my new fae mandala! @Samurai i’m gushing at how beautiful it is! i took this photo out in my backyard. i have 4 smaller ones not pictured.
i just made them yesterday and it really helped with removing jealousy. i was talking to my crush through group voice chat when our other friends came on and i started having thoughts like ‘oh he’s not giving me as much attention’.
the moment i started to feel jealousy rise up, i placed the mandala on my heart and started to just breathe through it. turns out jealousy is wrong and we all had a great time and i got to see more of my crush’s personality.
i got even happier when he said things like ‘as psynergy always tells me…’ when the group conversation was on advice and i was just chilling in the background.
i was also given encouraging thoughts like ‘love is appreciated, not expected’, ‘to love someone is to see all of their sides and not just the sides you like’. i grew to like his sides that i wanted to change before but now embrace them as his unique expressions.
one friend also started to ask intrusive questions about me and i was calm enough to take it out of the group conversation and into private messages where we hugged it out when before it usually gets awkward for everyone. my crush did a white knight move to protect me by telling everyone to back off about my personal life.
i’m excited to bring my fae mandala to a hike soon, but for now i’m just enjoying my backyard with it.