Just dropping by to thank JAAJ for all his efforts and leave a few comments. I’m on a new and pretty challenging project right now, so I don’t have time for the forum yet but maybe in the future.
I already tried the older versions of JAAJ’s stacks. Now I’m on the latest version alongside some other daily fields.
I’m using the Sapien Medicine paid version, except for 1-2 fields I didn’t buy (e.g., Mandelbrot).
I felt the urge to use this stack when the aforementioned project has begun. It’s basically a “job” in my professional field but with a “population” I don’t know much about (except for the theoretical blah blah). Needless to say, so many doubts in my mind, a feeling of incompetence, an impression of stepping inside something I shouldn’t because not skilled enough, etc. But I did not have any other choice, so to speak. So it keeps going :s
I have to collaborate with a person who has hurt me several times throughout the years. I sometimes like to think about myself as someone who’s able to detect BS… but… let’s be realistic and say: No, I still have so much to learn about manipulative behavior.
The thing is, we were doing “pretty fine” with that person for the last couple of years. Until recently where we finally both spat out what was on our chest towards each other.
My usual reaction would have been to flee. Meaning: abandon the project and walk away, considering I’m not even getting paid for this, at least for now. I don’t care either about the “prestige” or “social reward” part of it, to be fully honest.
However, I decided to stay this time. Decided to keep working with that prick (excuse my French) and “appreciate” his professional sides, which are undeniable. Sticking with the bigger picture, so to speak. The “flee strategy” can be salvational sometimes but I felt like this time, I owe a full commitment to some other people involved in this project. And maybe it has something to do with maturity too lol.
So as I keep using JAAJ’s stack, it makes me feel much more at ease with some tasks towards which I was initially reluctant and not so self-confident. Plus, and very veeeeery unexpectedly, Mr. Prick was almost apologetic during our last session. I could see he was kind of trying to apologize or something lol (which is really exceptional for him). He even thanked me for my “good work” loool.
All in all, even if it’s not always the case and even if sometimes one should indeed walk away… There are times during which enough self-love is like a protective balloon that keeps the crap outside. The ultimate armor that can allow you to collaborate with pricks with minimum to no damage.
Also adding that it’s worth using these stacks even for the fun of it, like a weekly game. So once again, thank you JAAJ and also Dreamweaver of course.
. I feel like what people really crave at a deep level is not really sex but deep love and intimacy that is not superficial and I am getting there.
