Should I write anything? I don’t know…
I guess I might as well, these thoughts don’t go anywhere else.
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–This is just a collection of rambles. Not everything needs to be profound.
I do like exploring different parts of my own past and history in this way, though.
Different points where the connection is stronger. I remember when I encountered this sense of the light when I was still in high school. Lots of fun self-development things were going on at that time. I like revisiting some of the themes from that time. I had thoughts of being an olympic athlete or going to an Ivy League school lol.
I never really had the competitive drive for it, but I did enjoy all of the training. I like a lot of the brain fields since they make the brain training a bit more like physical training with how it can be regimented.
I might write some more stuff about dissident physics things, since they have the best connection to things I’ve experienced and some of the material is hard to find. We will see how things go.
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Expression is a pathway for growth - by giving these thoughts a physical quality that others can interact with, they will travel quicker, and pathways for more profound exploration will unfold - alongside more visceral expressions of energy.
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Please do!
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I like weird books. It’s one thing where odd ideas are taken for granted and people commit to paper. It’s something else when the ideas are expressed rigorously and are born from a strong discipline of getting the concepts to match the phenomena.
*Edit – Oh well, there goes my formatting lol
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Interesting eclipse day. It started off with probably the worst nosebleed that I’ve had in years lol. I don’t know exactly what the trigger was, but I could feel an energy around it. The blood is solar, so it does have a peculiar relation to the events of the day.
I’m not in the direct path of the eclipse, but there was a noticeable change in the lighting. And when the light started to dim, there was a peculiar slackening to the qualities of energy in the immediate atmosphere.As though the sun had a gravitational pull that gave order to the flow patterns in the energy, and the moon took the “wind out of it’s sails”, so to speak. When walking around, it was a bit like wading through mud, but with a lightness to it.
It was a strange blend. In the hours where the light first began to shift, there were plenty of unpleasant energies that arose as well. That sort of jagged and entropic burn quality. An intermittant quality of bombast and aggression, quite similar to what frequently gets blasted on the forum lol. And, at that point, I decided to run a circuit of uplifting and protecting fields. Shatchandi Yagna, the Love Graviton, Blessings of Freya, and Blessings of Aphrodite.
The fields seemed to run into resistance as they played, but the closer things got to the full eclipse, the more the light vibes seemed to take over. Instead of wading through mud, it was like walking through a mist and being one, in some sense, with it.
I don’t have a high quality camera, but I have a bunch of different shots of the sky and shadows at midday
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Interesting… Thanks.
I may look more into those.
I think I might have seen the Flying Serpents one at around the same time that Marshall Masters was on Youtube talking about how Planet-X was going to shake everythig up. Time Rivers seems very familiar too, but I can’t find anything that relates to it. Something about the rivers and astrological ages sounds familiar, though. —There’s definitely something with the energy of the pyramids. I’ve never been there, but I know an advanved qigong practitioner who did and he mentioned something distinct about the place.
I typically go for the fringe science and math books, but those are reminding a bit of these:
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I’m adjusting some things with NFT usage. I’ve been behind layers of shields for a while and things still get through. I won’t give any direct details, but I think I might work with Psychic Empathy a bit more.
I had been on a hiatus with intermittant work. Sometimes, the sensitivity was too great and it was better to step away for a little while. Other times, work was taxing enough that it was like living as a scab or a callous-- either not feeling much, or feeling mostly not great things.
Getting back to Psychic Empathy was a refreshing experience. It feels a bit like the Love Gravitational Wave and Aphrodite had become more strongly imprinted in my energy field since I listened during the eclipse, but that may just be a temporary thing. But, regardless of what’s going on, it’s made for a smoother re-integration experience. A strong re-building of the head-heart connection.
I don’t know too much about psychic abilities that I would want to work on. In general, I just appreciate being a bit of a raw nerve, open to the world lol. Being hghly sensitive and feeling everything that happens. It’s frequently not a pleasant thing, and if there are occult factors around it can definitely go in weird directions. But, under good conditions, it is a very nice way to be. To sit un the sun, feel the photons reach the surface of my skin, feel the breeze, the solidity of the ground, everything.
I mostly just like getting a clearer and more extensive direct experience of things. So, for me, Psychic Empathy is number one. But I also like things like the Test of Tetrachromacy, the Sharp Senses NFT, and other things that enhance perceptions. Being open to the world around is what makes the miraculous effusive in the mundane.
It’s very easy to lose senses, though. In the first phases when the project was just minted, viewing any type of violent media would be a painful experience. But, that goes away with exposure. Lots of things go away with exposure. So I mostly just work with Psy Empathy to keep the sensitivity thresholds low. Or to enhance wiring in the Insula and other areas; it’s too easy to become stuck in a callous shell after the pain sets in.
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High energy event which amplifies one’s “crystallization/manifestation” powers. (Will Power)
Many people lack the sufficient awareness to leverage such periods constructively. Or at the very least, to neutralize energetic fluxes.
(Of course, crystalized beliefs and structures will exert a stronger influence)
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Alchemized Astral appearances… interesting.
In the early years of spiritual seeking, I had been bombarded by a lot of bad contitioning around the development of different capabilities. People saying to not open the third eye, not develop any extrasensory perception, ignore the astral layers. All kinds of things.
There is a general level of wisdom with that. Many people break into one capability and it becomes like a new toy that they become obsessed with. And, with things like the astral levels of reality, it can become a massive distraction for people. --In my own scholarship, it seems that almost every religion that had a high alchemy (capable of transcending the cycles of death and rebirth) was eventually brought to the point of losing that knowledge because people became obsessed with astral realms and ritual activities. —Things that were far more engaging and dynamic than the discipline of meditation and internal refinement.
So, I’ve been pushed away from doing anything astral. But I’ve taken some level of interest in it. I’m still annoyed that I can barely see anything through clairvoyance, and one element of it would be related to astral vision. So I think I will be leveraging different things to enhance visual capabilities as well as astral capabilities.
I’ve picked up the Astral Portal, and the training fields should be interesting to try as well. And I can also leverage the capabilities of the Light of Mages and Psychic Empathy to help break into different layers. I think the greatest difficulty will be getting around/past sleep deprivation. I typically get 5 hours of sleep or less and that’s generally not enough.
https://sapienmedicine.gumroad.com/l/tRQLN
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Breakaway reasons for wanting to explore the astral:
I’ve always had a connection to the Fae. They’re shown up for my in many different places. I think there’s always been a strong connection on the Maternal side of my family. There were always figurines of pixies at my grandmas house, and different statues of unicorns and dragons that my mother had kept.
I had also had an interest in folklore and arthurian things when I was younger, so the Fae made recurrent appearances in media related to that and even in a book I found randomly at a thrift store many years ago:
So it would be very neat to finally see them. The energy has always been in my life, in one way or another. And it seems that a lot of fields that I have are Fae related. And the Alchemized Faery Being is the newest addition… I would very much like to see what it is actually doing some day lol
So I guess more training shall commence.
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if you do the following, you can format it as a table
| blank_header | blank_header | blank_header | blank_header |
| - | - | - | - |
| image1 | image2 | image3 | image 4 |
and so on, like this (edit: it does require a \ (backslash) before the | (pipe) of the [image|150] otherwise it interprets the pipe as a column boundary)
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Thanks…
Well, try as I might, I couldn’t get it to work.
I was able to get closer, but there’s still something broken in the format whenever I finalize it.
“Once you’ve defined your enemy the day got structure”.
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I don’t know where that quote is from, but I guess… people choose their reference points, and orient accordingly.
I don’t define enemies… I know what is good, and I try to preserve it. Many things are in opposition, but they aren’t necessarily enemies. People can have opposing views, and even resort to passive aggression and mockery, It is what it is.
Maybe there is wisdom in defining enemies? lol. Or, at least, (in a weakened form), acknowledging that we may never be on genuinely good terms with some people. Some people define their existence in one way, others chose another way----set them in the same room, and it’s not gonna work lol. Against all my wishes, some things just don’t resolve lol.
Early on, I held the sort of non-dual, one-ness view. But that tends to not be something that shows up in a genuine way in many places. It’s like someone avoiding conflict by saying “yes, we agree”, and then moving in to push you in another direction. Sort of in the way of “yes, we agree— and now (since we agree), do this and that and this other thing” lol.
It makes me wonder how to consider things in reality. With all the diagrams and discussions of layers of matter, there are a bunch of different ways to think about it. Different cosmologies can show up depending on where the priority is given. --We could have a unified material world, with a bunch of subtle areas branching off in their own pocket dimensions. We could have a unified “immaterial” world, with a bunch of different physical things. We could have a singular world, with everything in the same system. Or a Wholly disunified world, where our sense of uniformity is only in the overlap that we agree on.
But, I guess, at the end of the day none of it really matters to me lol. The inner world of yin and yang remains the same, the the moral obligation that I endorse is the same—to steward the life force. People can try to steal different attainments that show up on the Path, but the Path itself is the point.
It keeps on keeping on, regardless of honor and shame, regardless of freinds and foes lol.
The end is still in the beginning, even months after this thread had started and ended lol.
There has been an explosion of my own research in the past year. I had general knowledge of western occultism, but hadn’t explored it in depth. But, with the help of Light of Mages, I had explored the full gradation curricula for Nine different magical orders. Sadly, they are all quite broken. Not simply broken/incomplete in the sense of high levels being secret, but in that there are frequently no authentic top grades at all.
It seems like the last complete tradition had died with Martinism in the 1700’s. it was a very compelling subject of research for me because it actually had all the pieces of a complete system even if it was effectively defunct as an order.
The Golden Dawn had effectively been decapitated before it was even formed, and Thelema had basically grafted a Tibetan model of yoga onto a western framework in order to compensate for where the Golden Dawn left a dead end. So almost all currently existing orders follow the Gradation scale up to Adeptus Exemptus and then fill in how they see fit using a Tibetan Yoga framework. Some like William Gray’s order of the Sangreal draw more heavily from a Christian Kaballah, but almost all still keep the sort of progression that can be found in the Evans-Wentz presentation of Tibetan Yoga.
That brings me to an interesting recognition. What tends to separate Buddhism from Taoism is the training for the Yang Shen. The Yin Shen is the original spirit, it will persist no matter what and all supernormal and psychic capabilities are tied to the broadening of the scope of the true will of the yin shen. The Yang Shen, on the other hand, requires a specific consolidation of opposites.
Whereas capabilities of the spirit can be developed with different heroic methods, the yang shen is a very tempermental path. In some ways, it is “Straight and Narrow”. if the ethical principles are understood, then all the answers consist in creating the greatest degree of harmony, beginning internally and radiating outwards. In other ways, it could be considered a “Long and Winding” path because the actual preservation of harmony has a sequence of unique transformations that need careful guidance.
Anyways, I had also made a more in depth study of western alchemical literature. I always knew of the connection, but hadn’t paid much attention due to the difference of reference points. With help and guidance from the Immortal Path,my comprehension was greatly expedited. The Atlanta Fugiens and Splendor Solis can be read in perfect agreement with the Taoist view of alchemy. Likewise, earlier sources from George Ripley and even the infamous Nicholas Flamel can be read similarly. --However, the somewhat out-of-the-box symbology in western alchemy tends to have more in common with the semantic play we see in Zhaung Tzu rather than what can be found in Lao Tzu, which makes it difficult to understand unless you already know how the process manifests in the multiple layers/densities/dimensions of the energy body.
But that brings me back to the unique place of Martinism. As a French movement, people from that tradition had also interacted with other infamous individuals. Le Comte de Saint Germain is one such famous person. Quite a few years ago, I had encountered the Trinosophie, but it was near incomprehensible to me at the time. Now, although it is incredibly elitist (only someone in the elite literati of France at the time could even know what some of the symbols were), it also describes the same process. And, it holds a special place in some branches of Martinism.
This, in turn, brings me back to the discussion of the Yin and Yang shen and what separates Martinism from the later orders. — In principle, all of the different religions should be capable of leading a person to the same end. However, that only works “in principle” when we consider the requirements for isolation in advanced training. When isolated, certain living patterns become prominent and the layers of energy will eventually force a person onto a more specific path.
So much of the “doing” in the western tradition parallels the “doing” in some of the eastern traditions, and it is related to some changes in doctrine that occurred over the years. To return to how the Tibetan model has been appended to the western tradition, we can look at how both the Golden Dawn and Thelema have advanced grades move onward to the scrying of the aethers and the dissolution of different layers of accretion in the energy bodies. This parallels some of the Tibetan practices like deity yoga, sex rites, and the like.
It is technically not a problem, and is a valid technique for developing some portions of the energy bodies. But no one that I have encountered seems to return to the yang shen cultivation. I can see the basic outline of an alchemy that is the same or similar to what we find in Taoism. The progression from Trekcho to Thogdal to Phowa. Trekcho is similar to the concentration experienced during the successful emptying of the mind, described as when the heart is cold like ashes is Taoism. Thogdal would correlate to the further developments of the empty mind state (which appeared as the Jahanas in the older Theravada tradition) where you start to see the light of the shen. And Phowa would be the spirit projection. The break-point is that almost all training protocols turn it into a basic astral projection, not the projection that happens with a fully developed yang shen.
And that brings me to a concluding interesting point. Chaos Magick seems to have inherited most of the different insights and developments that occurred during and after Crowley’s time. Crowley was very interdisciplinary and innovative, but the overarching framework appears to basically fit into the Tibetan Framework of Evans-Wentz. It’s not a bad framework, but things are definitely missing when viewed from the traditional alchemical perspective.
The highest grade in Thelema is Ipsissimus. One of the best books that I have found on this subject is actually by the Satanist E.A. Koetting. I recommend it for the insights, but I don’t recommend keeping the book itself around—they do in fact work with hardcore demons and it’s a literal pain in my heart to be near. But the insights were good about the high point that you can get to with the training protocol. —Basically, it would get a person to a strong development of Will so that they can have anti-transmigratory capabilities.
The training was detailed as merging or projecting your consciousness so as to experience a state of oneness with anything or any combination of things, or even everything in the universe. Borrowing Taylor Ellwood’s view of “invocation”, people are capable of invoking beings into themselves but they are also capable of invoking themselves into other beings. So the training for ipsissimus would involve the invoking of one’s self into other beings to experience the universe from their perspective.
So why I mentioned Chaos Magick, and its place as the inheritor of the western tradition of the late 1800’s, through to the 1900’s is that it shows us what the high points of development look like. From Liber Null, it is stated that reincarnation is not optional. There are three options within “reincarnating”: Red, Black, and White. The red option had two forms—either a forceful reincarnation into your own bloodline, or having children to carry on your legacy. The black option is basically consummate vampirism and involves possessing a physical body. The White option would simply be choosing a natural birth (and is typically what Buddhists would do when maintaining a Bodhisattva vow). None would get the oft cited liberation beyond rebirth since the focus was on the capabilities of the yin spirit rather than the eternal vehicle of the yang spirit.
It’s been an interesting exploration. My early years in training were unproductive since I didn’t have a clear sense of what the alchemical path involved, and I was told to not look at all into things like magick. But, knowing the capabilities that exist in both routes, I can hopefully train across both in ways that don’t conflict.
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The Martinists were a very interesting sort of Rosetta Stone for the western tradition before it was broken in the 1700’s. Martinez Pasqually had an inside route to seeing all of the magical literature of that era, and probably more than we have access to now (as he had family in the Inquisition who had confiscated many writings). From that backdrop was assembled a synoptic view of magic, where divine theurgical practices were separated from other forms.
The narrative of the Treatise on Reintegration, from what I have seen, integrates many of the backstories that existed in associated with different magical works that exist. For example, there was the idea that the patriarchs had ongoing learning from angels and that Adam knew the secret of the Philosopher’s Stone from the time he left Eden. There’s a very neat mythographic, mytho-poetic history where you can see a clean blending of the metaphysics of the kaballah and the story. We could say that Adam (in the story) had the knowledge, or Adam as the template for humanity had/hasthe knowledge. ---- Lots of holographic references start shining through, and the alchemical descriptions involving the 7 planets and the 12 signs of the zodiac can start to be seen in biblical numerics, like the 12 tribes of Israel, 12 main Apostles, 7 Planets, 7 Major Prophets, 7 main archangels, 12 Minor Prophets, etc… The patterns of alchemy start showing up everywhere holographically. Like truly seeing the blueprint of the universe, with the ability to get any level of resolution, depending on how you focus on it.
And it can even be drawn back down to the linear references in literature. Paracelsus speaks of how Adam gained knowledge of the Philosopher’s Stone from an Angel, and the Book of Rezial is supposed to be that book. We have a Book of Rezial and, though it is cryptic, it basically goes through the same symbology and connected numerics.
Seeing it all was truly an enlightening experience, something quite endless in scope.
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But this brings me back to the concept of fields and where they may fit into the picture. Technically, no fields are required for doing alchemy apart from the ones that form naturally when the different changes in focus happen. However, when I was exploring the Mardukite tradition and their view of things, this gave me an interesting perspective.
So they talk about things in the fairly familiar language that somewhat bothered me in the past. Considering reality similar to a videogame, and that the structures that exist in the world are here from existing agreements that have been made.
— When people jump into that with only a background in videogames and not the mechanics of energy, that seems a bit too affirming of the imagination. It seems to suggest that belief itself makes things happen, which is not exactly true. There are mechanics in the substrate of the universe, and belief is a sort of action on the substrate. So the Mardukite group made that concept a lot more palatable to me because they had established a sort of mechanics in the backdrop with their exploration of the history of occultism. William Gray was an influence on this group as well, so I tend to read them in reference to his works, which basically use the Tree of Life as a tool for viewing the ongoing formation of concrete events that occur in every instance of existence.
So the prospect of “agreements” isn’t just psychological, it would be mechanical and on the level of creating constraints from pure, transpersonal consciousness down to the more material levels of things.
But, anyways, their view of humanity is that humans are to be identified with the boundless capabilities of the Spirit. And, much like the Gnostic myth, these boundless spirits were caught up in restricted material bodies. The view expressed is actually somewhat similar to the Martinist view, where the desire to Create a body is what entrapped humanity within a body. But, instead being locked into a specific narrative (as Martinism was), the Mardukite view was that humans, in spirit form, were all creators. Which is to say, we were all creating different things in spirit form and eventually created things that were so engaging that we entrapped ourself in a restricted creation.
This is an interesting prospect because it suggests that the creation of things like Fields and Servitors was a natural state and occupation prior to being incarnated physically. —I didn’t really have an appreciation for that until I learned more about William Gray’s work and the role of the Tree of Life as a tool for understanding creation. The Sefer Yetzirah (where we get the tree of life) is the “Book of Formation” after all. And the act of formation creates forms and morphology. And so, it fits neatly together that we have “morphic fields” that stand between consciousness and the densest canvas of matter.
This seems to give a bit more perspective on the sort of role that a complete Buddha or Taoist Immortal could have. In William Bodri’s work, he describes how these different beings rise through the celestial ranks by pushing people towards enlightenment. And, if they had trained alchemically to be beyond reincarnation, they would exist as pure spirits and basically live and work on every level above Malkuth. So they would be living with the spirits, back on the level where we were all presumably creating fields and energy beings for the pure love of creation before the dense world down here came to exist and hold people hostage.
—At least, that’s where all of the information that I’ve picked up leads me. It’s been an interesting exploration.
Ah, post limits. No more than three consecutive posts can be written since I don’t own this thread any more.
New entry below, written 12/8/24:
William Gray is an interesting source. He never outright affirms what I know from Taoism, but he always creates very clear parallels to it. And, even where he avoids making a comment on some issues, he tends to line up ideas and references that can link to the Alchemical tradition.
I think Daath, as a quasi-sephiroth, is an interesting point. Many people understand it as being the Abyss. In Gray’s Christianized Kaballah, he considered the sephira as being part of the body of God. Amusingly enough, with Daath being considered the Abyss, it was likened by Gray to a cloaca that keeps all of the excrement sealed away from the sanctity of the Godhead lol.
But that, I think, is only when we consider Daath in an incomplete form. One very interesting set of Diagrams appears in his extended work on the Tree of Life — It has been published under the names “The Talking Tree” and “Growing the Tree WIthin”.
Those two diagrams actually illustrate the big distinction in how the informal doctrine of non-dualism that appears in modern occulture differs from the old alchemical meaning.
Just taking a dive into the TV series Supernatural, I was looking into some of the Fan websites that had been assembled. An entire wikipedia with entries on lore and all kinds of things. You don’t have to go too far to see that much of what appears on youtube from different sources is from people who seem to get much of their information from TV rather than written sources.
It’s one of those funny things where God and The Devil were put on even terms, and the world is seen as being held in a cosmic balance by good and evil.
The old sources wouldn’t say that. Technically, Evil doesn’t exist until Heaven and Earth were made separate. When the spiritual light of Daath is broken and descends through the lower Sephira causing Malkuth to form. When an alchemist finally refines the body back into pure spirit, it is the complete reconciliation of their portion of Malkuth into the higher realms.
With a background in the physical transformations described in the old Buddhist writings as well as Taoist Alchemical literature and some works on Yoga, it’s a clear illustration with obvious parallels. Daath isn’t supposed to be an Abyss. Only as a broken Sephiroth will it be an abyss. It starts to become restored when the light regains its fixture there.
That is the Taoist “Turning the Light Around”, the Therevada emergence of Nimitta, and the Tibetan developments of Thogdal. But, the proper development of it is built on the total coordination of the layers of energy that compose a person’s different “bodies”. That is how the sublime unity is gained.
But that’s, once again, a difference in the prevailing ideas in contemporary occulture. Good and Evil are not counterbalanced. Evil is annihilated/dissolved when harmony and, consequently, unity are achieved. Yoga is the uniting of opposites which also results in the dissolution of the lower levels. This is the true return to Oneness.
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