I’ve had bad trips on shrooms too man. And honestly, I’m grateful for them as I learned and grew a lot from them. In those days, I wasn’t all that mature but I still had a resilience to negativity so I just took it as it came. But it all happened because I rejected certain thoughts and feelings, and that ended up turning into a living nightmare while experiencing it.
If you lost consciousness, then there are few possibilities here. You had an ego death but fell to fear and got extremely erratic and entered a state of psychosis. If you ego death and instead of surrendering, you end up clinging to dear life and fighting the feeling, you can easily go mad. In that madness, you… lose consciousness.
Another possibility is that you might have genes for scizofrenia or something of the sort, and mushrooms triggered that. Doesn’t mean you are going to be scizofrenic now. If you feel normal and fine now, then you’re good. But this does happen to people who have that sort of thing in their genes.
Or it could be something else. I wouldn’t know unless I was there and could observe your behavior.
All in all, that’s quite a traumatic experience. Sorry you had to go through that. I think with an experience like that, it’s time to hang up the phone. I wouldn’t suggest delving into psychedelics anymore. You don’t know why something like that happened to you and it’s best to not find out, in case it’s something that could leave a permanent scar in your beingness.
If anything, consider yourself lucky. Some people don’t ‘make it back’ so to speak. This is why while I do speak very highly of psychedelics, I don’t recommend them to people. The risk is always there.
Also… I don’t know why but shrooms also have a higher rate of bad trips than other psychs I’ve noticed. Not cause shrooms are bad. It’s basically (from my experience) connecting you to the shroom hive mind which is ancient and so in tune/connected to everything. And so you get tuned into a cosmic unity while on it. But you are sort of in the passengers seat for a shroom experience. In for the ride. So, the lack of control isn’t great on it and raises the risk of a bad trip if something goes wrong in your environment, ext…