Life is frustrating

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#1

I couldn’t find the venting threat so I thought this would be a decent place for it since it is about life.

Im getting a very big frustration building up since yesterday. Well longer than that but it’s getting bad. I feel as if I can take all my energy and explode. I feel it in my solar plexus. I’m just tired. I’m tired of doing all these experiments on myself for answers im not finding other than bits and pieces. I’m tired of sitting here aiming towards a physical life that I don’t even truly want but I feel it will help me get the answers I’m searching for. I don’t care about none of this physical crap. Honestly don’t even want to be here physically anymore. I’m not depressed or anything like that. I’m frustrated watching everybody around me happy with this life. How? How are people not bored? How are people on these devices watching videos 24/7 or texting and find this life fun? Don’t take this the wrong way but I’m honestly seeing death as the beginning of life. This here is slavery, brainwash, manipulation. I’m sick of it. Deep down inside as long as I’m here I don’t think I’ll ever be fully happy because as long as we’re here we’ll never be full free. This is how I’m seeing this anymore. I’m starting to think this place is a prison. What else would it be? I get it’s all for “experience” but why? It doesn’t make sense to me. It doesn’t make sense how somebody would choose to be homeless their whole life just for experience. There has to be more to this life to this earth than this man. I just can’t accept it no matter how hard I try. I just can’t live like a sequential. I want out now. This is the main reason I try to hit the astral. I either want full power or I want out of this place. If I get full power the people in charge of this better watch out because I’ll be coming to get them off our earth. Its about time we take back what’s ours! This was never theirs they took it from us. They tricked us they spliced us. These are the supposed demons that came to “teach”. Makes me laugh man. I can’t only imagine what people are going to think when this war comes here. Fake rapture and all. So many are just oblivious. I can’t do it anymore. I’m ready for war. I’m starting to think that being i saw that warned me of war was myself. I think about it all the time. Never seen it since. I believe it was my higher self. Or was it just another low being that thought it would be funny to f with me? Because it’s not and if it was he better watch out. I’m done playing. I’m done being nice with these beings. I’m tired of all the brainwash, manipulation, and secrets. I’ve had enough of that with my life. I can go on all day I’m just going to stop it here. Sorry for the b fit I just needed to do it lol. I’m gonna start a journal and when I die I want people to read it

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#2

I can understand what you are going through, you need to ground yourself a little, things are getting overwhelming for you, maybe go out touch grass and spend some time amongst nature, take a saltwater bath and you shall feel better, play repel negative energy on dream seeds.

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#3

I was in the same place you are now not all that long ago. It’s a tough spot, having been there for years.

My advice right now would be to find the gratitude thread and write something to someone.

One of the reasons I’m here is because, as I was told, “they need you.” Why not just, peace out? Because I’m here and so are you, and everyone else.

We can’t control the world, but we can greatly influence it. You know why “nothing ever happens?” Because we have a say. If we didn’t, the realm would be completely terraformed by now, we would be completely boxed in, literally, and all efforts would be futile.

This world is a tough place, it IS a madhouse. We’re all acting out this internal struggle we feel but can’t see, and the general public does this in a generally ugly way.

You say you’re ready for war. Are you sure? Have you been there? Meditate on war. Watch all the ways you will be tortured, maimed, made less. All the triumphs and spoils, too. Feel the extremes. Is it worth it?

Arjuna had to come to terms with killing his family. That’s what war is. All wars are brother wars. This is not “we are all one” propaganda. No Dr. Bronners in my shower kit.

Not much more prattling from me. It seems you’ve been in a tough place for a while, but you have to get through. No time like the present, no day like today, no better time than now, where you are, with what you have.

To more adequately answer, get out of your head.

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#4

Yes I definitely needed to ground. I took a break from fields today other than the grounding and subconscious limits and aura fields. My eye has been twitching all day even. I’m feeling a lot better now. I’m going to play the energy blockage field as well soon to see if that can get rid of the solar plexus feel. I don’t know if it’s supposed to feel this way but I don’t like it. I don’t know how to explain it. Is it possible to build up too much chi? I just know with the energy work I was doing it built up a lot inside. I believe this is why I’m even drained today. Maybe im going about things to wrong? Im trying to build a lot of energy so I can travel and even do things physically eventually. There’s times I’ll mirror gaze and I swear I almost levitate even and when I realize it I almost fall forward lol. I just want to be powerful. I want to hit my maximum here physically. I don’t want to have to die to reach my full potential if this makes sense. I want to astral project and follow my cord back to my higher self and really connect. There’s something blocking me from being able to leave my body. I don’t know what it is. I don’t know if I’m trying too hard or what but this is where a lot of my frustration is coming from. I just want to do the things I want to do. Like for example with incense smoke I want to be able to control it and spin it around and stuff. I want to learn to control the air and use it. I want to be able to make a physical chi ball and blast things back with it. Just using these as examples no I wouldn’t go around doing this for fun. I just see a lot of useful things with this type of stuff and I want to be able to do it here physically and not just in dreams. People look at me like I’m crazy when I say this type of stuff but I truly believe I’m supposed to be able to do this here physically. I just need to tap in but I need to find a way to do this without destroying my mind like its been. People warned me from the jump to stop but I just can’t. I feel so attached to this. I want this more than anything. The messed up thing is I never had such a desire for things in my life until I started working on chakras and stuff. My whole life I always saw myself doing things in dreams that would feel real but I considered them dreams. When I started doing this stuff they get deeper. I’ve even blasted an army back with this energy from my hands. The war felt so real. I felt it all and everything. Then I have this light being come to me in my home in a dream telling me about a war. Honestly as I’m typing this I’m starting to realize I’ve been searching for purpose or something. That dream made me feel like I finally had a “purpose”. It was probably just a being that studied me for a while and came to mess with me. I’ve never seen anything like it. It didn’t have a gender not even a form. It took a form of a person but it was just this white energy. It looked like static. I thought it was my higher self or something for so long. I haven’t seen it since. I would assume my higher self would’ve came back by now

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