So I fell back asleep and didn’t even realize it. I stopped mediating, stopped listening to fields, started turning a different way that was starting to not only destroy me spiritually but physically as well. I grew so fearful, had random bursts of anxiety and fear, kept feeling like there was something with me trying to harm me that I couldn’t see, kept getting dreams of being attacked worse and worse, saw myself die in a dream many times to the point I think I really did die but somehow came back. These dreams felt so real. I would wake up out of my bed like I’ve explained before but just kept dying in different ways. The one way it had to deal with my brain. Now I have bumps on my brain I started feeling very painful pain where those bumps are after this dream. In this dream I felt this pain, grew tired, grew dizzy, went upstairs in my home then dropped, I heard and felt my head crack against the floor, I felt the pain I felt it all. Another dream I woke up in my bed running to the bathroom with my body fluids just running out of me and I woke up to be fine even asked my partner it really happened they looked at me like I was nuts. The last dream I will explain is that I died I mean I really died in this one. I just sat there laying on my back in some world I’ve never seen. I don’t know how to even explain it nothing but pure light was there and I saw this darkness just come as grab me. I couldn’t do anything, I couldn’t move, I was just there thinking on myself this is really it im dead and this is what death really is. I started screaming as they grabbed me and started to lift me and woke up to my partner grabbing me they said I was screaming for minutes and they couldn’t wake me up. They said I was screaming like I was being murdered and even coud tell how much fear I was in as I even woke up. I currently just lost my job and struggling trying to keep everything together. I’ve been trying to find another job and can’t its like everything just started closing in on me if that makes sense. A few days ago out of nowhere a video from sapien popped up on my channel which I had completely forgotten about I dont even know how I could forget the fields but i did. I started mediating and listening again. I started to remember things and now realizing things. My fear is gone, anxiety gone, everything gone. I’m coming back but now I can’t seem to say awake literally. I’m fighting so much fatigue. I think something spiritually wants me asleep and honestly I think I needed to go through this to learn a lesson that needed to long be learned. I stopped believing in God and stopped believing/trusting that there was anything helping me that it was all my doing if that makes sense. If there is anything that you do never ever think God isn’t real because god is. I was brought to my knees by an ego that was destroying me. During my one meditation I had an interaction that I can’t speak of but it changed the way i look at things. I’m finally starting to learn the truth I was being brainwashed for a long time and thought the things I knew were truth but we’re nothing but lies. Be careful what you believe start asking your higher self and God to guide you. Get rid of negative thoughts they will do nothing but bring you deeper and deeper. Whenever you think negative think about the things you have, the things your grateful for. I was told it’s time to wake up and thats what I’m doing and continue to do and I’m being guided in the process I mean we all are. Remember many are called but few are chosen. We decide to listen WAKE UP
Which field?
The new subconscious field from YouTube. When it popped up my eye instantly caught it and I played it and started to remember the fields I used to use that were helping me. I’m starting to realize a lot of that anger and depression I was feeling is from my subconscious mind. I learned this yesterday while I felt sad which happens often out of nowhere. I was trying to get my energy right and the subconscious field seemed to put a stop to it as the negativity field wasn’t. I also found another field from another channel which is supposed to help heal our electromagnetic field. I’m learning this field helps me as well as it seems I do feel negative emotions of others and I’ll end up thinking it’s mine. I lost my job while trying to manifest. I was surrounded by negativity, I was turning negative, thinking negative/speaking it. I learned that negativity will do nothing but surround you with more negative causing it to get worse and worse (law of attraction). I’m also learning to take accountability for my actions which I hardly did before. All my traumas I blamed on others, I blamed God, blamed everything and everyone but myself lol. The truth is were the reason why things happen (good or bad) whether people realize it or not. People want to yell and cry out to God, to angels, aliens, whatever for help. We struggle we ask please guide us. We need to be descriptive asking something like that could bring you to a world of chaos as they don’t truly know what you want by asking that. People also expect God or something to help them in every possible situation even if they don’t ask. Then they yell why didn’t you help me? It was because of free will they can’t. They can’t help unless we give them the free will to if that makes sense. I’m really starting to wake up. The biggest things I’m working on right now is unconditional love and filling as many as I can with it, universal awareness, and energy healing. I’m trying to radiate as much positive as I can. Right now many are stuck in a universal separation. We need universal awareness and unconditional love that is the key to saving this world from the darkness
I currently listen to nothing but fields on loop all day now and currently don’t even watch tv. I do play video games though but I feel video games is my way out to freedom so I can have more time to help others. I feel like I can make a huge difference as we all can. We are the winning team and we will reach nirvana one day
Edit: sorry I also forgot to add we need to get rid of our ego. That is the first step people should be doing in my opinion. The ego gets in the way of a lot
Thank you for sharing! You’ve provided some valuable key information :)
It seems that not only specific ‘negative emotions’, but also clothes and roles they might ‘dress you up in’ in their minds. I’ve recently started using Projection Shield from PU, there might also be something from Dreamweaver, but wasn’t sure which.
I’ll have to check that field out myself thank you. I send you unconditional love. May you feel your heart open as you read this, may the warmth fill your soul, feel the energetic hug. Stay safe and stay positive especially in these times with what’s soon to come
I downloaded that image if that’s okay? I don’t know what it was but instantly smiled when I saw it. It’s very beautiful. I will definitely keep you all posted along my journey. I’m really determined more than ever to advance my knowledge and skills so I can start spreading awareness and even start helping people energetically/spiritually. I send you love and light. May all who reads this get filled with unconditional love and light. Feel your heart chakra open, feel the warmth in your heart, feel the energetic hug. May you all be blessed
Thank you very much, I think I’m feeling it! :) 