second day and night i looped only devic intercession.
negative thoughts are easily recognized and dissolved. for example i think a thought that would start building up a guilty feeling with in me, i intuitively recognized it and automatically placed my attention to breathing and it just goes away instead of bringing the next guilty thought.
maybe the weeks of listening to other audios especially ego dissolution and subconscious limits remover have finally shown their effects because i had the dreams i wanted to dream and i’m not going to share the contents or the story since they’re personal. what i will share is that it felt really close to reality. i usually just ‘saw’ and ‘heard’ in my dream, but in this dream i was also thinking and knew i was thinking and i spoke and i could look at the background. i couldn’t really turn my head so it was like watching a movie.
i woke up with a smell i haven’t smelled in years and i could only describe it as ‘fresh’. my sense of smell is definitely enhanced and for some reason i could smell ‘campfire’ associated with the freshness. i also associate nature with campfires so hey maybe i’m linking that with the devas.
i stopped focusing on what i ‘wanted’ and just constantly ask myself “what do i need to know?” and i’m mentally getting what i needed which in a roundabout way is fulfilling what i ‘want’.
i’m really happy with my results so far. i feel like the devic intercession audio is helping me get out of my head and into my heart as i am becoming more genuinely social instead of fake social. what i mean by fake social is when i would act really well when listening and responding, but in my head i had judgemental thoughts about me or the people i was interacting with. this time even though i feel a little awkward my thoughts weren’t there whenever i was socializing and it’s great because i always wanted to connect better with my friends and family.