@Michael1 you kinda already explained the issue yourself further above:
Ok.
Suppose there exist 1 million Michael1s right now in parallel. One of these is your current version. And one (or more) of these is living the life of receiving on a daily basis the affection of a beautiful lady and their child.
You basically need to realize right now that in this moment you can indeed feel into yourself and feel this exact same affection the Michael1 of one of the other 999999 Michael1s (or more) is receiving.
You wanna do this to feel this internally right now, because it feels beautiful, and not for the reason of manifesting such reality. This is a kind of surrendering or letting go, but also a realization of your own innermost power.
Which leads us to:
This statement is then true, because there’s no external power required for your internal happiness (purely logical conclusion).
When you reach that, and it’s not as difficult as it sounds, the manifestation - in your case a beautiful partner - appears and with the intention of starting a family with you.
I’ve tried so many times, but it feels like I’m vanishing, like I’m living a life that isn’t mine and making fun of myself. And you know what, the best part is that when I do that, living as if she were already there—sometimes I’ve even tried to feel her hugs, to go out and have her hold my hand—everything stops. Every manifestation stops, everything that involves women, since we’re talking about this, you understand? Whereas, when I start thinking about attracting her, and doing things, and creating camps and subliminals to attract her, then things move, even if they’re wrong, but they move. Do you know what I mean?
I recommend you trying the Higher self audio, and in meditation with it, ask him to align you with that timeline where you get all that.
And then trust the process, trust your path - and yeah, to implement certain things, it can take some time, don’t rush yourself, be compassionate with yourself, it’s okay.
Could you recommend a well-made grounding field? Because after my subliminal/field sessions, I don’t use it, and so I feel like my manifestations are wrong, as if they’re stuck on higher planes. You know, is there anything I can do?
Here you go, maybe this explanation will help you:
The key to manifestation is what your Subconscious Mind believes (!), not what you with your Conscious Mind do.
The worldview of your Subconscious Mind counts as it is the one that does the majority of the manifestation.
The Subconscious Mind is the most important piece of “you” and your waking consciousness is just a tiny part of the whole.
You can also talk to your Subconscious Mind and negotiate with it like you would with a friend.
Speaking to your Subconscious Mind while in Theta brainwave state will have a huge effect. As well as any other tool that will help to shift your Subconscious Mind’s perspective.
IMPORTANT:
Just like you with your conscious mind, the Subconscious Mind has also free will (!) and it has to change deep seated core beliefs by its own choice. So approaching it as your best friend will help infinitely.
This is also one of the reasons why most people fail with affirmations etc. – because they try to brute force the Subconscious Mind into compliance and change.
This of course, does not work, because not only is the Subconscious Mind much more powerful than this input, but also because its free will is being violated and not appreciated.
How much emotional energy something consumes during conscious manifestation is directly proportional with how much in alignment this something is with deep seated subconscious core beliefs.
Manifesting is easy when your Subconscious Mind believes this to already be your reality as this is then already a part of “you” and your whole identity setup.
But most humans grow up with negative and limiting beliefs in their Subconscious Mind, so upholding constructive ideals consumes energy, because you have to consciously work against your own Subconscious Mind all the time.