With these tools, it doesn’t have to be going like this for a while.
This is the “state” talking and (I say this kindly) it’s talking smack to you. I don’t know you but I can honestly and certainly say that this is an outright lie that your state is trying to get you to believe.
You made your post and you opened your thread. Those are 2 things that you can do in life. You turned on your computer (at some point) and you got onto the Internet and onto this forum. 3 more things. You continue to breathe ← That’s a BIGGIE. That’s something that you can do.
Now, I get it. It’s easy to take a sort of negative score, especially when that’s what you’ve been practicing and when you now have a negative state sort of egging you on.
And here’s the thing. Our brains are “lazy.” Well, not really, but they are wired for homeostasis, meaning they want to keep things stable. And most of the time that really serves us.
But there’s a flip side to that, which is that part of what our brains like to keep stable includes our states. This means it takes deliberate and conscious decision to start doing things differently, so that our brains will catch up. For example, if you’re inclined to sit around and count all of what’s going wrong (and that’s something that’s contributing to your state), then a really helpful thing is to deliberately and consciously decide to do something different, like go for a jog and start counting your blessings. Or laughter yoga.
And I warn you. You’ll have to deliberately stick with your decision because that homeostasis thing is going to want to pull you back into the existing state. Not to punish you but because it’s way easier to continue to do what you’re already doing than it is to start doing new things.
We’ve got lots of fields to help you with that. Point of No Return (the free stacks or the paid field), Depression Be Gone, the various trauma healing fields–you can find these using the forum search engine (that little magnifying glass icon in the upper right corner of every page of this forum).
Sammy has even created an awesome list of stacks for you: Ultimate List of Morphic Field Stacks.
One more thing you CAN do: you can ask your question in a place (here) where help is available for you.