No need to be sorry man
be thankful that you know the trigger and you can fix it. Now how to fix it I do not know. Because you know…people say “fix this,fix that,fix the other”. (this happens mostly because they want to fill their frame of reality with what they know already)
and I say yeah man but I don’t know how, if I knew I would have fixed it
and by the way this thing I tell you now I learned about 5 hours ago. I aint joking, you learn stuff just in time.
(and the “just in time” I learned 5 hours ago too)
who knows though. Maybe in future if things are so in tune I will learn something about psychology and teach you how to overcome it,why not? But I think you know more of it