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I don’t know if I should write anything. And, if I do write something, I don’t know if it will have longevity or drop off into oblivion…

So, the title for this is “Notes”. I halfways considered calling it “The Screaming Abyss”, in an invocation of the off-the-wall style of ideas that appear in the McKenna’s works:

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I decided against that name since I tend to categorically have low-to-no tolerance for the darker side of things. But I will likely post things that are from a wide spectrum of weirdness, so there is still some resonance with the idea.

Ever since 2016 onward, it’s seemed like the world has been on a wrong track. I don’t ascribe any political happenings to that, it’s just the sense that I’ve had from over-using computers and being well aware of the changes that have happened in the internet.

In my own mind, I get tend to go back to the hype about 2012 and the Mayan Calendar having a cycle that would be brought to an end. People were saying that it was a choicepoint and we would either continue on a given path or potentially choose something better. It seems like the “better” hasn’t arrived yet.

To kick things off, since I’m still missing that time period (now that it’s more than 12 years past), I think my next post will be a sort of spam collage of a bunch of things on youtube from that era.

There were a lot of interesting resources that had been percolating from the 60’s onward that found an outlet on youtube at that time. There were also a lot of people who were stepping forward onto the new internet communications media since they had just recently emerged in 2005 and were still acquiring an expanded user base.

That was a unique timeframe because it was right at the emergence of multimedia internet communications. Many of the people who had stepped up to use it had decades of experience from before it was functional, so it seemed like the ideas and productions were a lot more polished. These days, there are a lot of names and faces that have stepped up as “influencers” but very few seem to have worked things out for years on their own prior to stepping into these roles. It seems that a lot of quality has vanished and been replaced by an empty grift scheme.

Not to say that everything from back in the day was high quality lol. Quite a bit was questionable.

Anyways… on to a barrage of spam that will placate my nostalgia

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I could probably have an unending list of things…

*Note, posting a link is not an endorsement of any particular messages. I’ve seen enough materials over the years that I have picked up and dropped a bunch of different viewpoints and see merits and flaws in all of them now.

It was nice to revisit them, though. The current algorithm tends to select for things that are new and for things that match established belief ecosystems. So seeing everything in one place again was a fun exercise

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I remember back in the day, I was still in high school and looking into self improvement things. Athletics and bodybuilding websites to learn about exercises and physiology, and then moving on into more research into eastern philosophy, martial arts, and also brain enhancement.

I think a research into Serotonin led me to Drew Hempel and the Full Lotus Qigong.
https://web.archive.org/web/20120214041325/https://fulllotusqigong.blogspot.com/

He’s been a useful counterpoint to read over the years, and I remain indebted to him for introducing me to Taoist Yoga. I tended to be a bit less zany in my approach to training, having it look more like western monasticism + the Lotus rather than the non-western counterparts. But he’s always had interesting insights.

I think at the same sort of timeframe, I found the “Warrior’s Guide to the Blackboard Jungle” – Also known as “Project Cyborg”. I don’t really like the cyborg idea at all, but it was a very well done resource for different life hacks. I am surprised it’s still up:

The 2012 timeframe was memorable. Drew was posting about spending time with Qigong Master Jim Nance, and he was talking about how it would be good to approach spiritual training as though it were the Olympics.

I had a very supportive Martial Arts teacher at that time and he also gave encouragement saying that the sky was the limit with what we could achieve in training. Those were nice times.

It’s been a nice experience to see that some of the same high goals and aspirations had shown up here in the different field projects that have been made.

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I think I’m finding some of the purpose behind writing this.

So many things have broken over the years. And a lot of good things have become dead or been lost.

But, especially with what has been preserved (in the artifacts of life and the archives of the internet), there is a better prospect for the future that can come from taking the best of what has been in the past.

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It’s been interesting to review the older videos.

There’s a lot that has changed, in terms of the content as well as the delivery.

Just looking back into the decade of the 2000’s, the early 2000’s still had fairly slow internet. As a result, people were generally not camped out by computers. They would use it to get a piece of information and then take that info and use it somewhere else. A lot of the older websites even had a “print page” option, so that the contents of webpages could be accessed offline.

That’s another interesting cultural anecdote. There was a higher barrier of entry to the older internet. Either people had to be tech savvy enough to do the basic scripting to make a webpage, or they had to have polished enough ideas that they were willing to outsource that task to someone else. We don’t really see that exact sort of thing any more.

So many developments have been made with the types of interfaces that technology has as well. First was the “race to the bottom of the brain stem” by creating website interfaces that were responsive and promoting of addictive behaviors. And then there was the miniaturizing of computing technologies so that people could take them everywhere in the form of a phone.

It’s a bit funny and a bit frightening to see how things have changed. Some of the above videos were actual professional productions, but they used relatively simple “stock” options for things like video editing and powerpoints. Nowadays, a lot of things have been dressed up with more complex software packages and their expanded capabilities.

That’s something worth keeping in mind, though. Even when I access older videos in a modern youtube interface, I still am impacted by the developments of youtube as a platform. The way that the interface as changed so as to press more forcefully onto the user’s consciousness and try to steer responses. In the early days, it was just a video hosting platform and slow internet speeds meant that you really had to have an interest in the content to sit through the slow load speeds and buffering screens lol.

The modern setup isn’t as much focused on content as it is focused on eliciting user engagement. And far less of the content is about giving people information or tools to go back into life and accomplish more than they were able to beforehand. Instead, it is a weird dynamic where people just use the technology more and more and it tends to co-opt other activities (either by replacing them wholesale, or placing itself within those activities as a part of them).

This seems to be a big and domineering problem. Technologies are supposed to be tools that are picked up for specific activities and then set down when those activities have ceased. That’s a problematic shift in the Overton Window.

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Seeing (or,rather, hearing) Bill Cooper again was interesting as well.

I’ve been a longtime fan of conspiracy media. Even back in the 2000’s, when Alex Jones was still a newcomer, there was controversy among the conspiracists. There was debate about who was a shill or who was just mistaken. Jones appeared to be a less polished shock jockey, whereas Cooper actually had military experience and more direct connections to the things he theorized about.

I think Bill Cooper was probably one of the few who was genuine. Behold a Pale Horse was a classic gem. And most of the current editions of it are censored because one of the chapters (Cooper didn’t write it, it was a copy of an older document) was regarded as antisemitic. And, sadly, he met an untimely death at the hands of local police. —That sort of story was very sketchy, though. It was mentioned that he was running away from the police and towards his house/weapons when they decided to shoot him. That was in 2001, but he was missing his left leg since he left the Navy many years earlier and was likely not capable of running.

But, since then, we’ve really only had Alex Jones as a loud voice in the field. It’s weird to see the contrast. Back in the 2000’s, he was vocally against the fascist tendencies of government and was speaking out against both Republicans (and the abuses of the Bush Administration in the name of national security) as well as Democrats (such as Obama and the expansion of government programs).

There was a lot more intellectual content back in the day, a lot more formal reports that were being cited and a wider range of expert witnesses that were being consulted. These days, the pool of references appears to have shrunken by a lot. And there have been a series of fallouts with different journalists for purely political reasons. David Knight got the boot a number of years ago. Greg Reese seems to have fallen off the current platform since Trump entered office. David Icke has been slandered a bit for calling out the obvious double standard that exists around Trump. And there was an influx of different right wing grifters after Trump secured the presidency as well.

I never fully invest into a belief system if I don’t have a direct link to the evidence for it, so I have always been reserved about conspiracy theories. But I have also been continuously engaged with them since I think they give a valuable shift in perspective when contrasted with the mainstream. Alex Jones has probably always been questionable, but very entertaining. And the older work seemed to have a lot more substance than the newer work. But it is very sad and bizarre to see what his platform has turned into.

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Seeing Robert Anton Wilson [RAW[ again was a trip too lol.

He was very influential on me back in the day, but I’ve since removed myself from a lot of what he’s said.

His work had an immediate appeal because it conferred a lot of rhetorical advantage in discussions. Since most of what he wrote had a sort of meta-cognitive, meta-phenomenological slant, it was a higher order than a lot of people were thinking on. And, for that reason, it made it way easier to talk around people and avoid incurring the pain of being flat wrong on any specific issues that were being discussed.

But, over time, I moved away from his take on things and his use of Korzybski. There were a lot of interesting things that I had discovered when reading older books and textbooks from the late 1800’s through 1950.

So, a lot of the ideas that marked RAW and Korzybski as maverick outsiders have actually become commonplace and mainstream over the years. But, looking back, there were a handful of unspoken revolutions in thought that are related to the points that Korzybski (and later, RAW) were advocating.

The revolutions occurred in Logic, Geometry, Mechanics, and also Linguistics. It was an interesting thing to read. In the 1800’s, there was a strongly psychological cast to logic and linguistics.
-Logic was not a branch of mathematics nor was it a science of truth per se. Logic was the “science of thought” or, more specifically, true thought. Linguistics was regarded as an art of expressing ideas. And these features are reflected in the older textbooks. In recent years, both fields have largely been absorbed into mathematics. Korzybski was addressing this situation using Null-A, non-aristotelian logic rather than bringing it back to the direct-experience psychology of the earlier writers.
-Mechanics, as a science, was tied to experiment. And so, most of the discussions were around crafting experiments and making meaningful inferences from the results. And so, there was a strong emphasis on having the entities in the theories matching the objects in an experiment. Spacetime is not an observable object, and thousands of physicists protested against Einstein because spacetime was treated as an actual object even though it was a mathematical coordinate system.
-Geometry, as a dovetail to the developments in mechanics, sparked the discussion around Euclidean and Non-Euclidean geometries. The takeaway idea was that, since we can convert constructs from one system into constructs of another system, one system should be no better than the others. But the constructs from non-euclidean geometries are simply surfaces in a euclidean space. And so, treating the axiomatic formulations as being on equal footing ignores the fact that the euclidean axioms match the natural sense of space whereas the non-euclidean axioms end up re-defining “space” in terms of a limited surface. —These sorts of discussions were classed as the disputes against meta-geometry.

There’s a lot of depth in these various discussions. And I am very sympathetic to the positions that have been pushed into the margins of history.

What bothers me the most is that Korzybski and RAW’s take tends to get people stuck in psychology. It’s a bit funny to now, looking back, to see RAW and Korzybski as big names in the spiritual communities. It’s funny to me because even though their ideas helped to break a lot of people out of stuck thought processes (myself included), they also obscure basic facts of reality.

One of the basic facts of reality is the existence of the energetic medium that exists and connects all things. In some ways, RAW acknowledges it. But, at the same time, the way that he acknowledges it sits in contrast to the theories that he cites and uses.

Going back to the specific revolutions in Logic and Linguistics --if we look at the earlier sources-- people like Sigwart were giving a very in-depth account of the actual material of the mind and how awareness can be used to navigate concepts that exist. His textbooks on logic basically dealt with thoughtforms and the psychical faculty that were used to manipulate them. But he basically is lost to history.

And if we look back at Mechanics, the different Aether theories of gravity and electricity actually hint at the existence (and reality) of a qi/prana -like substance. Although philosophical discussions around relativity and quantum mechanics are lauded as shedding light on the importance of awareness/consciousness, these discussions have greatly obscured the dynamic nature of reality and the layers of energetic and organic material that compose things.

So, it’s interesting to view. all of this. It’s a bit like the left and right split in American politics. Both have some points that are valid, both go off the deep end and can create mental patterns that cause people to lose touch with reality. And both also have complementary things that they focus on that are able to contribute to a more comprehensive view of things.

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Oof…

Just catching my morning fix of conspiracy things.

It’s insane how the words manipulate the minds of people.

I like to pick at RAW’s ideas, but he was definitely over the target with regards to the type of ideas that most people would benefit from.

It’s mind boggling to me to see people rallying around Trump. I support a number of his policies, but the overarching character of his administration is abusive and authoritarian. And there has been a distinct shifting in words that people seem to continually give a pass to.

The discussion has been on “leadership” and that it is “dangerous” to have agencies acting apart from executive “leadership”.

But that basically means that our “leaders” are the ones who are in charge of everything.

–Not so.

Article 1, Section 1 of the constitution establishes

“All legislative Powers herein granted shall be vested in a Congress of the United States, which shall consist of a Senate and House of Representatives”

Article 2, Section 1 defines the scope of presidential power and Section 3 state the particulars of it:
“The executive Power shall be vested in a President of the United States of America.”

“He shall from time to time give to the Congress Information of the State of the Union, and recommend to their Consideration such Measures as he shall judge necessary and expedient; he may, on extraordinary Occasions, convene both Houses, or either of them, and in Case of Disagreement between them, with Respect to the Time of Adjournment, he may adjourn them to such Time as he shall think proper; he shall receive Ambassadors and other public Ministers; he shall take Care that the Laws be faithfully executed, and shall Commission all the Officers of the United States.”

Although I think the Left Wing and Right Wing belong to the same bird, it looks like the Right Wing has dangerously lost the plot these days.

Article 1 is the most important because we are a nation governed by laws and not the will of tyrants. The congress is the supreme authority because it is composed of representatives that are meant to match more completely the will and character of the people who are governed. Deliberation within congress is what establishes the law of the land, and the President can only steer with suggestion.

When presidents had involvements with global conflict, it was always a tragedy --not just because war always sucks but because they didn’t go through congress (and thus dragged the whole nation along with their actions). Back in the day, there was outrage when Bush got involved in the Middle East without a formal declaration of war and brought in abusive legislation like the Patriot Act.

I feel like I am in the Twilight Zone with the Right Wing having fully forsaken the Constitution without even making a basic (and genuinely common sense) protest.

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Loneliness is an interesting subject.

I don’t know that I feel loneliness, per se.

It may be a bit strange to jump to the writings of Ted Kaczynski, but he seemed to have understood it quite well. Just living life and being connected to the world is enough to have a sense of community. --It might happen with a big group of friends, or perhaps more readily for (some people) in the wilderness, but it can happen anywhere with the right awareness.

Looking back, it seems like many of the communities that were rife with activity have since come to a state of disrepair and dissolution. Even taking stock of the resources that I had collected, many of the original authors are either dead or have fallen from prominence. It doesn’t seem like much has replaced or improved upon the things that I knew in the past.

And apart from the generalities, the specific matters of spiritual training are even more stark. Even schools and teachers that are connected to genuine lineages are not teaching people the important information these days.

It seems like the Thomasine sayings gospel may have had it right. “(56) Jesus said: He who has known the world has found a corpse;”.

Loneliness may be an issue for some. But, for me, it seems like the alienation— by virtue of having values that are share by few others—may be a bigger issue. Knowing no one else on the path to compare notes with, having no one interested in having the same sorts of conversations or exploring the same subjects…

I get to type into oblivion here— as revival and variation on my sacrosanct practice of talking to myself in an empty room—because I don’t know anybody who would care to discuss these things in real life lol

Anyways, it’s time to chart a better future.

I don’t know exactly how to plan things, especially with the unsettled state of the world these days. And my own life had been in disrepair for years. Even before I graduated high school, most of my days were split between school, work, and personal research. That continued with most of my days being 16-20 hour days for the decade-and-a-half from there to today.

Work was a job; continued advancement at work was a job; school was a job; keeping a spiritual regimen with meditation and energy work was a job; keeping the research going so that I could actually figure out how the alchemy needs to proceed was a job… there was a lot of work. But at least I have answers and progress at this point.

I do hope to recreate some of the morphic and energetic qualities from the good side of 2012, though. A sense of openness and optimism in the energy of a disposition, a focus more on my own bubble of reality rather than being on the look out in all directions all the time.

A more heart centered approach to things, from when I had spent time learning the Heart Math materials and the Metta meditations from Buddhism.

A more grounded in-the-body approach to things. It’s been quite a few years since I’ve practiced martial arts, and unfortunately the mind-body integration shifts a lot when most of life’s activities become abstract.

And most importantly, bringing awareness back to the present. There are always a bunch of things that get discussed by the likes of Alan Watts, or Robert Anton Wilson, or other Gurus. But one quality that frequently gets lost amidst the words is the fullness of the present moment. “Eternity within a moment”, in some parlance.

Those are all things worth getting back to.

One of the things that I recall, from back in the day, was that there was a living sense of community with all of those things. It may have been mostly in my head, from being connected to the lectures, yoga videos, martial arts classes, blogs and so forth. --But the sense that this stuff may be relevant to other people is something that helps to keep me stable, even if nobody actually cares and I’m effectively in my own private world.

The somewhat naive sense that just keeping all this stuff alive in my mind and energy might create a situation where I’m poised to introduce someone else to these ideas and things —and that they could benefit from it— that’s a helpful quality to maintain, even if nothing comes from it.

I’ll just need to find a way to choose what is best, ground it, and reinforce the worthwhile patterns in energy.

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They’re a bit over the top with their titles–but Yay, somebody caught the stream of thought:

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I’ll step away from posting political things. Most people hate that stuff lol

Although that designation has always vexed me. “Politics”, when used as a derogatory term, has usually been applied to ideology and opinions about whether an abstract policy is good or bad. —I agree that it’s usually not a great thing to discuss, as differences tend to lead to debate and disagreement.

But, even so, I don’t usually go at things from ideology. When it gets to the point that it seems worth mentioning, it is because we’ve moved beyond ideology and are dealing with a real world action that is having a tangible effect. Although I suppose this piece is still slightly abstract as it pertains to law and basic civics. It is more of a current event than a matter of “politics”, though.

Anyways…

There is something that is very evergreen with the reminiscence of 2012 and the whole Mayan Calendar thing. The calendar itself might be a bit passé, but a lot of the discussions at that time had moved beyond the particulars of that calendar system and had begun to delve into the concept of time itself.

It is a subject that will always be relevant, at least for as long as a person is alive. It’s a factor related to the span of life itself.

And there are a bunch of different angles that the subject gets addressed from. Terence McKenna, in his 3000 book library, actually had quite a few books on the subject. Some related to fairly mundane things like calendrical systems, others related to the psychology surrounding things like the scheduling of events.

One of the slippery pieces of the discussions about time is that it is almost never given a precise definition. Some choose to cast it in terms of an interval; cycles and repetitions. Others consider it as a transcendental condition that makes change possible. Others might regard it purely as a psychological phenomenon, or one that can be manipulated by will. And still, others may regard it as the only absolute; the fundamental creator and destroyer whom none can escape.

I guess I don’t feel like going too deep with it today. But I am reminiscing about some of the book titles and subjects that I’ve bumped into in the past.

One of the great benefits of becoming more energy sensitive is that the discussions about time do not need to stay abstract or mired in strict definitions and relations. The sort of process of becoming, or concrescence is actually the process of the solidification of finer forms into denser matter. The whole “formation” that occurs as ideas emanate through the tree of life.

I had made a passing reference to it in the past:

It jumped to mind recently because I was around sick relatives and I could feel the energetic form of a disease imprinting on me. I’m cautious with replacing mainstream ideas entirely with terrain theory, but it definitely has a point that most of the causal elements of disease are weaknesses in the terrain and are, in some degree, bio-electromagnetic.

You can get to the point of feeling disease patterns in the higher levels of formation and then the can be proactively intercepted before they settle in. I’m quite grateful for the smart slayer, as it helps a lot in that process.

But doing a quick run-through of iconic books from the 2012 era, they all give a loose insight into the dimensions of formation and how we can experience them.

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David WIlcock had a wide ranging discussion about perceptual abilities and psychic connections. Sheldrake covered some of the same material but had a more scholarly approach linking to the history of science and philosophy as well as more recent experiments on the distributed field effects. Terence McKenna had the famous TImewave zero, which would seem to be a way of attempting to quantify the variety that exists in the realm of reality and morphogenetic fields. He built heavily on Alfred Whitehead’s Process and Reality and the sort of knife’s edge description of formation that has a lot in common with Kaballah. Gregg Braden had two significant works on the fractality of reality and the formative layers, as well as the “Divine Matrix” that is responsive to a person’s mind and psychical abilities.

Way back in the day, I didn’t quite catch all the interconnections, since I was being hit by one work after the other and still hadn’t developed to the point of perceiving things with any depth or clarity. But, looking back, they were all reaching into the same general field. They just focused on different aspects of it, interrogated it according to their own processes, and expressed the results in a way that was personal and unique.

So, even though it seems a bit silly to keep looking back, there are some things that have genuine depth from that timeframe. Enough depth, that most of us won’t see the full scope of it until we meet this life’s end. It has resonance, and I enjoy returning to it. —As is to be expected since time itself is cyclical and it is always defined by the return to ourSelves lol.

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Eclipse Season :full_moon_with_face: :new_moon_with_face:

Feeling the sense of endings and new beginnings… Do I stay or do I go?

Am I annoying people by having at least one post in this thread each day? I don’t know lol

It’s been an interesting thing, and a revelatory thing—the astrology and world circumstances. I’ve had better awareness of different factors influencing my mind. Small senses of things, whether it be something like pressure, or a draw in a particular direction, or the sense of tension linking my mind to other things.

I never quite knew what to make of it, or if it was just a carryover from different physical stressors.

But whatever it’s from or why-ever it’s been there, it’s been something that cleared my own mind about the mixed feelings that I’ve had about this place.

My own background has been rather traditional. I was brought up with the idea that the occult is bad, and shouldn’t be involved with it. That didn’t necessarily keep me away, but I gravitated towards things that matched my natural ethos. It had been mostly the mystical side of things that emphasized alignment over self-will.

It’s like the idea of, if you need to force something in order to make it happen then you are being too obtrusive and it probably shouldn’t happen. — Not to abandon all sense of goals or personal responsibility. But, instead, to have such respect for existing orders and structures that the actions will always be smaller in magnitude and not too forceful. Small movements to find where the greatest leverage is so goals can be attained with the least disruption and the greatest harmony.

So, that’s not a judgment. That’s a recognition of my own mind and patterns.

When met with differences like that, it’s easy for me to be avoidant. I was halfways committed to packing it in right now lol. But I’ve gained an interesting awareness of the different energies in mind. The way that things just outside of obvious perception can pull the strings of the decision making process.

Should I stay or should I go? I don’t know, but I guess I’m still here.

Because I choose to lol

and with greater appreciation for the types of lessons that can be learned.

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I should probably be more cautious with what I say around this eclipse.

It’s an eclipse in Virgo and Mercury is doing interesting things.

Rising, Sun, Moon, Venus, Mars, Jupiter…
For me, they’re all either Gemini or Virgo, all ruled by Mercury…

Within the personal planets, the only fixed sign I have is Mercury in Leo, lighting up all my other Mercury…

This stuff in the sky has me vibing out of my skull these days lol.

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i have always enjoyed your posts. even if sometimes i cringe inside haha

i also think that in this journey category people is understanding that this is actually what it is for.

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Haha, Thank you.

The cringe is real. I can be a real enfant terrible in the name of honesty and openness.

I’ll have to see and assess things. I’m still getting the feeling that before this month is over, I’ll be stepping away without looking back. I’m probably digging my own grave by writing this.

It’s a lot of different realizations that lead me to this.

I’ve probably learned more in the 5-ish concentrated years that I’ve spent here than I have anywhere else. And I have have immense love, appreciation, and gratitude for that.

But there’s been a distinct difference and discomfort around driving forces here. If pushed into a corner, people will double down. Some may cite “do as thou wilt is the whole of the law”, or the sentiment that they’re in charge of their own life and don’t want anyone to press them in any way. --If life gives you a bad situation, then the apparent best response is to double down and break or bypass whoever is trying to break you. If hate is thrown your way, then turn it into a fuel for productivity. --If the matrix is pressing in on you, then assert yourself and fight back.

Those can be heroic things and they are things I definitely respect. But that shouldn’t be a repeating pattern in life. It’s like a freak accident that will come along every now and then because the universe has unending possibilities and then you will need to respond to it. But if it’s happening on a repeating basis, then there’s something strange in the core pattern that’s causing it to be attracted in.

You know, when people are born into the world they aren’t able to feed themselves, or clean away their own excrement, or even hold their own head up straight. There are multiple higher powers that are keeping you safe and alive, and some of them never go away. That type of force shouldn’t be a dead space in the view of life.

But the sense of people going their own way. The sense of “I’ll do what I want to do because I want to do it”, without a thought to what life itself or God (in a non-denominational sense) wants… That sort of thing is common to most people. But finding it in a spiritual context, as a norm or as something celebrated, it pains my soul.

This realization has been therapeutic.

There’s always a sort of naive reactive patterning that tends to exist in people’s minds— my own included. Where specific things we identify with are seen as the best and alternatives are somehow lesser. It’s been good to unpack that. Separating the layers of conditioning and reactivity that may limit my awareness and understanding.

It’s having the fully realized understanding that something isn’t necessarily bad, but (at the same time) it’s not aligned with me nor I with it. It’s good to have that closure.

It’s like even my environment is giving me a push in a different direction-- a fortune-cookie message was just sent my was saying “appreciate yourself and honor your soul”.

I guess I’ll see how things shake out.

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i agree with you. and its fine if you say goodbye only to come back again later on :woman_shrugging:t2: we are in a constant shifting time more now than ever and very rapidly so whossss watching!! you do you always.

i mean my reply may sound contradictory to what you said in some parts but it isnt. and i am sure you can pick up the difference when people say that really genuinely or just copy cat-ing to feel empowered… which is your point.

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That was an interesting eclipse. Way more impactful than I had thought. I didn’t even know that it was happening until March 11. I could feel a bunch of different things moving in and around me, and that’s probably one of the things that pushed me to start writing on the 7th.

It makes me wonder if this thread should be left where it is and a new one should be made instead. Outward events might still be unsettling, but we are now in an new and better energetic landscape.

This eclipse seemed to be more impactful than the solar eclipse 11 months ago on April 8.