Hi buddy,
Yes a big chunk is definitely related to that relationship. It’s been like this for over a year — but even then I’m not as bothered with the emotions. What is bothering me is this weirdness, this odd state of consciousness that I’m in. I can barely smell or taste things, have no sexual pleasure, or I essentially do not enjoy anything related to Earth plane because it feels as if I’m not in my body.
Yes, I do have all the fields. I’ve been going through each of them several times a day and using the internal alchemy in between. It does have an affect but the brain pressure is still there. It has lessened a lot though in that my third eye for 2/4 of the day does not hurt anymore but the pressure is essentially there from the moment I wake up and go to sleep.
I know for a fact the problem is 90% to subliminal I have exposed myself to for the past year. They gave me imposter syndrome, just so many negative side-effects. I was always happy, confident, humorous, uplifting, etc but when I started listening to that crap it exhausted me, brought out so much trauma, pain, fear all at once and since then I’ve been having headaches, and my Soul feels fragmented like it does not want to get in my body anymore.
Sure the relationship thing was a part of it but it’s not big deal compared to what I’ve gone through.
My whole life feels unstable right now.
Ever since I’ve been trying to fix my energy because if my Mind/Body/Spirit is whole and healthy again I can finally, once and for all put an end to this suffering and transform my life for the better.
But I need a functioning and healthy body and mind for that.
I will keep going with the Soul Restoration and Alchemy Series in the hopes that things work out for the better.
I’m always open for new suggestions, if anyone thinks he or she can help me I will give whatever at try. At this point I just want to live life again.