ive been trying to understand a difference that ive noticed between this and other meditations and also Plasma Flower but i wasnt picking up what it was.
until i was talking with my sisters about my Mom being disappointed at something in regards Us her daughters, and at the same time, a friend of Us Dad is at the hospital after having a heart attack (which is how our Dad died) so i stepped out of our chat and was like ugh ok i dont need these feelings right now while at work.
whenever i feel like something harsh is going on outside of my happy inner little word i go and listen to uplifting fields or grounding fields.
and i usually take my time to pick which ones i want to use.
but this time i said to my sisters … ok ill talk to you later im out and i immediately went to play this one, without thinking and as it started playing i looked at the background pic and it hit me.
i wanted to be that person away from the world sitting under the Tree, letting the light reach me in total quietness… a peaceful freedom.
but my association or the difference i was trying to understand is that this meditation gives me that feeling of freedom to center myself again i wish i had when i was growing up but of course i could not because as a child you cant just go out into the forest looking to relax haha
and the fact that both feelings i was not liking had to do with Parents or grown ups bridged that connection to me. i felt sooo free and i was giggling like if i had just found my secret escaping place to be me and hide at when the word becomes too much to bare.
but not me the grown up.
my inner child’s escape place. it felt beautiful after, it empowered my inner child and nurtured it, and then I was ready for the world again.
so much recurrent guilt and demands our inner child keeps getting from the world we dont even realize it, and we assume there is something we must change or fix, when most of the time theres nothing really we have to fix because it wasnt us grown ups, we cannot keep letting the unhealed wounds of others punish us for what they could not deal with when we were small.
so for anyone out there that felt forced to swallow the stress inflicted to your inner child because you could not be alone to deal with it…
try this beautiful meditation here
my inner child and teen certainly is grateful for it