Wow. Okay. A lot of mixed emotions I’m feeling right now.
I’m not gonna act like it doesn’t effect me and im just grateful to the boss.
It does effect, at a tremedous level. This forum, the fields, captain have been the ray of hope for me and mamy others when the dark clouds surrounded us. When all else fails. Just when i had all the money to bulk buy the gumroad fields, nfts and join retreat if another was happening, this all happens.
I was hoping to buy ponr and plasma flaunt first to get a healthy mind and body, especially body for me and my family, my grandmother, so we all can at least stay healthy. We just started a new business project and was also gonna buy some fields regarding that and for countless other purposes.
A week or two before, i was hearing this voice, that kept saying, " stop listening to sapien med, he is dead" and i thought it was just some stupid intrusive thoughts, never paid any attention to it, little did i know this was gonna happen.
With the closing of the sapien med brand, im truly shaken, saddened, hurt, feeling a lot at loss, like an important body part of me has been severed. How am i supposed to live normally after knowing this magic? And this forum? It has always been such a incredible place with incredible people and energy, where one could freely speak what they felt, what they neede help with, express what they truly are and is happening and tons of people would come with advices and help.
HOW AM I GONNA FIND SUCH A PLACE AGAIN? HOW AM I GONNA FIND SUCH FRIENDS AGAIN ?
HOW AM I GONNA FIND CAPTAIN AGAIN? 
It hurts like a breakup man and this time the person is truly valuable. I wish the patreon audios, paid and free would stay up, and ofc the forum, if boss doesn’t want to stay active, thats fine, he could just check in with us at intervals.
Ofc why sapien is doing this is very understandable, and if i was in his place I’d probably do the same too, but tbh, i would also do something to continue provide the products, especially they tremendously help people with important parts of their life.
Not to sound or rude or anything along the lines but a superhero has responsibility. Like the spiderman dialogue "with great powers comes great responsibilty. " a superhero cant just dissappear man, we would succumb to the villains of this world otherwise.
I do understand you captain, i truly do, but i cant just be all grateful and all when it is having sucha massive effect on me, my family and all of us.
I’m grateful what you did for use and the collective captain nemo.
Wish i could make you and all stay, i knew this day would come but not this early and never imagines that the audios would ever be gone.