyone, I donāt exaggerate Teachers, classmates, relatives, all. My classmates were so happy when I was starting to talk cause they knew: no lesson today lol I had very good teachers.
I read a lot about psychology and experimented with it. So, for example, I realized itās hard to create empathy in someoneās heart towards someone they hated. We had teachers that hated everyone cause they had a bad life and therefore they believed everyone else was guilty of that. Obviosly kids hated them back. I was interested in making that same teacher change overtime. And Iād throw a couple of concepts in class and make my classmates appreciate things about her. Teacher would treat me badly at first as well, but Iād laugh it out and still treat her like she is a good person and has always treated me well. Anyhow, as a result, of course, she changed a lot. She felt very safe in our class and didnāt torture anyone. Then Iād apply such things to kids who were bullied, etc. Things would change before my eyes and I felt a sense of victory lol. Btw, that change happens very very fastā¦
When I communicate with someone with advanced clairvoyance skills on the forum, I feel like Iām being watched. And you literally have a clear view, like youāre standing right in front of me.
Also, when we were travelling by train, my parents werenāt able to find me because I played cards with random uncles and then tons of people gathered around us 
here and there. I played so silently that my sibling would come in and check on me once in a while to ensure Iām still alive. I was raised alongside my cousins cause they lived nearby, and they always protected me from everyone. In reality, someone had to protect ME from them because they were beating me all the time 
There was no escape lol.
