Nah…that sounds like a masochist who lacks self-love… 
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I realize that is your opinion. Read some of the lives of the saints and see what you think then.
Apologies, JAAJ
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“At the end of day, the only really free will choice that you can make is to whether you develop yourself spiritually or not.”
– Dreamweaver
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About the current timeline shift…
Half of humanity is gonna go through a “coming clean” ascension process.
It is time to look at the mirror and understand one’s own choices.
(Spoilers from the Messiah series)
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Astral Coaches and Astral Rescuers:
How to get their help?
Start helping yourself first and then you will be coached by them.
You are the answer.
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“Objective Reality” versus people’s “Personal Subjective Reality Bubble”
People do pray to their Higher Selves or some Deities in order to manifest XYZ all the time.
While reality, any reality, actually changes when we change ourselves.
Which is another proof that not even this physical reality is in any way „objective“ or „solid“.
External circumstances can change and do change in the most crazy ways, ONCE our internal circumstances have changed.
Physical reality is as solid as drunk people in a club lmao.
In 2025 my lessons to integrate are to take even less things serious and “for real” and proactively distancing myself from any type of stress – by consciously and proactively not giving a fuck.
Emotional detachment is liberation.
But I will keep one emotion in my portfolio:
Fun.
One cannot have fun as long as everything is taken seriously and/or is allowed to exist as a trigger for stress.
The challenge of the soul in the physical universe is to proactively learn being a child at heart, all while being in an environment that is full of stress and where everyone is constantly stressed out.
(Also people should not confuse emotions with feelings.)
"Senti come aumenta il volume della tua tua energia
Senti come sale il bello di questa follia,
Mani che si agitano in aria piene di energia,
Mani che vogliono la musica e la magia"
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„Once you choose a reality, your choices will always be limited within the context of that reality.“
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The Spiritual Lessons of Loneliness
The Angels said that I am not here to find paradise.
Humanity might not even make it in the end.
Wouldn’t be much of a loss I guess.
Human society is a mix of lonely fragmented souls trying to use each other for survival. Instead of really caring for each other and collaborating with each other.
Loneliness is a major learning tool here on physical Earth.
In Group Consciousness societies, loneliness does not exist, which means that in such societies one can only experience solitude but never loneliness.
Here on Earth and with humans, the experience of Loneliness is however fully possible.
It is a harsh negative experience.
But what counts in the end, is what you make out of it.
One major leap forward in mastering this game here, is to start seeing Loneliness as a learning tool and then integrating its lessons.
So what can be learned here?
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Loneliness as a tool that enforces introspection and self-reflection, leading to more self-discovery.
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Loneliness as a tool for realizations around the Illusion of Separation.
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Feeling lonely as a tool to learn more self love and be self-sufficient and self-reliant, especially emotionally. One cannot become a master of reality unless one has mastered all types of emotions, especially those where one seeks fulfillment in the external.
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Loneliness as a tool to motivate you to reach out into the higher realms and strengthen your connection with the divine, higher levels of univeral consciousness and your Higher Self (maybe even the Higher Self of your Higher Self).
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Loneliness as a tool to learn to face your own emotions and just feel them. Allowing that emotional energy to run through your system and feel it.
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Loneliness as a tool for developing compassion for others who are going through the same negative experience.
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Loneliness as a tool to realize that no artificial virtual reality or your own constructed mental worlds, will bring ultimate fulfillment in the long-term and that only interactions with other real Souls who have real Free Will, will do it.
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I miss UT99 and the time I spent honing my semi meager skills in it.
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Similarly, I’m being brought back to a place of play. For myself, I don’t interpret it so much as no fucks given, but rather, it’s all gonna get used… this hit toughens that muscle, that pain connects that part of me back to my core. Resistance makes it suck, needing it to have a reason beyond noticing makes it perpetuate… accepting it’s there and knowing sometimes play gives you scrapes and bruises… there’s been some real Freedom in that.
"There is a smile
A smile upon your face
I wonder why
Why you´re full of grace
There was a time
My feeling was replaced
I wanna hide
Hide in your embrace"
What determines the Depth of a Friendship?
Human psychologist say that it is about “emotional closeness” and “mutual understanding”.
But I think there is much more to it.
There definitely is also a “Soul Vibration” factor and the resulting resonance of this factor.
Soul who are “in phase”.
Soul’s whose growth objectives are “in coherence”.
These souls “growing together” and “going through similar challenges” are just the symptoms of the underlying deeper layer of their respective Higher Selves’ collaborations.
“Vibing Together”
Some friendships are also hidden during physical incarnation.
Those are the cases where both friends play each other’s enemies and abusers so that can both learn certain lessons.
You know, what they call the “karmic stuff”.
Which are in reality just subconscious agreements (!) to work towards specific goals with each other in specific ways.
But “in the end”, friendship with everyone is unavoidable. Lol.
At the highest level of existence, where “all is one”, and “all is love” every soul is inherently connected in perfect harmony.
In this ultimate unity, there are no divisions, no conflicts, and no separations between beings.
This means that, in the purest sense, every soul is friends with every other soul, not in the human sense of friendship, which is based on shared experiences and preferences, but in a deeper, unconditional way.
At this level:
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There is universal love, meaning every soul recognizes and embraces all other souls.
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There is absolute and complete understanding, with no judgment or misunderstandings. 100% aligment and being “in phase” with each other.
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There is oneness beyond duality, so distinctions like “friend”, “stranger” and “enemy” dissolve.
However, in the illusory experience of separation (our human reality), souls forget this unity and experience friendships as selective, conditional, and personal.
The journey of spiritual growth can be seen as remembering this deeper truth—expanding love beyond individual friendships to recognize that, ultimately, we are all connected at the highest level. #Compassion
At the end of the day, ultimate friendship is inevitable.
As usual, because of different growth speed of souls, on their way to ultimate oneness, the soul’s understanding of what “friendship” means massively differs with each other, and thus is the source of conflict.
Souls do not grow all “in phase” with each other and this is the source of all conflict that there is.
If everyone would always grow “in phase” with each other, there would be never any disagreement with regards to “what the next step is”. Everyone would always agree on what the next step is and act as one.
So all of this growth that is based on being “not in phase with others” seems to be there on purpose. I guess, this is the actual main game mechanic that enables conflict and negative experiences in the first place.
Because if everyone would be “in phase” and “all the time”, everyone would always be “maximum friends” with each other and then there would be no conflict and not even the potential for conflict.
Therefore, souls temporarly go “out of phase” with each other to enable conflict.
Being “out of phase” is what creates this potential for conflict in the first place.
So no worries, at the end of the day, everyone will be on the same page.
As Agent Smith in the Matrix Revolutions realizes “that it was always inevitable” – right before he merges back into “the Source”.
So until then, we are gonna play the game the way it was made to be played:
Telling your enemies to fuck off.
And helping your existing friends with the speed run.
Ha ha.
Agent Smith:
"Wait… I’ve seen this.
This is it, this is the end.
Yes, you were laying right there, just like that, and I… I… I stand here, right here, I’m… I’m supposed to say something.
I say…
Everything that has a beginning has an end, Neo.
What?
What did I just say?
No… No, this isn’t right, this can’t be right.
It’s a trick!
Get away from me!"
Neo:
"What are you afraid of?
You were right, Smith.
You were always right.
It was inevitable."
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Excerpt from…
…“A Chronicle from the Fractured Spiral”, page 244
Chapter “Alchemy of the Sacred Fires”:
Explains perfectly why JAAJ is a Lightning Sorceress!
Now I need to connect with my parallel incarnations who are the “Sacred Containment” and the “Tapasya”.
If “Spiritual Acceleration” is the Lightning 
, “Sacred Containment” then must be the Ice 
and “Tapasya” must be the Fire 
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Prepare to accelerate exponentially, to freeze and shatter, to burn, melt and evaporate, then do it all over again, and in the end be happy about it.
#BrutalSpeedrunAlchemy
EPIC stuff!
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Excerpt from “A Chronicle from the Fractured Spiral”, page 245
Chapter “The Path of Luminous Decay”:
This is me 2 years ago…
"Alchemists have generally divided the Great Work into three distinct phases, referred to by their color: the nigredo (black phase), albedo (white phase), and rubedo (red phase).
In earlier times, some also spoke of the citrinitas (yellow phase) that was said to occur between the white and red phases. However, this term is less frequently used by the more contemporary alchemists of today."
Looks like most of my being is currently entering the Citrinitas phase (the yellow phase).
“Citrinitas – The Alchemy of the Sun”
Over the last 10 months, I’ve been drawn to everything “Solar”, “Sun,” “Lion”, “Helios”, "Yellow, “Shining” etc.
Besides that, Corrosion is still a major thing in my life though…
…or maybe it simply goes hand in hand with the beginning of the Citrinitas phase?
In the last 2 weeks Corrosion has reached my deepest fears, character traits and behavioral patterns – all unfit, and even useless and road blocking, for further ascension.
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Rajas –
Sattva –
Tamas –
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