I remained silent for a certain amount of times to do introspection, it was the best choice ever. I own this gem for precisely 15 days.
It changed me completely to a certain level, it forced me to realize how unorganized I was, the changes are obvious, I’m starting to wonder how the f*** was it possible to live with such chaotic habits, as if I was wounding myself literally, was it saddistic ? My life became so “easy”, days seem longer and I can do way more things with less time and energy needed than before.
Since last week I had so much things to do but somehow I was able to confront everything without mental resistance or feeling tired and be really structured about what to do, when, where and how long time can be spend on this specific task. I have so much free time now while doing more things that it becomes awkward to do whatever I want when every planned task of the day is already finished in the middle of the day.
It’s effortless to do things, to juggle between hobbies, video game time and obligations. I can do things without being interupted or if something was interupted I can go back to it with no transition or loss of focus, no noise in the background, it’s a full concentration to do what needs to be done.
One day, I had so much things to do, if it wasn’t for this field, there was so much things to do I would put myself in problems and give up on some tasks, at 100% my previous self would NEVER BE able to do a quarter of what I did this particular day, it genuinely amazed me while in bed listing everything I did and was like “wtf it’s not normal, it wasn’t annoying or tiring at all”.
There is no task paralysis anymore, when something needs to be done from what is the most important to the least imporant, I just get up and do it until everything is done but it still allows me to be flexible. My energy is spent evenly in each sphere of life.