This is a not so secret diary and if it helps anyone (besides me) that’s a bonus - that is also an intention, to help others in whatever way they might find it helpful; it is a monologue, I will use the first person, but who knows, you might seem some “dialogue” like “you got this”, “it was a tough day, but you got this”, me being my own mental support, but every relationship, all relationships gravitate around myself, what I do to myself, sooner or later, I do to others, so I need this, to be(come) my own pillar, anyway, I’m never alone, the Divine is Everywhere, Always, so it’s not my fight, it’s His/Her fight as well…
It truly was a tough day, just when I thought that mom was better, her pain is back, if only I could do more, but I am human after all,…, some things are beyond me, yet I will always fight, no matter the odds…
I’m asking myself if this diary thing is good for me, nevermind for anyone else, what do I get from sharing this? Sympathy? Perhaps; the truth is that I just felt the need to do this, to express this in writing, it’s an outlet, perhaps not the best, but an outlet nonetheless…
Well, it’s not like I’m obliged to do this, I can always delete this.
Time is precious, it’s so precious and it seems to slip so fast… 30 years, 30 years and I have not achieved much, almost nothing, at least not in a material sense, so many things that I still need to do, time is truly not merciful to anyone, it goes so fast, yesterday I was a child, now I’m not, God, can you slow it down a little bit?
The secret to a healthy mind? Detachment for sure! I need to watch something, to relax, to not focus on suffering, but on good things, thoughts, emotions and activities which help me, which are healing my soul, perhaps I need something to laugh, laughter is a medicine, after all; point of no return is the best thing to try everyday, but I’ll leave it for tomorrow, I’m just a few activities/searches aways from sleep; have I received support from afar? It seems so, since my mood is better; there are good people on this forum, and not just a few either.
I think that everyone has a huge potential, it’s better not waste it with sorrows.