Please help a human out

#1

Hi, my name is Rory.

I find myself stuck and ask for some advice. I am addicted to porn since 10 years old and can’t seem to stop for very long. I don’t know my sexuality at all. I feel at conflict.

My self esteem is at the floor, I have debts through some poor choices around investing. Never had a romantic relationship and and I have lost all my friends now due to a complete lack of self love. I haven’t really lived or done anything of note and my relationships reflect this and I feel a great sense of shame and dread.

I can’t remember a happy time, I have recently been diagnosed with a connective tissue disorder and my knees dislocate, gastrointensinal issues and chronic pain and fatigue I live with. I feel ungrateful, unloved, selfish, lost, a deep sense of despair. I genuinely don’t know who I am.

I think I have avoidant personality disorder, complex ptsd from some negative experiences in my family growing up. I avoid everything, cannot open up to anyone without feeling intense shame.

My goal is to sort my life out from now, in no particular order:

Finances to clear my debts by end of next year
Increase my fitness through daily walking
Eat healthier
Remove porn and self harming acts from my life
Find out who I am on any level
Find gratitude (it feels impossible right now for me)
Develop relationships

I have the point of no return field and the new perspectives and have just been playing those two. Are there other things anyone would recommend?

I guess I am here to ask for some guidance from someone wiser and more understanding than myself.

Thank you for listening.

Much love
Rory

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#2

Oh perfect, those two came to my mind immediately.

First of all:
Welcome to the forum :tada:
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Second of all:
Play this song:

Loop this song if you feel like doing so.

Make it a personal mantra: the past cannot define me (or use you instead of me, if it sounds nicer). Life is overall very dynamic and fluid, change is the constant. Which means situations can always be turned around no matter how dire they appear on the out- or inside.

Further, it should be blatantly obvious that your health shall henceforth become the toppest priority. Which means you will start implementing tremendous habits like deep breathing, meditation and cold showers, exercise, etc. Sounds daunting? It should. But this is it. You have decided to become better, to become your own captain and turn life around. Ask yourself: What would my life look like if I don’t do this? And the answer might look very scary. It is supposed to scare you so much that you are auto-motivated to improve.

There are many many fields you have at your disposal. And they not only need to be paid ones. Though the ones you already have (PoNR and New Perspectives) are very good choices. I would definitely add Abundance Mindset from the Mindsettings album. And the Love, Gratitude and Appreciation field. Try to look into Soul Core Restoration too. And Aura and Energy Body Repair. You will also require the three treasures Jing Chi and Shen. There are free versions and paid versions.

If this sounds a bit overwhelming, it is fine, just start somewhere, anywhere. Consistency is absolute key. Your mindset will slowly adapt over time.

And feel free to ask questions here.
Also, trust me, many people have had similar experiences and are shining lights already.
If they can, so can you.

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#3

Hi, Rory!
welcome hummingbirds

Glad you joined us. We are all in different phases of growth on the path of life. This is a great place to get suggestions and meet new friends. We won’t bite! :slight_smile:

Somewhere along the line you might consider The Blueprint of Life:

" . . . a very concentrated light of change … sinks down to even a genetic level to implement a higher form of harmony."

The best of luck on your quest!

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#4

Thank you, reading what you wrote gave me some hope.

I have the soul core restoration audio and auric and body repair audio, many of these audios I
bought a while back in desperation to feel better.
This time is different though! I will play these two as well as the ones you suggested alongside the new perspectives and point of no return.

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#5

Thank you for the welcome! This audio looks really interesting.

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#6

This is ridiculously effective.

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#7

Please give it a try and use this everyday atleast twice and whenever you get an urge to watch p. I’ve been an addict since last 5+ years but thanks to this binaural, I’ve been clean since last 2 months. I kept ignoring it assuming that it just might be another simple dopamine receptor healing video, but it turned out to be something more than that.

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#8

Thank you, great name btw. BeHappy :blush:

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#9

Hi Rory :blush: ! Welcome among us :relieved::pray::sunny:!

Have you tried the audios on the chakras (on the site Sapiens Medicine) and the one that acts on energy blockages (Energy Blockage Removal) ?
These audios helped me a lot in my beginnings on sexuality and instinctual desires.

I highly recommend “ego dissolution”. This will allow you to calm your mind and let new ideas and thoughts come to you that can guide you in making the best choices.

If you have a Patreon subscription there is “best patch in life” which can be a very good complement :pray:

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#10

I have suffered severe porn addiction.
Besides fields, subliminals, etc I would recommend you delete all porn stuff you have and block each website site domain related to porn in your computer or cellphone with a block site extension, there even are some exclusive for porn ie

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#11

Thank you for the welcome :purple_heart:

I will give the energy blockage removal one ago. Im trying the sacral and base chakra audios the past 2 days now :blush:.

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#12

Welcome, @Rory! :pray:
I hope this becomes a place of healing for you, as it is for many of us already.

Point of no return is good or even great, I would suggest to continue with that; chakras fields (for all 7 main ones, those from gumroad) are also great, fat to stem, dna repair, anti ging are also Amazing, among other possibilities (including those mentioned already in the previous comments); life is a struggle for All of us, although not in equal measure, as all individuals have distinct issues to surmount, so you should not feel alone, we are all learning self-love and how to live in this world.

Have a Wonderful Time around here.

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