I’ve been havind only weird and bizarre dreams lately. Also quite meaningless. I don’t get it…well I think it is connected to my health issues now that I think of it.
So a lot of dreams of food and stuff, and the weirdness is probably my stomach giving me no rest.
But I also got killed three times in a row (three dreams) the other night. Fun times.
Fun times like I said…debating wether to sleep or do some work I should have done already…
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I just realized I’ve been praying as two halves (masculine and feminine), them being golden and silver. And never realized the connection with mstate gold and silver. Maybe whatever I’m seeking with my two halves I could get with that field.
There is a certain amount of Jealousy/Envy in my heart/mind, whenever I see someone being better than me or doing better or having more success, etc.
Before, I was only envious of rich people lol, but now I’ve expanded, I don’t care about them (much lol), but I do care about how someone has a finer mind or a better charisma, more success than me, etc.
Now, dont get me wrong, I do NOT dwell on these lower vibes, but I do acknowledge their existance.
There’s still a part of me who sees success, power or knowledge as being thresholds in this world…
Although I do see the soul behind the curtain, I acknowledge the Divine within others behind the masks, still, I’m stuck in the Ego loop.
I don’t even know how my Ego works.
I have an old friend (not from the forum) who thinks that I’m full of myself… And maybe I am,
YET, this game of superiority and inferiority, yeah it’s an ego trap for sure, but I wonder, do I feel more superior or inferior (?), than/compared to others …
Whats the driving mechanism (?)…
Maybe Survival, and the rest are details lol.
If you’re asking me what I want…
There quite the wishes, I do want to achieve success on multiple fronts and I think I haven’t even seen my potential, nah, on the contrary, I only am aware of a little bit of what I am and what I can do…
I’ve seen too little of me, way too little earthly/material success.
Of course, I feel I’m much smarter and overall wiser than before, also healthier too, thanks to fields and other things.
Maybe it’s because I identify too much with my story.
I know that
Anyway, so there is no end of the world scenario, as each life/incarnation is a stepping stone, a story to make My True Self even Better.
Anyway, enough complaining and drama lol…
No one cares anyway.
Each person has their own troubles to solve and aspirations to fulfill.
Cya later.
Cows have been appearing in my life lately LOL. what is cow message?
Someone close to me painted a cow recently because they’re obsessed with cows. I purchased a cow accessory for her birthday this weekend. My coworker has been wearing cow print for the past two days, and we’ve discussed the joy of cow. and now your honorary cow post Rocket. 
Idk, but you have to pay attention to more details, like color(s), circumstances (any words or things being mentioned besides the cow).
From a dictionary of dreams I found out like how the cow looks is crucial, although Idk if this applies to you (you didn’t mention dreaming about them).
Usually it has to do with mother, motherhood, feminine energy or stuff, etc.
In the Dream, if the cow is sick, it means bad things, if she’s fat, it’s a good thing, it can mean prosperity, well-being, abundance.
White color is good, red one is fury or madness, etc.
I just feel empty on the inside.
If I were to describe the vibe of my life, it’d be this music piece in a nutshell lol…
Hmmmmm! Thank you!
Interesting! I will pay closer attention. Thinking back, most of these conversations were about just loving cows . The painting was of a cow with a crown on her head. I’ll see if there are any emerging topics surrounding the cow mentions to get a better understanding
A trusted psychic could illuminate more than I could though, if you want to explore it deeper
Thanks, I suppose this means I should look deeper into it myself, since I’m usually the person people call about these things. Hehe.
Let’s see what’s spoken….
