so… the beast im talking about here is the internal one… ive struggled my whole life and come to a some/a lot/less (it varies) degrees of peace… in general im doing ok, but i have struggles that arent overcome
then you come across fields… they help a lot… do the work and they help -but they also feed straight into that side of myself that always wants everything to change, that hates this and hates that… the depressant inside of me wants things to be different, so i listen to fields and then i end up resenting reality when it hasn’t lined up to how i secretly (but now openly) want it to be…
any ideas??