it’s really nice when guys initiate flirting with me.
i was playing valorant with my friends and the moment i spoke on call the random guy on our team began to compliment me with his pleasing voice.
my friends were surprised it happened but i didn’t acknowledge it and just continued to enjoy playing the match without needing ‘more attention’. i felt pleased and grateful enough that i give that reaction just by interacting.
people’s compliments are starting to sound and feel more believable to me when i was full of doubt.
it’s really fun when i find new reasons why someone is beautiful to me. like i am more and more aware of their beauty which has always been there.
i’ve been very explorative of my sexuality because my definition of beauty continues to widen.
Edit: May 14, 2021
Life is becoming more and more beautiful.
Ugliness and Beauty are the same thing! They’re duality from the ego’s perspective. My friend I made at an ayahuasca ceremony shared their experience about beauty to me before I even realized how much Beauty means to me.
They told me that they saw something beautiful but then when they turned their head (or perspective) it looked ugly. When they moved their head back to the original position it looked beautiful again. It clicked for them!
Life is more beautiful.
How? I taste more beautiful things. I see more beautiful people. I feel more beautiful feelings. I hear more beautiful things.
I’m in a reality where everyone I interact with treats me how I want them to treat me. I realized that I didn’t need a romantic relationship to complete me.
Life is more fun where I am at right now.
My biggest gratitude is I learned my love to serve others. I have been more and more generous with my time, money, and feelings to make others feel loved.
I feel like my spirituality is to learn about connecting. The more I serve others, the more blessings I get.
I realized that I can get closer and closer to people now because i have Essence of Beauty to remind me that everything is essentially beautiful.
The main things that blocked me from serving and connecting to others are:
- My fear of aging
- My fear of physical pain
- My fear of ‘ugliness’
Essence of Beauty washed all of that away by being a constant reminder that everything and nothing is beautiful.
I am also grateful to Sapien Medicine. Having this pendant is just like when my dog Jax came into my life!
I love that every Essence of Beauty is different. My pendant is a beautiful opal and i’m very attached to it as I wear her 24/7.
I even read more about the opal and its historical origins. Fascinating stuff! My friend out of all the videos she could share just happens to show me a documentary of opal mining.
The amount of flirting I am receiving is surprising and welcomed.
I realize that if i lose this item in anyway, that doesn’t mean I lost my beauty. That means that beauty will always be within me and everyone.
I realize that whatever I do, like a child, I will always be there for myself to teach myself in a loving and graceful way.
I realized a deeper connection to my inner thoughts and feelings that share more of their wisdom with me.
To be spiritual is to be responsible as the role models of the world.