That wasnt me thinking it, wasnt any supposed “demon” either because its supposed to banish them, unless I am the demon?
But yes I agree, I was raised a christian and the priests did a magnificent job of twisting the yogi Yeshua’s words into their own organized religion of control.
Idk anymore, ever since wearing the higher self mandala I get these thoughts alot ;
“Be chaotic!”
“Be free!”
“Go out in nature and run with the wolves!”
“What are you a slave?! Etc…”
Maybe its why I feel alien with soul restoration.?
Maybe my soul knows the slave/master fukery going on in this universe and chooses not to be part of it?
Or im a demon incarnate, honestly I wouldnt be surprised.
Im open to every suggestion in existence, someone help me lol
Or your ego is the demon, that’s preventing your higher self from guiding you.
A little anecdote: While driving with my father I had to listen to mainstream radio for the first time in months. When a particular song was playing my “problematic” brain area started to activate. Maybe it was time for another round of Point of No Return.
Playing the Exorcism Rite mentally contained the weird energy there.
But the whole thing stopped when we reached our destination and turned the radio off. Kinda made me think…
Exorcism is part of the overcoming-homeostasis-stack and your ego wants to stay the same, it loves homeostasis.
Let your higher self make the decisions. I hardly plan my days anymore, I’m running with my gut instinct everyday. And it works like magic.
Raise your vibrations by being in nature and escape the programming of society.
My instincts tell me to let my hair grow and avoid most chemical washing products and to banish anything with flouride from my life.
I’m just doing it, never heard my higher self pushing me to do it.
Maybe you were send here to oppose the fuckery and bring it to an end.
Thing is bro, I was always good with magick. Alot of my intentions manifest when I enter john wick-mode.
But its because of that christian upbringing that my ego resists me being a magician/spiritual.
I went to “Demons” to finally break free, and it helped alot, but deep down, I could still hear “they are evil!! pray to god!!” Even though those evil beings told me to abandon lust and take a vow of celibacy for a few months to not get distracted by earthly desires, and they also helped my family members alot aswell trough me asking them ofcourse, my family is christian sadly.
And it doesnt stop there, anything that isnt god and angels is “evil”.
Even the devas ! They are the most awesome beings ever and I absolutely adore them and love their presence but ego still bein a bitch.
I think thats why my higher self tells me to be free and wild, it told me this when I asked something private and it said “possible”, then I asked what about the law?
“Hahaha! Every law in existence is self-imposed, idiot, there is no law unless you allow there to be one, from my perspective, there are no laws, I only see a broken game that was poorly designed”
Dude same here ! Im also letting it grow out, along with a beard ;D
Maybe man, I am always ready to fight, especially for Gaia.
Wasn’t meant to sound all that serious, more tongue in cheek. Again referring to homeostasis and resistance to change.
Really sound like your ego is partially stuck in your christian family values. Again see the Exorcism Rite more as a tool for overcoming this homeostasis.
It’s a good ego management exercise to not get annoyed or triggered by the christian theme of the field. This will make you a better magician.
If your ego still makes you uncomfortable around devas, it is still massively filtering your communication with the higher self. You could be hearing, what you want to hear.
Did you ask it in a lucid dream? Otherwise I would take it with a pinch of salt, until you get your ego under control.
See the ego as that what your family, society programmed you to be. To be your true self, you must overcome it.
Lol no, Its just that I have always been a more “live in my own fantasy world” type a person.
I dont feel uncomfortable with devas, its just that I can kind of “sense” the christian subconscious patterns.
IPF field kinda built the bridge.
I know all about the ego and homeostasis bro, trust me I know how it all works.
Communicating with entities is also a natural trait I had, although it became alot stronger after the IPF field.
Anyway, i’ll be fine. Soul restoration made me burst out in tears, so the emotional post might have come off as bitchlike and as OM said, “victim”, but Im a warrior, I never cry unless its spiritual rage cry lol. Im good, but check this out ;
So, I always had the feeling that there was some kind of “heaven” on earth, like a “eden” if you will.
I always thought it was because of the christian programming hoping there to be a eden.
But no, as I always observed peoples lifestyle, especially this modern shithole, deep down I always thought ; “this isnt how its suppose to be you idiots!!”
After a few more loops of soul restoration, I suddenly hear “Lemuria”.
I had no previous knowledge of Lemuria or anything like that, nor was I interested at all in such places.
So I look it up, and guess what, it was heaven on earth
Maybe had a past life there and know on a soul-level that we werent meant to live like this?
Lol no. Not gonna answer cuz its gonna be a book but no, big no here.
Mike is cute but he is overrated, alot of things he doesnt even know, he has “elders” too
I know. As I said, I know how we work. Its either my higher self or my guardian cuz it doesnt talk unless I wear the mandala and if I even think of taking off the mandala I get ;“dont even think of taking that off”.
Christ isnt real. Its an egregore, a very smart magickal system but its weak.
Yeshua was a yogi, a sorcerer and a rebel. Evoking him is pretty easy, he seems to answer those who are serious about the path of the yogi/sorcerer.
Thanks but I dont read books. Other peoples subjective experiences and their cute “science” doesnt impress me, especially since most modern “spiritual teachers” think the mental realm is the spirit world, fkin lol…
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Still way too early actually to write an “accurate” review… but on the other hand, I feel like some of the current effects are likely to last for a while, so…
Social aspects:
Some autobiographical info to set up the context a little bit. I hope I’ll manage not to write “like a foot”, as our French friends say (online English improvement test lol):
I’ve never been a social butterfly but I’m not a sociophobic or misanthrope either. I don’t feel any discomfort about making speeches/seminars in front of crowdy audiences (even in English sometimes lol), enjoy various kinds of gatherings with friends or strangers, always prioritize face to face contact instead of virtual etc. even if I more than slightly prefer the Tarot’s Hermit mode or watching (not spying lol) people from a certain distance. I cherish my solitude and boundaries, etc. etc.
There are also the downsides of my work which is based on helping people about quite deep personal issues. Wearing my Labradorite (the therapists stone lol), Rudraksha, tags and other self-protective stuff is not always enough, so I really have this urge to often isolate myself and repair the drainage. Obviously, many other forum members feel the same way.
The pandemic has also added its grain of pepper to all this, as you can easily imagine…
I mean this year, I ended up avoiding almost any human contact (I know we all had/have to do so to a certain extent, but I’m talking about any other kind of contact), changing my direction if I saw any acquaintance on the street, not answering most of the phone calls… and other things like that, you know. No more contact, except the professional duties.
To bring it back to the Soul/Core, this field has kind of cooled down (and quite quickly) those excessive avoidance tendencies: for example the other day, I was planning to slide directly back to my place, once again in a cloaked mode lol but then I saw the owner of this hookah bar in my neighborhood, standing at the door of his store and staring at me. “Something” (!) made me stop and I approached the guy to greet him and chat for a little while. He seemed to really need that btw. And many other things like that happened afterwards, you see what I mean.
Sounds almost ridiculous but considering my recent mindset, these are huge shifts lol. It doesn’t mean btw that living an isolated life is wrong per se; it’s just that in my case, this was obviously creating an inner disturbance at that precise time of my existence. A kind of need to connect again with people (even my membership in this forum is somewhat related to the same purpose), despite the denial.
What else?.. I didn’t have the occasion to test it yet with difficult relationships but I already feel that the field will help about those as well (I even recently had some “premonitory” - I hope - dreams about that).
Physical aspects:
Nothing much to say about that. I think that I accepted my body mostly just like it is, since a very long time already. Not having any big problem about “wearing” it or being fully present in it (spent years immersed in body-mind techniques and I think that’s been rewarding). I’m also lucky to be in a quite good general health condition, etc. so the physical Sapien fields that I use are mostly for maintenance or emergency purposes (Eye Regeneration aside).
In sum, I didn’t notice any change about my body or to be more exact, about the way I connect to it… but maybe there is, though, who knows. Time will tell.
Energetic aspects:
Many things to say about that part… but without words lol. Let’s try a little, though.
I already reported some aspects above in this thread. I still have the “pump up the volume” sensation at different times of the day and I wonder sometimes (but not that much) if it’s noticeable from the outside and making me look like a weirdo lol. Otherwise, it’s mostly an experience of unfolded, expanded, cleared and more “solid” energy, briefly said.
I’m a naturally distant-, cold- and arrogant-looking person (this description is based on most people’s feedback btw… both lol and sigh, depends on the situation) or for example, I always do my best to get out of any place which gives me discomfort (this may seem rude and disrespectful in some contexts, I know, but that’s the way it is ), so I don’t easily suffer from superficial vampiritudes (even if I’m also vulnerable, some other times) but since I’m with this field + the Shielding tag + sleeping with Mjolnir mandala on my wall, I feel more protected. On a deeper level.
Like one night, while I was listening to Soul/Core in bed and opened my eyes for a moment, I saw there was a kind of floating branch or arm (?) trying to reach me. I suspected this fellow to be a not-so-friendly entity or what (maybe it was just some hypnopompic stuff) but I was in a soooo confident mood that I said: “No dude, not now, come back later. I’m in the middle of something important out here!” lol. And indeed, the “thing” exited from the window straight away. I hope that “it” didn’t get much offended…
Another shift: Loki , “my” cat (or my owner lol), who is a Sapien fan and a cool little guy but not the kind to stay on your lap for more than 2 minutes chrono, has become way more affectionate since I’ve bought the Soul/Core. Maybe because he enjoys my “new” state of energy but this shift can be related to many other factors as well, of course. The Animal empathy field gives me strong headaches, so I didn’t give it a real try until now, but I know that it would definitely help (and this article suggested by uial: http://www.articlesfactory.com/articles/metaphysical/talk-to-the-animals.html)
Also, I still combine Soul/Core with Ancient Arts/Internal Alchemy v1 (ah… that v1 with Sappheiros ) and the Tree Experience (for the grounding and “containing” aspects). Works well for me.
(S/C and AA/IA with moderation, TE as much as I want).
… and also with Vibration of Creation. This is a totally different chapter that I will probably never report in this forum (except the introductory review that I already wrote), since it addresses my “less orthodox” sides. I can just say that for me, S/C has been the fuel of the VoC spaceship. As more or less expected.
Last words about S/C:
The ultimate essence of the field is here:
I believe that I found the main tool to achieve these. I’ll be complementing with the 2 other resto fields, but later.
Since it’s a lifelong-and-beyond process, I’ll come back and update in a few years or centuries lol.
Forever grateful to Dreamweaver (and to all those who helped by sharing their experiences).
I feel the same I want to go home and that’s why I fill this void with sapiens videos to kill the time lol I have no friends I don’t relate to anyone around me and it’s just hard feeling different from every one sometimes I completely understand where your coming from
You’re either part of the herd with the piece of shit shepherd, or you’re a wolf that runs free.
The eagle is also a good choice
Fk the pack, fk the tribe, one man army is the way to go for people like us.
What is funny though is that once you accept this 100% and love yourself to the point you even enjoy being alone, all of a sudden everyones gonna beg you for attention and want it.
Most have friends, lovers, family, money, its nothing special. Fake distractions to keep you satisfied.
A hungry dog is more dangerous than a satisfied lion.
@Samurai I may not have much to chime in but I have seen you say you long to go back to where your from or what not and even tho I may not have anything of extreme value for you like some others do perhaps an energy system like this may be of use?
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), so I don’t easily suffer from superficial vampiritudes (even if I’m also vulnerable, some other times) but since I’m with this field + the Shielding tag + sleeping with Mjolnir mandala on my wall, I feel more protected. On a deeper level.
I hope that “it” didn’t get much offended…
, “my” cat (or my owner lol), who is a Sapien fan and a cool little guy but not the kind to stay on your lap for more than 2 minutes chrono, has become way more affectionate since I’ve bought the Soul/Core. Maybe because he enjoys my “new” state of energy but this shift can be related to many other factors as well, of course. The Animal empathy field gives me strong headaches, so I didn’t give it a real try until now, but I know that it would definitely help (and this article suggested by uial: 
) and the Tree Experience (for the grounding and “containing” aspects). Works well for me.
(and to all those who helped by sharing their experiences).